August 21, 1999
Unknown Angst
By Candice D.
Where has my instinct gone? Why are we cursed with these deep minds? They are useful, they help us see beauty, interpret it. But my eyes are tired.. my brain is tired.. my heart is tired.. from the constant beatings.. from the constant pain from the constant solitude. No longer anything or anyone to shine the light down the tunnel. And I see no end...I see no hole. Is this even a tunnel? Tunnels have beginnings.. and endings... I had a beginning..but is my ending as dark? As bleak? Do I actually have a choice? Or have all my matches blown away before they could light the fire? There are only embers left now. Just ash. Is there a way out of here??? Or are my insides going to constantly scream? Are my eyes going to constantly fade.. are my hopes going to diminish.. are my dreams..just dreams? Is all that I know..not? There is no reckoning..Nothing TO UNDERSTAND! there is nothing...nothing. How I want to claw my way out.. to punch my way out.. to scream my lungs out.. but i remain silent..as a doe i remain silent.