He lived alone. He tried to shield himself from the perversions of the
outside. His often drives on the road to companionship led him to dead
ends. He could avoid the dead end at times. He made U-turns. The last
turn displayed scorched fields and burnt down houses. Even when he
sensed victory, he counted numerous blue and black cars crowding the street
around him. He lived life alone, but still navigated the streets in his
green Corvette. His yellow license plate displayed “SFI” in bold white
letter. Samuel F. Ivanna rarely took the right turn.
Samuel met Karen Neumann at a bar. They exchanged attractions and
started dating. Their dates were plain. Casual dates lasting a few hours.
Samuel couldn’t get closer than arm’s length with Karen. Less than a
month later, Samuel hit the road.
“Is there no decent women?” Samuel asked, “None with the understanding
of my efforts, my pure desires. What happened to the thing called
‘morals’ people used to have? I try to talk, I can’t, my attempt of
perfection leads to flaws. There are no decent women, the problem’s not me.” He
lived alone. Along the street he met women. Pit stops. His friends were
refueled but he wasn’t. He drove along the street making more pit
stops. Samuel ran out of steam. He ran out of fuel. Samuel F. Ivanna.
Failure was his middle name.


