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Week 17: 5th-11th July 1999 
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This week I've been getting a bit nervous about time. It's not that long before I go back to Mexico and it seems I have so many things to do before then that I've been panicking a little. I still don't have a job lined up, so that's the real worry at the moment. I've had some encouraging news from an application I sent off months ago, but I'm keeping my fingers crossed.

I hope K's OK at the moment. I know I'm missing her like crazy, and I keep trying to imagine what she's feeling, how she's dealing with the distance and the waiting. I could spend hours worrying, and sometimes do, but I keep telling myself itself it's no use making myself ill over it. I wouldn't be much use to K then. So I follow the tried and trusted method of working as hard as I damn well can, and hoping it dulls the sadness. It's not a good remedy, but it seems to be the only one that works now. I only hope I don't pay too much for it later.

On a happier note, I've heard from a few friends recently, and it makes me feel better to know how they're doing. However, the nueva yorqueña's having a tough time at the moment, so I hope she's coping with her troubles. Mine just pale into insignificance, but she wishes me and K well, which just goes to show what a big heart she has. Canadian gov's due to leave Mexico soon, which makes K sad, as she remembers my despedida every time a friend leaves. I just have to keep reminding her that I'm coming back, and hoping that that's enough. I feel so powerless stuck here sometimes, and I want to give her the world when I get back. I pray that I can!

 

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