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She opens the door. And the world stands there naked before her. She shuts her eyes from the harsh brightness of reality. Slowly she blinks her eyes, trying to adjust. Closes them for a final time...takes a deep breath to cherish the time she is about to lose...and steps forward.

Behind her is a door she can never open again...before her stands a world unknown. Anxious in her excitement she travels forward. Not knowing where she goes, yet go she does for there is no turning back. And she's strangely elated...and she's strangely frightened. So much she's yet to see, so much she doesn't know.

February 15, 2001

Whoa!... talk about being ages since I updated this page. ;o) If any of you even still visit I am betting there is some shock to see this entry. I'm on the move again *surprise surprise*! I'm ever the gypsy. Before this move though I've implemented two new features to this site... FREE email and a community page with a message board and chat. Funny how sometimes things in life lead us to do other things. I may explain this later if you seriously feel the need to be tortured. BIG *HUUUUUGS* ;op

Well gotta run... I am supposed to be hitting the road tomorrow. But of course that's when the mechanic wanted to schedule the work on it so we'll see. *lol* See.. even though I may not have updated the site in awhile it was never forgotten... I am still here.

June 18, 1999

Once again it's been awhile since I've done any updates. But I've added a couple of new poems... if you like poetry be sure to read "The Canvas" by Starman. I'm also working on the photo album. ;o) I have part of it up already and will be adding more over time. It may take me awhile to update the site, but I haven't stopped yet so that's a good thing.

April 1, 1999

It has been forever since I've updated this site. ;o) I apologize for that... Once again, as life likes to do, we sometimes get caught up in our journeys. Those of you that have been here will notice the changes. ;o) Maybe I'm hoping the "make-over" will "make-up" for the neglected limbo this site was left to. I've removed the previous posts that were here (consider it spring cleaning) and am starting anew. I will leave you with this thought though, from the last post:

"As long as I can believe in me again... that's more than I was before... and all that I've gone through... am going through... though it's a high price to pay... it's worth it to have me back again... I missed her. The way I look at it... sometimes you go through things... extremely hard things... to get to better things... if you had been fine... the better would never have had an opportunity, because you had been fine. I don't know if I explained that or made it confusing... but that's much of what keeps me going. This year... I have been hurt worse than ever before, have had my heart torn to pieces, have been overwhelmed with life, have been hanging on by my bare nails to just survive... but I've also seen myself survive more than I ever would have imagined, I've felt more alive than I have in a long time, I have believed in me more than I had before, and I have reclaimed myself. "

Okay... this is for those of you that have been here before. Why?... Why did I take down all the previos posts? Well... I think I've come to realize I wasn't comfortable sharing that much. *lol* It turned out the more I shared... the more I became stingy with my site. The more I included here... the less I would tell others about it and even began to remove links that would allow some to just happen upon it. Sorta of a strange irony in the making of oblivious denial. *lol* I'm back... and I want to share this site... not seclude it. So I've removed that which was causing the seclusion. I still share... but not beyond what I'm ready to and most of it is based on an individual basis. I'm going to be adding more of my artwork... more pictures (they tell their own stories too)... and more poetry. So bear with me... I'll try to add as much as I can today... but I know I will not get it all done today... ;o)