 January 22, 2000 | ||
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I feel so overwhelmed lately. I've got a lot to do. There's the baby's room and all the baby's things to go in that room. I love dreaming the details of how to arrange each of those things and I really thought I had a handle on it and then someone brought me back a bunch of baby stuff I'd forgotten about. I've got more crap than I know what to do with and it's all baby, so of course, I'm feeling it's all essential.
I think some of why I feel so overwhelmed is that I know there's a lot of stuff I've forgotten about in Russell's closet and I'm almost afraid to start removing it and having to go through it. I just feel insufficient. I am so exhausted from working full-time and worn to a crisp by Monday because I'm trying to get so much done at home on the weekends. I wish fervently that I could stop working now. That I don't have to wait until that very somnambulent month just before I deliver. I hate having to feverishly work around the exhaustion. I'm lucky that I can telecommute, but I work exhaustively when I feel good, and rest when I don't. I started to fall asleep tonight at 7 and felt old and incapable of dealing with a newborn in 3 months. I know it will be better when I don't have all this extra baby body. I'm simply tired. | ||
| Fasting | 1 hr.after breakfast | before lunch |
1 hr. after lunch | 1 hr. before dinner | 1 hr. after dinner |
| 79 | 192 | 120 | 106 |