Isina's Poetry Page
I'm pretty excited, it's been a long time since I've seen some of the stuff
I'm putting here (June 2002) there is a long story about how all my poetry,
twenty years of passion and pain, were lost to me, but now they are found
and I have found some pleasant surprises; things that sounded strange to me
before I am enchanted with, my own writing, wow.. I'm taking these old semi-unfinished
poems and evolving them here, before your very eyes. Yes, that is true, I
will be adding and changing and refining my poetry right here on the web.
The only copy of this poetry resides here, in this file on my computer. All
materials here are copyrighted by
me.
All on this page was written by me, and all on the following page
were written by others, all is here for your enjoyment, and not to
copy and use elsewhere. Thank you, Isina
You Fill My Senses (new)
I've seen your face in throes of passion
I've felt your body slick with sweat
I've heard you moan and sigh with pleasure
I've tasted salt on your sweet lips
I've seen your eyes shining into mine
But it was only in a dream
Only in my dream
If I'm awake or I'm asleep
I can't get you off my mind
Thoughts of you invade my senses
I didn't ask for this to find
I didn't want all these thoughts of you
Inserting themselves into my mind, but:
My body yearns for the touch of your fingers
The slightest touch just blows my mind
I've never felt quite like this before
I've tried to put it all to rest
But hearing your name in the slightest mention
Sends my heart spinning round and round
It was only in a dream
That you made love to me
It was only in a dream
When you called out my name in ecstasy
Only in my dream
Only in my dream
But it felt so real
Do you see me in your dreams
Do you ever think of me?
Can I ask you about it
Can I talk with you
Are you open to finding out
If my visions are true
My visions of you
And me
2002
On Love and Loss
I've loved and I've lost
I often wonder will I love again?
Or is my love dried up, shriveled, dysfunctional
Rusted like an old bicycle tire
Lying sad and fallow on the floor
Am I used up, old and un-love-able
No, not me
I'll rise again
Like the Phoenix from the ashes
In that story of old
It wouldn't be so bad
If I hadn't loved before
It wouldn't be so hard to be alone
I'm trying to be patient
But I'm tormented by thoughts
Of those I've loved
And lost
And those I've loved
And never had
Questions and Answers
What are you searching for, my friend??
You're tearing around looking for something
You cannot name
It eludes you, as you race
Ahead of yourself, chasing the rainbow
You're never gonna find it that way
You say you 're looking for answers
To questions as yet unnamed
By you or any other
You say you're looking for
A teacher, a guru, a guide
Someone who can tell you what they know
So that you may find truth in their answers
Well, you've never left your armchair, my friend,
You won't find your answers like that
Living your big lie
You don't know who you are
Or where you're going or how far
Not even who you could have been
Or who you could yet become
I'll answer you this,
You can seek but you will not find
The answers you seek you cannot learn
From the wisdom of a mother, crone
Will not find in a book
No not till you look inside yourself
Will you find what you've been seeking
For so long.
But when you do…..
Will you tell me what you found
So that I may learn to seek my own answers???
Isina Margaret Schuler
3/15/2001 10:35 PM
One More
1995
When your days are long and lonely
And your nights seem to have no end
And you find you are your only
Family, lover and friend
And you think you just can't make it one more day
If it's like the one before
--you get one more
When you dream you're drowning in a well
And you think life's over, who can tell?
And you wonder why you're even here
With nobody to love and nothing to cheer
And you just can't take this life for one more day
--you get one more
One more day to drag you down
One more day to make you frown
You haven't learned your lesson yet
--so you get one more.
Life is what you make it
If you try hard you can fake it
Your life is what you make of it
Tomorrow's golden now
And you get one more
If you wake up in the morning light
And you feel like laughin; you don't wanna fight
Remember me and what I've said
If you give your love to all you see
Then your days will be much more happy
--and you get one more
--forevermore
Life is what you make it
If you find happiness just take it
Your life is what you make of it
You lose the game if you're fakin it
--and you get one more
Where are you now?
2002
Tonight I sit and wonder
Where you are and who is on your mind
I feel you sitting across the room
I could reach out and touch you, my vision is quite clear
My heart cries out for yours in the night
A love not mine to find I fear
Still, I wonder where you are
You're sure not here with me
My lonely heart lies empty, a gaping hole in my soul
I'm living on my sweet dreams of when your heart will beat with mine
In all those dreams you came to me
You gave me the gift of music and passion
Passion that came in and lit up the windows in my soul
Now the fortress inside my heart is dark, waiting for the light
That never comes
Isis tells me you're near now
But won't say who you are or where or when
So still my heart yearns to feel alive ,
as alive as only you will make me feel
I want to feel
I want to love
I want to give
And share my love with you.
UNTITLED
2002
The touch of your cool fingers on my burning hot skin
The sound of your beloved voice
Calling out my name
The heady perfume of your unique scent
As I awaken every morning
The taste of your skin as my lips
Trace a path down your body
The glorious sight of your naked body
Fills me with unbridled joy
The gentle strength of your arms around me
As you fold me in your warm
embrace
The fiery passion reflected inyour eyes
Whenever you make love to me
These are only a few of the countless things
That keep me loving you
And the miracle of your love is, to me,
A gift for which no equal can be found.
Secrets
12/5/93
Tell me
Tell me all
Tell me all of your
Deep, dark, juicy,
Too wild to tell
Tell me your secrets
Secrets
Are meant to be
Shared
Among friends
Not locked in the airless closet
Of your mind
Secrets can be
Good
Or bad
Happy or Sad
About yourself
About family and friends
And what did you do with that man you
Met last week
Old and new
And sometimes they stick to the roof of your mouth
Like peanut butter with no jelly
Secrets can
Do so many things
Hurt or help
They are alive
In your mind
If you keep them locked up too tight
They can harm you or kill you
They can make you laugh aloud
To yourself
When you think nobody's listening
Don't kid yourself
THEY ARE
FEAR
1997
The room is dark
I'm all alone
Somebody's talking
But nobody's home
I hear people whispering
Outside, all around
The dark thoughts they carry
All putting me down
There's some man standing in the hall
In a long black robe, about
seven feet tall
He's starting to laugh,
And staring me down
His evil smile looks more like a frown
I close my eyes and plug my ears
But I just can't get away from
I close my eyes but can't hide
I feel his presence by my side
I can't get away from
FEAR
Secrets II
1993
Tell me
Tell me your
Tell me all of your
Deep
Dark
Guarded with your life
Secrets
Burning up your head
Knawing at your insides
Don't you know these secrets
Are eating you alive?
I know what you need
You need to tell
You need to trust
You need to find someone you can trust
To tell
You secrets
Vomit all the burning words
In a putrid mass of snaking words
Nipping at your heels
NO!!
No, don't!
Don't turn away!!
Don't runaway
Your secrets will follow
Share these secrets with another
The truth shall set you free
Stories and lies
These will chain you to your
Tombstone
Your tombstone will say
Here lies one who kept
Kept the secrets
That destroyed
That killed
That murdered
A beautiful soul.
California Dawn
6/93-?(in progress)
Early Sunday morning I awake in the time before the dawn
And I feel you here beside me soundly sleeping
I can't help but touch your face
Then I wake you cause I want to share the morning with you
So I tell you that we're just in time to see
The magic of a California Dawn
And it's plain to me from the smile I see upon your lips
That this will be a good day cause we shared the magic moment with a song
And we woke in time to share the
California Dawn
We'll go walking hand in hand along the shoreline
Making bare footprints in pale grey sand
Taking time to stop and breathe and wonder at the endless sea
The only thing I know that could be deeper
Than that ocean is my love for you
It's so sad that so few ever share the perfection of a love so true
I know we're very lucky, that it was only chance that brought us here
For the love we share together is unmatched by the beauty
Of that California Dawn
And I've never been in love like this before
And I've never felt so free
And it's knowing in the morning I'll wake up next to your body
And you'll wake up holding mine
Close to you
And we'll share our love together in the magic
Of that California Dawn
Sell Me An Answer
Can anybody sell me an answer
To a question that's been puzzling my mind
And if none of you can help me
Can you please just refer me to a know-it-all and go
It seems like only yesterday I had the key
You know, the one that fits almost any door you try
Then I learned as I grew older that that key never was worth a damn
Cause when the story started all the doors were open wide
For every choice I made one door would close,
One more would open to the other side
I seek an answer to the question I am asking here today
I'm sure you've heard this question asked before…nothing new in this world
Can any body here help me and if not then why not?
Why won't my key open doors anymore
Or where's the door I'm looking for?
Then a voice whispered deep in my heart
Look within…
1998-2002
Imagine….
1995
Imagine for a moment
You've got a second chance
To change your life and make it all worthwhile
Do you know just what you'd do?
Would it make your children smile?
You know it's only the little things
You could have done each day
Instead you threw it all away
Knowing all the while
It's the time you spend together
That makes this life worth living
The time you share together,
Just a touch, a hug, a smile
And if you don't spend time together
With the people that you love
Someday you'll wake up old
And all alone
Harry had a good job
In an office way uptown
It paid him lots of money
But left him little time
He bought the good life for his wife and kids
But never made them smile
The kids grew up and moved away
His pretty Jenny died
He got too old to work one day
Looked back and wondered why
He never met a teacher
Or went to football games
He had no time for homework
Or tucking wee ones in bed at night
When they reached their arms out for him
He'd tell them go away
I'm a busy man, kid, get away.
Now he's all alone in your town
And he doesn't know the way
He mourns the time he wasted
Long ago, so many ways
His daughter grew up and married
Her love so far away
Sends pictures of the babies
And a card for Christmas Day
His son went off to college
To learn himself a trade
That took him halfway cross the world
And round and round again
So Harry sits there by the phone
Waiting for a call
Alone with all his money
And the time he threw away
Imagine for a moment
You've got a second chance
To change your life and make it all worthwhile
Do you know just what you'd do?
Would it make your children smile?
You know it's only the little things
You could have done each day
Instead you threw it all away
Knowing all the while
It's the time you spend together
That makes this life worth living
The time you share together,
Just a touch, a hug, a smile
And if you don't spend time together
With the people that you love
Someday you'll wake up old
And all alone
The Road to Anywhere
On a road to anywhere
I came upon a lady fair
Dark of hair and fair of face
In a dress of soft white lace
She smiled at me from eyes of blue
And spoke to me some words so true
"You've traveled very far" she said
"You've miles to go to reach your bed.
Now come to me and rest your head
My weary little friend"
And so I slept upon her lap
And when I woke anew
I found myself in my own bed
I tell this story true
Isina
Here I Am
Goddess lead me where you will,
Across the oceans, over hills
Help me live your Perfect Love
And stay beside me, not above
For I am you and you are me
Part of each other both are we
Isina
All above material
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1983-2002 Isina Margaret
Schuler
