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I am the One
I am the one Who travels through dull wooden halls I am the one Who walks on tall frail stilts I am the one Whose hollow head explodes Showering the earth With ball bearings Onward I walk precariously My hips shaking With duress I am the one Whose head has caved My little steal beads Now an ocean of shining danger A dull click clack Arises from my wobbling gait A dull click clack My shaking beams create Starving before it reaches the eaves I am the one Who missteps And falls into My pool of pain I am the one Whose body cracks Unnoticed Like a gentle rain © Elijah MacKinnon, 1999 I wake up two seconds two seconds of peace two seconds before I make myself remember then it fills me already i'm so tired the day looms ahead a twisted bare road my mind is covered in brambles that I shall never be free from that little demon perched on top of my head digs its claws in deep you can't understand life is easy for you your whineing and crying it means nothing to me you do not understand the meaning of a hard day little do you know when that grin is on my face when I'm talking with shining eyes little do you know the horrors that I witness and just keep nodding just keep plodding fighting inside wearing a smile the demons needles thrust again or are those my fingers? digging into my skull trying to kill the machine I am that demon I am that force I am a civil war I am emptying I am so hollow filled only with this struggle to be silent in my mind for one moment is all I ask © Elijah MacKinnon, 1999 |