"And every time I try to be

What someone has thought of me

So caught up, I wasn't able to acheive

But deep in my heart the answer it was in me

And I made up my mind to find my own destiny"

lauryn hill

Here is some useless info on kelly...

This is me...I am a 19 yr old sXe, Christian girl. Hmmm first I guess I should say that I am a sellout. I sold out, and I am back. So, if that bothers you, then leave, or stay and see what I have to say. I guess some ppl think that once you sellout you can never come back, but not me. I know that I got into a lot of stuff when I was younger for the wrong reasons. I have made so many mistakes in my life and have finally figured out what is really important to me. I am not sorry for selling out. I did it because it was what I wanted to do, if I would have stayed sXe, it would have been for the wrong reasons. I have made serious commitments to myself and I plan to keep them for the rest of my life. I am drug free for life, for myself. There is so much more to being straight edge though, it is about finding the truth in things and trying to make things better. It is about resisting temptations of the evils in our society that are so often hidden from our view. I have no problem admitting that I sold out in the past. If you have a problem with it, think about why you feel that way. More about me as a person....is it worth writing it here? I didn't think so. Someone wrote to me the other day, "you sound like an emotional person" hmmm yes, but I am not over emotional, I just like to be true to myself and what I am feeling. I don't think that it is healthy to bottle up all your feelings. So that explains all the quotes I have on these pages! They basically explain some of the things I feel right now.

"sleep on and dream of love

because it's the closest

you will get to love"

moz

Here are a few thing's you probably don't want to know...

Although I listen to some HC bands, most of what I listen to is Hip Hop and jungle...drum and bass. word. I listen to a lot of different types of music though...anything that is pleasing to my ears! Here are some of the things I am listening to now: Morrissey, the Smiths, the Cure, Depeche Mode, Sarah Vaughn, Billie Holliday, BJORK, Sarah McLachlan, Seal, Tracy Chapman, Jon B, Lauryn Hill, Blackeyed peas, Necro, Canibus, Smif n Wessin, krsone, jeru, Methodman, Gravediggaz, Stretch and Bobitto, invisible scratch piklez, Essasin, UFO, Curious and of course LOKI. (If anyone is into good drum n bass jungle then email me and i can hook you up with loki's email addy so he can send you a mixtape. everyone into jungle needs to hear him!) Anyway, I am into a lot of things that most SXE kids aren't really into. You see if they were into these things they would be much better people! sarcasm

"Deep conversations

they get me nowhere

they bring me down

so give it a rest won't you"

moz

XfateX...this is a new page I have started and it sucks.

you can always e-mail me at...XhardcoreX@rocketmail.com