But for now, I'm exhausted.

There's not enough sleep, oxygen, and caffeine for me in the world.

This morning, I woke up with an 87 fasting (perfect!) Then I ate a perfect meal and didn't take insulin and my sugars were 131 (normal is 100-130 after eating more or less), so I did ok. I'm still on one dose of prednisone a day, but at lunch, I'll take it and just push a few units of insulin to cover for lunch and dinner and then I don't have to do a morning shot. I'll do this for a few days until I'm off prednisone altogether and then I can go back to breathing and exercising and stuff like that.

I'm actually resisting taking the prednisone altogether because I always feel like crap afterwards, but I had to wake up a few times for albuterol treatments and that's not a good thing at all.

I can't wait until January 1, because then we switch to the PPO and I can get whatever medication I want, as long as I pay the co-pay. Formulary stuff obviously has a lower co-pay, and no-formulary stuff like some of the meds my doctor wants me on is higher, but it's better than not getting what I need.

I'm freaking out right now because the owner just called me and told me that they are having a realtor through here on Friday because they are considering selling the house. I've been scrambling all morning with what to do with my credit report versus either of our abilities to obtain a house loan and it's not pretty. I talked to a friend of a friend who is a realtor about what I might have to do to have a rent to own option or at least make that offer to the owners. I know they are in a rent-to-own situation themselves in the house that they live in, so they might not be up for it. I would truly love to own this house.

Of course, the problem is coming up with the spare change to make a reasonable down payment on the place. And then having the credit to do it. I've already contacted Consumer Credit Counseling to see what help I can get. For example, if I can get my interest rates negotiated downward, so that I can pay off the debts faster, I'd be all set. I don't mind making payments, but if the interest rates are so high that your payments don't matter much, it sucks ass.

And about the first thing I'd do, if I owned this house, is paint over the stupid little bears and hearts in the kitchen trim and remove that stupid plaque. I'd probably stencil over it with herb stencils and get a framed tile of some collection of herbs. I love turquoise, but the whole bear and hearts thing makes me wanna hurl. And essentially there are these black-cheeked turquoise stenciled bears ringing the ceiling of my kitchen. It's a miracle there isn't a puke bucket in the kitchen.