"Disconcertment"
I hear what you say
but listen to your deeds
I can't find my way
to discern what you mean
Lost in confusion
contradictions intertwine
Elusive resolution
I wish it were mine
Usually frequent
understanding abounds,
but now each subsequent
statement confounds
My mind, muddled with
failed analyzation
Is your promise a myth
or waiting actualization?
Embarrassed to feel
how I do about you
Tell me what's real
show me what's true
Desiring the emotion
when treated with respect
not accepting the notion
I'm doomed to neglect
Considering the thought
of no longer trying
because I do not
wish to keep sighing
Awaiting the end of
this anxious strife
yet wanting your presence
here in my life
I reach no conclusion
but leave the door open
though lacking solution
I still keep on hopin'
Afraid to say more
I guess I'll just wait
this internal war
I'm sure will abate
Written June 2001
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