What If I was Never Here?

What would have happened if I was never here? Would it have mattered? Would anyone even cared? I wouldn't have missed out on much, would I? So, I never would have seen the Blue Jays win the World Series or the Braves. So, I never would have seen Def Leppard live, would it have mattered?

So, I never would have become a smoker or a gambler, at least the little I do here and there. So, I never would have lived on my own and face hardships and the joys of paying bills, so what? Would it have mattered? So I never would have pets, or moved from city to city to city. So, I never would have known what cartoons were, and would it have mattered?

So, I never would have like to listen to music or dance. So, I never would have had my first beer, was I really missing out on a lot? And would it have mattered? Would it really matter?

This are the questions that keep rolling around inside my head but yet there has to be answer there someplace? Then I ask myself what would have happened if I never met you, who's loss is it and why does it hurt so much that I have? Of all the people I've met and in all the different places they are now, would it make that much of a difference if they never knew me at all? I could have saved them all a lot of trouble, but it seems no matter where I go, trouble seems to follow me. I think back and I realize that I am thankful that I have met you but also I wish things were different. I was I was better looking, I was I was rich, I as I was in love with someone. I wish I had someone that I could call my own and I wish it was you. So, as I ask myself, maybe you should too . . . would it have really mattered if I was never here?