This page is an update of what's up in my life today!

January 24, 1998

I'm doing good today how about you???

Sorry it took such a long time to write but I've been busy lately with school and stuff. I guess it's also cuz I've been trying to get off my dependency from this stupid invention....it wastes my time....oooooooohh....and one more thing....because my pal Soo Jin had told me that my messages seem really negative I'm gonna try to change my aspect on life...or actually I think I wrote these things when I was in a really depressed mood and had nothing else to do to kill my free time..... =O

Anyhow....the last 3 days have been really good to me...not only have I got some of my apathetic thoughts on Christianity out to my Small group....but I got to realize the fact that people actually do think about me. I've also been able to get my act together. I'm so proud that I woke up at 8:00 am instead of my usual 5:00 p.m. but you see I realy found myself sad and depressed and found no reason to be conscious...so I slept for most of the time....but I'm so proud that I woke up at 8 without any help...and went to most of my classes. Part of my sadness is due to the fact that I feel that no one's been thinking about me....and I've been such a dork and being antisocial and just playing around with my computer. So anyhow...I've also been worrying about who I was supposed to room with for next year....and that's also been bugging me cuz everyone is like set already....but this week someone actually was thinking about me and actually considered me already to room up with them and all.{Sung Kim, Teddy, and Joo}...so that really made my week. I felt like such a loner.....I guess it's just something that hung over with me from high school.

Well I hope I'm not boring you with my stupid and depressing life. Sorry Soo Jin...I think this letter is just another one of those negative notes....but hey...at least I can vent out my frustrations somehow....

I've realized one thing this week though....I must get out and not stay in my room and play around with my computer......and I can stay in my room to study.....anyhow....I also realized that I need to use my phone more for it's purpose.....to keep in touch with people. But I guess one sad note is that no one ever calls me... =C I think that I'm going to try to call at least 10 people/day for the next week and see what fruit it can produce. That will be my new weekly goal !!!

{on a totally different note} so who you rooting for for the superbowl??? did you know that the packers have been practicing at my school--->UCSD??? I was like riding my bike around and I saw this police motorcade....so I was wondering...who the heck is important enough to have a police motorcade??? So then I found out that it was the packers......any way...that's my story.....I don't really care much for sports too much....Heck I didn't even know that the superbowl was in san diego....he he

What's up 4 tomorrow?!

I go back home for my once in a month visit.....I gots so much stuff to do though....like my chem midterm on monday....ohhhh nooo!!!! But other than that....I might also wacth the superbowl wherever I can get a big screen like all dem other boys!!!!

January 7, 1998

Well It's the new year...so Happy new year.....How is everyone? Good I hope.....

You know as the new year begins...People do start those pointless things called New Year's Resolutions right???? So I've also been contemplating doing one too.... For 1) I'd like to gain another 20 pounds.....2) be able to bench 200 pounds by the school year is over...3) Find a fellowship to join....KACF or KCM...4) Eat some more....5) Spend only 20 minutes a day at most on the Computer...and 6) Find a girlfriend in maybe the next 20 years or so......ohh....that's a wish...not a resolution. But who likes me anyway??? I've gone this long without one...I can go another 20 years more..... =C

Gosh I don't think I can do either KACF or KCM this quarter because someone thought it was such a cool idea to change KCm to thursdays and I have this physics section from 7-9 pm....so I can't go to either KACF or KCm....cuz there at the same time now....great!! Maybe It's time for me to try AACF....

Well the new year and my break was ok....it's amazing how many people always ask the same things when they come back to college......" So how was your Break???" and they ask as if they've never asked anyone before.....It's so tedious to have to ask the same questions over and over in order to communicate with each other and understand each and everyone's situations......but for me...It's wierd....the more people I talk to the more I tend to put people's situations together and get really confused...but....everyone says the same thing...so I'm perty safe...they always ssay" ohh...it was good."

I didn't really like being back at home though.....I lost 5 pounds....amazingly...I thought I lost all the weight I gained during winter quarter. Anyhow...I lost weight cuz I never had anything to eat at home.....and had no money or car to eat out...plus I had to work....plus I had a brother who stupidly assigned me homework to do....which I didn't do of course ......but perhaps will-----(the assignment was for me to write a one page essay about what I'm supposed to do with my life....and do research at the library to find what med schools I'm going to apply to in 3 years....and then write about everything I'm supposed to do to get there and what I'm supposed to do the rest of the time until I become whatever I'm supposed to become).....perty tough I'd say....

Well I got to do my Math homework now.....hope to c ya laters! =ş

What due for tomorrow?!

I got a HOPE sleepover on this Saturday...the 10th and then I got Broomballing this Thursday 8th at 10:15 at night.....but I don't know if I want to go to the Sleepover...the last one I went to messed me up for the rest of the qurter.....so I'm not sure yet...

December 28 1997

The last Entry of the Year

So this is it.....the end of the first year of my webpage. I guess it's been a success for it purpose....of which I have no idea what purpose it serves. Anyhow...I need to do this real quick...

Well I finished my work at Benetton. I'm so sad because no one ever wants to save that extra 50% off clothes that I can offer them....Ohhh well. I guess some people would prefer to spend that extra $100 or so. Well I'm glad that I'm done because I'm just geting too botter while working at that stupid place. "sam do this....sam do that" I hate being everyone's servants. But somehow..I guess it's supposed to teach me some idea of submissivness. I remember earlier this year when i toiled to clean the bathrooms every other week....I dreaded the thought and the action. Scrubbing the toilets....and floors until it didn't smell anymore of these feminine droppings....YUCK!!!! I never knew women were so irresponsible. They take no resposibility of any of their own mess.and here comes Sam to clean up and do what they left unfinished. But who's bitter eh?

So that concludes my working at the store formerly known as Benetton. Never again shall I step into those doors. Good bye and good riddance. I have so much to do yet so little time. You see I'm going on my College retreat in about 10 hours...and it's 2:30 in the morning and I want to cut my hair too. WHat to do?

Well I think I'm going to go return my video....which is the English Patient.....that is a very boring movie....I don't know why it got so many awards.....I'm even amazed that it had a full body shot of a naked woman.....what is this world coming to....R movies are now the NC-17 of the past decade. Maybe I'll talk about my view of humanity in my next whatsup...or make it it's own webpage...

Welps.....hope to write back to you asap.....next year. Hasta La Bye Bye!!! OHHHH wait.....I want to let you know that I did ok last quarter.....actually perty bad considering that I only had 2 classes.....but i came out with a 3.57 GPA I hope I can Keep it up though.....i envy Jolene and jennifer....they both got 4.0....grrrrrr and Ali got a 3.59.....beat me by 0.02....so what.!!!! well bye again!

What due for tomorrow?!

Well I go back to school on the 5th of January 1998. Hey I have to get used to that new number...1998 Anyhow....I'm looking forward to a new year of school.....=D

What's Up???? YES YES I HAVE COME TO UpDATE MY PAGE ONCE AGAIN FOR SATURDAY December 13, 1997.....

Gosh I've finally gotten a chance to update my page....hmmmm well lets recap on what's happened!

Reflections of after school

 Well I did my worst ever on my Chem midterm...a 64%....but that's still a C....but I was so pissed because I actually thought I did ok on that B.S. test. Anyhow......I'm hoping my performance on the Final with make up for that....(I still got to drop that stupid test anyhow)....I studied like a monster for the Chem...like 20 hours in 2 days....well...ok 12... really. You know now that I realize it...I miss studying...It's so boring here back In L.A. and since i got to come back home on the Tuesday....no one will really be here until today....Saturday. Anyhow...on with my first finals experience....It was perty easy....perhaps because I only had 8 units....2 classes....Ha ha ha ha! I don't know how I'm going to be prepared for next quarter's 16 unit workload!!!!! It's gonna be tough...but Sameone's gotta do it....(SULLUNG I KNOW) ---for those who aen't korean...that kinda means....REALLY STUPID....

Well anyhow....I had to take my Music 4 final on Sunday morning....YES sick i know... but I did kinda bad on it...in fact many people thought they did bad on it because the professor put stuff on it that she specifically said she wouldn't put on...( HOW UNFAIR) She probably made our sunday test hard because she was so bitter at out class...and bitter for having to wake up on a Sunday morning instead of the regularly scheduled program of Saturday,..6 days later. You know..I wouldn't even be able to type this stuff if I stayed at school till today.

  Well I got back home on Teusday if I haven't told ya that before....and I was convinced on wednesday that I had to get a job....I was and still am SOOOOOOO bored of this place.....It's funny how I say this because people all say that SD is soooo boring....but since all my friends aren't back from college yet...and I have no car (footnote--See my Dedication to my car) I just find this place sooooo boring. Wait did I say friends....ha ha ha...they could care less about me...except for mah pal teddy !!!! Your da man THEO! <---- da pimp!!!!

   Any how....I got my job from United Colors of Benetton....yes yes...for any girls....Yes I do offer a 50% discount if ya care any......but you girls just don't want to take advantage... oh well..your bad! I've finally decided that I would never work at this store again because I'm just sick of working there. You see...I really try to make a good impression of myself whenever I begin a job...and then as time goes by I do Kinda get lazy....but even coming back to work now...They expect me to work miracles or something!!! I hate how they expect so much of me =C

    I really dread living at home too....it sux here. I love living in a surreal society of students....also called college. I find it so much less stressful to live in college. I mean I don't have to handle things called parents and siblings...and I don't have to worry about trying to keep my stomach full........It's a constant worry/hassle in my life here.....

    Hey....can anyone sympathize with me..........if I say that Parents are just plain out outdated??? I mean My mom just doesn't know what's up.....and what's not. She doesn't likie me buying her clothes because it's a waste of money....so she wears hand me downs from here friends.....she only know 1 department store.....Robinson's May---to get her foundation---makeup....and she only knows 1 clothing store...Benetton...because she had to pick me up from there every so often. And I really don't know abou this one...but isn't it true that when mom's get older...they tend to cook better......well .....my mom is going in the opposite direction. I refuse to cook anything of hers now....cuz It's just so ...umm.........ewww! =O =[

I knew that I was forgetting something before I left for home....Yes I left all my pants at school...except for the pants I was wearing and the Jeans in my closet...the rest.......well they're still in my dresser. So that's why I spent $ 150 today to get some new clothes......ahhhhh ... how stress releaving. Now I won't be shopping for clothes for another year. Yes I shop for clothes only really 1-2 times a year...3 if i feel naughty...ha ha ha! Actually..I'm not yet quite done shopping...I still need to buy some more t-shirts....I don't know about other people...but I usually get all my t-shirts from those church retreats...but due to financial difficulties.....there haven't been church retreat shirsts in a while.....so that means...I need to buy some. And on top of that stuff I still have to buy Christmas presents......I'm gonna go broke.....I must prioritize my shopping....I hope I don't get too lazy with my Christmas spirit.....I will write cards for all my friends...I just hope all ya'll can get em!

Ohh...i also forgot to mention...I watched 4 movies already.... the first...Event Horizon.....the second Addicted to Love, third Devil's Advocate, and fourth Austin Powers......The verdict..........1st-1 thumb up/down 2nd-1more thumb up than the first....... 3rd - - - - 2 thumbs up........one of the best dramas I've been to this year.....I don't want to say "this is the best movie I've SEEN..." cuz I really don't approve of the porno quality content......... and 4rth 2 thumbs down........although very funny...this one is totally "Shaggin babeeeeee" he he tee hee!!

What due for tomorrow?!

Let's see...what am i doing???? Well I think all that I'm gonna go to Big Bear on the 15-16th..I'm gonna have fun...but I gotta find some skis so I don't have to waste another $50......othere than that...I'll be at the mall for the rest of the time......maybe I'll place my schedule in this page...but no one has their computers here....so I guess not.......but that's about it for the rest of this year....work, church, and BIG BEAR!!!!.