I had always sort of thought that you would be there..
                       
somehow, though I never really expected it of you..
                       
in fact, I wanted you to go on.. without me..
                       
I was so afraid, I wouldn't be enough..
                       
and you were so willing to give up so much, for me..
                       
I couldn't take that chance.. couldn't ask that of you..
                       
For months I turned away, afraid to even talk to you..
                       
afraid that you would still be there.. waiting..
                       
so I kept silent, and hoped, that you would forget..
                       
and you did, eventually..
                       
Maybe not forgot, but you went on..
                       
and found a life without me..
                       
And now.. now I feel the emptiness..
                       
knowing that a part of my life has been closed off..
                       
now it is I that must go on..
                       
hopefully a bit wiser now..
                       
knowing that my doubts were just that.. mine..
                       
they were not yours..
                       
But I will not go on without you..
                       
because.. always..
                       
a part of you stays with me..
                       
just as I have been with you..
                       
Always..