10/23/98...Geocities,Who host this page,just sent me an E-mail saying I don't qualify for their banner exchange program.Presuambly because I have inserted banners they don't"approve"of.It depends who you you sign on with to host your pages which banner program you may deal with.I took a chance and inserted all the popular banner programs,boosting my visiting hits 50 fold.I specify ,in all my enrolled programs ,that there shall be no commercial advertising.Geocities has refused this request and advertise commercially on my site without restraint.So it is not my site,obviously.If I ask for no intrusion,commercially, on this site by the other banner programs,why can I not continue to use Geocities'advertiser-subsidized space to do what I want as long as I don't violate their pornography guidelines? As near as I can tell,so far,your best bets for home page construction are Xoom.com and Angelfire.I hate advertiser intrusion and Geocities has become one of the most blatant.Since they have gone public on the stock exchange and encountered trouble with the the SEC,things have gone to hell at Geocities.I frankly don't care if they pull the plug on me.Nothing is worth this corporate censorship.It embodies all that gives capitalism a bad name. Geocities if you continue to hassle me,I am gone.I don't give a damn.If you need this space so bad,take it back.I have given you 100-150 hits per month by using the banners.If you would just as soon see another signpost here,pull the plug.I can learn to use another system.What about about the porn sites that use you for commercial gain?There are plenty of those you could be going after.

10/20/98...There seems to be alot of wonder among the media pundants as to why Clinton's job approval ratings are so high among americans.It's not that hard to figure.As a specie we are not that long out of the trees and off the savannah.The president is our surrogate alpha male.As an alpha male he is entitled to his choice of mates.Sure it's warped in light of our notion of genteel civilization,but the visceral residue of times past remains.We unconsciously accept such behavior as normal. Man do I feel crappy.

10/20/98...Geez it's been awhile.I don't know why I haven't updated lately,I guess nothing much is going on. A little is going on,my daughter is reliably on-line now,that's alot of fun. RuthAnn is in love.That's a good thing. My nephew,Jon,called the other day,he may be interested in helping me get back to the coast. You know I get the opportunity to watch a hell of alot of TV and for a time I thought the government was devouring itself,but things look a little more sane lately.I decided to vote this time around,a straight demo ticket,because I think the GOP are being bigger assholes than the Dems,if that's possible.You know what MSNBC stands for?More Sh*t No Body Cares about. That Ally McBeal chick is sure skinny,isn't she?Cute though. I plan to work on getting more of you to hit on my other site.I have decided that the universe is shaped like a modified torus,and am looking for a way to illustrate this for you.Here's a regular donut type: If one of you has a good graphics program and is inclined to cosmology and want to pursue this,I need to close up the inner radius and cross-section it,with annotations.The lines of force are going around the thing and forcing matter into energy upon approach to the pinhole center,causing alot of weird science.We are out on the perimeter and are unable to detect the recycle phenomemon and stupidly think there was a"big bang".The thing is constantly self-renewing.It's like both ends of a black hole ,encompassing the known and more.And there's no reason to think that it is the only one.Others may be simultaneous and integral.There can be a lattice work of co-existant parallel universi intertwined.Dream on it.

9/27/98...Been in the dark since the 23rd with ISP problems,my neighborhood provider has sold out to a conglomerate and things are not running smoothly.I was pretty darn spoiled with the service I was used to.Everything they tell me to do to upgrade to the new setup invariably results in catastrophe the first few times,and it's not all me.I have spent my Sunday afternoon restoring the old settings and suddenly the nasty E-mail that I wrote them out of frustration,and was stuck in my box,goes flying out the window when I get things back running again.Enough for one day,yes?

9/22/98...Hey,whadda ya know? One thing about this CFS thing that I still don't completely understand is the effect that stress has in causing relapses.It doesn't matter if it's emotional,psychological or physical.If I get a little stressed-out in any form or fashion I get really symptomatic (the flu-like stuff).I have had a lousy several days and am still in a fog,although yesterday I did go out and get some groceries. Maybe someone is curious about what happened last week (maybe not):after I had the visit with the shrink,where I was told I was being classified SMI due to my non-functionality,and qualifies me to perhaps get a case manager and some other neat stuff (?),I was going to the store and walked up on some sort of armed shakedown or arguement.The perpetrator saw me over his shoulder staring (I couldn't believe what I was seeing,I tend to stare when that happens) and said to me to mind my own business or keep out of it or something.I had to walk by them to get where I was going so I did,ducking into the Staple's office supply store and telling the first person that looked my direction that a guy was waving a gun at two other guys behind their store.They got the cops on the phone and it seemed like the dispatcher had to be convinced that the law was being broken.Gun laws are pretty lax in Arizona."Brandishing a weapon in a threatening manner" seemed to be the magic phrase I finally came up with and they sent over a couple cars but by then there was nobody to be found,at least not that I ever heard about.I wouldn't have perhaps been so quick to tattle except I go loopy when people try to intimidate me.I can be intimidated alright,but soon as I get the chance to get even I go for it.It bugs me no end.I got issues. About my non-functionalty,if you have no energy,you don't do much.If you feel like crap,you act depressed.You don't necessarily have to be "Severely Mentally Ill" to display these symptoms,however,I do often feel like something is raising havoc with my neurological functioning.Anyway,somethings just are the way they are and it's up to us to deal with it or not,as we deem appropriate....right?

9/14/98...My apologies,I'm traumatized.I was threatened with a gun today.I was classified as SMI (severely mentally ill) today.And John Holliman was killed in a traffic accident.I may be slow getting to the E-mail.If you call and I am drunk,all I can say is,you would be as well.I have a few dollars,if you have a line on a car that will get me out of here,please help. I had another vision of what is to come...: Those who have stashed provisions will have a distinct advantage.As much as I would prefer otherwise,there will be no fairness,no chivalry.If you are unprepared you will likely soon be dead.Not that living entitles you you to a worthwhile life,it will be truly hellish.I am betting that I will be better off dead.Have a nice day.

9/3/98...The whole eastcoast web has crashed,along with the airplane.I can't get through to anything but this.And I had so much to say... How many banners can dance on the head of a pin?

9/1/98...Hi,I've got messages to go to you,Melissa and RuthAnn,but my mail keeps crappin' out:hang on you'll get em.