Goodbye Sweetheart
22/8...
Once again I am
left behind
Another Love not meant to be mine
The feeling of despair my heart it stays
Ever since you pushed me far away
This hurt is just
too much to bear
You curse me even when I try to care
So I'm giving space to love again
Knowing that you and I will never be the same
My head hurts and
my eyes weep
You said too many words you cannot keep
Without knowing, you string my heart along
This feeling I feel I know it's wrong
Why do you hurt me
the way you do?
All I wanted was the best for you
I will be just a distant memory
Memories are nothing compared to reality
If only I didn't
have to miss you so bad
I would be ready to wipe away all we had
Because boy, what you do tears me apart
I am nothing, if I'm not in your heart.
Two months later...23/10
We drift further
apart each and every day
The person I thought I knew is far away
Words you speak cause me so much pain
It would be better if I never heard from you again
Do you really miss
me like you say you do?
Do you really mean it when you say "I love you"?
Because from what you say and how you act
You leave me no choice, I don't want you back
We've lost every
happiness we once shared
I miss the times where you showed you cared
Now you're the cause of all my misery
I can't believe I let you do this to me
The only way I can
let go, is the way I know how
My heart can't beat slower than it does right now
So play your games but don't mess with my heart
This is the last poem I'll ever write to you, goodbye sweetheart.
© JN August/October 99
My final poem to Damien.
You are the th person to read this poem.