2/8/99...I'm still spending my waking hours with my eyes half-shut. I still am doing the coffee-in-the-wee hours thing and am wondering how much of what wakes me is the crud and how much may be the meds wearing off that is waking me with a start. Nobody else seems to be very peppy, either. I tend to suspect that the larger portion of my deprssion group is down with CFS.

This is the first time I've set up an entry with wordpad, I can't say I'm all that impressed. You have to turn on the word wrap in it just like notepad, for cryin' out loud.

I turned the border off on the lower two-column table to make this more readable, whaddya think? The text was so packed next to the border that it interfered with legibilty. And I couldn't pad anymore without "past entries" wanting to wrap. I really don't know how to format a border; fortunately, I don't have to.

I don't think wordpad is any better than notepad, it's just as strange.

I don't seem to be able to think of anything else happening, oh, what should I do with the old sites ? They're redundant now, I guess signposts would work. I want to find out how to do one of those countdown things that redirect automatically.I saw the code once but didn't make a copy, so I have no idea how they work.
I'm so bored and tired. Totally blah. Thank God this may be the last week of impeachment. I think the guy's a brat but it was his luck he got caught.They're all scoundrels when they're about to bite the big one. I guess I'll cut back on that antipsychotic some and see what happens.Talk to you later.

2/4/99...Good Morning! It's six am, do you know where your marbles are?

I've got a mild case of the crud that's going around and it wakes me up sometimes. I have to down about 3 cups of strong coffee to start breathing again. Then I usually go back to sleep and dream like crazy. Of course after I wake up again, I'm no good for anything the rest of the day. A helluva situation.

Don't you think Britney Spears would be a good replacement for Ginger Spice? She's as good a dancer, certainly.

Went to People Skills class yesterday (I've got Coping with Depression today) and the leader was out sick. Talk about the lunatics running the asylum! I don't feel nearly as crazy, comparatively speaking. I don't know about that thing, I don't get it. It's mostly assertiveness training so far and it doesn't make sense to me. If I give you cigarettes when you ask me for them but you won't give me any if I ask you, I'm going to be pissed, right? And likely not to give you any more cigarettes. Right? That's the way it works. I won't get into what they are teaching because it doesn't make sense so I can't remember it...

What else? Oh yeah, you know how when they put you on an antipsychotic and the internal noise starts to diminish and you're feeling less anxious and driven, what you possessed in the way of creative juices seem to dry up? I think this is a very unfortunate trade-off. Not that I was doing anything creative, but I was amused sometimes by the outrageous notions that would bubble out of my brain. I was VERY uncomfortable, certainly, but it's really difficult to come up with anything to say about anything.
There was a guy in Group yesterday that, when asked a question, or otherwise spoken to, would say, "I want to be heard!". That's it. He apparently had nothing to add, but he wanted to be heard, regardless. It's kind of like that, these stupid antipsychotics and what they do to whatever you've got in the way of creativity.

That's all from this neck of the woods this morning, have a nice day.

1/24/99...How the heck are ya? I have been up to my usual nothing really, except that I am going to a support group and am enjoying getting out among people that don't look at me strangely. I have changed my perception somewhat of the clinic now that I am in class. They are ungodly slow in initiating programs and not real straight about explaining things to clients but, but after 9 months or so of screening and meetings, I am beginning to see some results. I am still skeptical and wary, but have decided to hang around for a time and see what happens. Also I am in the midst of my long-awaited site overhaul (I just know how you are all on the edge of your seats waiting to see that). I am doing battle with Wordperfect 8, and it's a real beast, but I couldn't find anything in the way of a WYSIWYG editor that would do the job intuitively and straightforwardly and still cost nothing (Wordperfect came with the machine). I still have to make use of an HTML editor, and think I've found a real gem in one called Dutch's,available through Davecentral. It's free because the HELP file hasn't been installed yet, but is fairly easy to use and has browser hookups and FTP. Have you checked in at Missyann's new page yet? If not, check the link below and give her a visit. I hope this impeachment thing is wrapped up soon, it's really depressing to watch those grown men act like a bunch of schoolyard delinquents. Later.

1/22/99...This is the Grand unveiling of my new version of Anecdotal Evidence. Naturally, there will be some initial goofs and screwups and I'm sorry if it upsets you, but hey, you try learning something new with two-thirds of your brain functioning (on a good day).