staring bright-eyed into the darkness
afraid to go any further
but afraid to turn back
this describes my love for you
so unsure so scared
someday i’ll be able to tell you
how i feel but
not today not when i need you the most
because
your not here for me
in my eyes you’ve died,been taken from me
i feel so alone and cold
this is my own imprisonment
i’ve crated my own hell and
i must live in it for
we have sinned
we pay for our sins, our stupidity
our destines collided and we became one
only to find that we would soon
be ripped apart
i feel distant from everyone
like i could die from this broken heart
i prayed i’d never lose you
now the day i did has come and gone
still i hope one day you will
return to my arms
even though i know
the damage i’ve done to you is to great
for you to
love me once more

© Meghann Simms, 12/3/99

* * * * * *

as if it were all untrue i cried
thinking to myself why i thought i loved you
i turned away and left you cold
when i first thought you didn’t care
before this thought of deceit came to mind
everything was perfection in own
i thought you’d always be there
i was so afraid of losing you
not knowing what to do
now that i’ve done this to you
i feel that we had was something true
to think that i accused you of betraying me
in reality all along it was me

© Meghann Simms, 19/2/99

* * * * * *

i’ve given you so many reasons to pull away
but still i never thought the day would come when
you’d leave me
when i look back at all we had
maybe we weren’t meant to be
but you can’t only blame me
you played your part you lead me on and broke my heart
and now were through even though i still love you
now i’ve come to say what we had was yesterday
the pass is over and done
but still i feel your the only one

© Meghann Simms, 1/1/99

* * * * * *

i had never been more happy
so intoxicated with love
to look deep into your into your soul
with the glance of an eye
now i know it was all a lie
that foolish game we played broke me apart and i never knew
that in your heart you didn’t feel the same
i’m beaten down left lonely and cold
you left me only to find
my love had been sold
for a price you paid simply with lies
your player ways are getting old
i’ll keep this heart brake of mine
a secret never to be told

© Meghann Simms, 1/1/99


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