About Me
or:Who Is Isina?
Hi, my name is Isina.
It's a name I chose for myself, it came to me one
night as if in a vision, I wrote it down, forgot about it and about a year
later, when I started getting really serious about my Craft studies, I began to
use it. I am beginning to think of myself as Isina instead of Margaret, my
birth name. I intend to have it legally changed to Isina Margaret Schuler in
the early summer of 2002. The name Isina means "daughter of" or
"beloved of" Isis. Isis is my patroness. I don't really know
everything there is to know about her, I dont know a lot of the lore connected
with her, but she came to me at the first meeting of my first Craft study group
in 1994 and lifted me on her soft warm wings, cradled me in her arms and
welcomed me home.
I have been
married and divorced twice, and am now single and hoping to meet the right someone
sometime soon. I'm often really confused about relationships and how they are
defined. Sometimes I think I just want someone to cuddle with, talk to and have
sex with, and I did have someone like that not too long ago, but it wasn’t
enough for me, so we grew apart and are now just good friends... I have a
soul-deep craving to find my soul mate, that person who will complement the
kwazy wabbit that I am. I just hope I'll meet a man soon who will be delighted
with my nutso teenage kids and my bad habits. I keep praying for that to
happen, but it doesn’t seem like it’s meant to be. I keep forming these
attractions to guys that have no interest in me at all. I don’t seem to be able
to get my mind off one particular guy.. well, okay there are two. That poem on
my poetry page, originally written for one, could easily apply to the other,
but it wasn’t him in that dream ..
I work in a corporate atmosphere these days which I never thought was "me", but I love my job. I'm a Department Secretary for a healthcare organization, I've got a great boss and wonderful co workers and I believe in the company I work for. Not too many people I know can say that about their jobs. I'm a very fortunate woman. I'm able to be open about my beliefs and my lifestyle, I keep a small altar on my desk, which is about to get even smaller very soon. I don't have much room there, and every little bit is going to count real soon.
I have played the guitar for 24 years, self taught, and I write songs, but nowadays they're mostly instrumental... I seem to be lyrically challenged. I'm working on that. I have loved to sing ever since I was a little girl. Some of my favorite artists are Crosby, Stills, Nash & Young, )in any combination and each alone, they are my rock-n-roll GODS), Enya, Loreena Mckennitt, Joan Baez, Jewel, Alanis Morrissette, Bush, Disturbed, Godsmack, The Offspring, System of a Down, Fleetwood Mac, Vykrotia Pratt-Keating, Heart, and Sarah Mclachlan. I performed at the the Pagan Pride Day Harvest Festival in Sacramento on September 23rd, 2000 and also at the same festival September 22-23 2001. I'm excited and looking forward to 2002. I've taken on the job of publicity coordinator for the event this year and will also be running around doing whatever I can for other committees.
I'm part of a new Bardic Circle that's coming together in Carmichael right now, it's a pretty awesome group. I think I'm going to be dividing my time a lot in the near future between my eclectic Wiccan coven/circle and a Druidic Grove I've been forming an attachment to for a long time, of which the Bardic Circle is an offshoot, more or less.
I believe in life. I believe in nature. I believe that there is powerful energy in all things. I would like to believe there is only positive and negative energy, I would rather believe in that than believe there is true evil in the world, even though my mind knows there is. I believe it is possible for all the world to live in peace and harmony, but that we choose not to. It is our nature to be combative.
Okay, so that is me. Maybe if you come back another day, I will tell you more, or something different. But this is who Isina is today.
May the Brightest Blessings of the Lord and Lady Be With You Always ...
Blessed Be
