Actually, I might as well be an obsessive ex who stalks him. I finally got him to talk to my about why we broke up, but all he gave me was more crap, and I'm not dealing too well. I don't care if we never go out again, but I'd like to know why we broke up. When I asked him, all he'd give me were the vague answers of, "It's nothing you did... I guess it's on this end," and "I broke up with you so you could see other people." I'd like to know what type of logic he's using, because it makes utterly no sense to me. He also told me that he'd wanted to bread up with me for three weeks before school got out, but even now looking back, he didn't give much indication of what he was thinking. I think I'm more angered by the fact that he doesn't respect me enough to give me a decent answer then by the fact that he dumped me via E-mail and insulted me directly in the process. ::big breath:: Why am I acting like such a stupid girl? Why do I care what the reasons were that he broke up with me? Why haven't I just moved on with my life? For crying out loud, I have a picture of him and I hanging up on the corkboard above my bed. Why am I such an emotional basket case about this, and why do I not have the guts to just hash it out with him instead of making myself sick trying to reason out why he might have decided to no longer go out with me. Since we didn't do too much talking during the last two or three months, I really don't have a good idea of why. Mayhaps it was because we didn't talk that he decided to leave. This still doesn't answer why we dated so long and he decided I didn't even deserve to be dumped to my face, or at least recieve a letter stating why he wanted to break up, or even why he decided he didn't need to answer me truthfully when I actually asked him about it. This also doesn't explain why he claims that he still wants to be friends and that he likes hanging out with me, but won't say "hi" when he sees me and usually leaves within a few minutes of my arrivel. Does this rant not just reek of how pathetic and girly I'm being right now? Still there are nights that I get choked up about it, and I usually have at least one dream a night about him. It's really retarded, and if I'm going to act this dumb about a simple break up, then I do believe that I'm never going to date again. Not that this seems to be a problem since nobody appears to be interested in dating anyways. Mema isn't helping much either. She's been nagging me since August to get a new boyfriend. Obviously she doesn't seem to remember dating because last time I checked one doesn't just say to themselves, "Oh, I need to get a new signifigant other," and then poof they have one. Can anyone PLEASE help me out here? Any advice? Maybe a good slap to my face?? Something?! I really need to get a new subject to rant about. On a lighter note, I dropped the two classes I was failing, and added a mid-semester class, so I ought to have above a 3.0 for the first time in a while. Enough for now. I could spill everything, but there's a lot of stuff you just don't want to hear about, like the rant about why do my guy dormmates seem to think that they need to desensitize me to seeing guys with their shirts off? ENOUGH!!!!! Goodbye. The Dumping Ground