Being Scared

When someone is scared it becomes hard to overcome, you don't know what's going to happen next, or where your going, the key is what you've done.

Being scared makes me want to cry, you think about what you've done and where you're going and then you're dead, and something holds me back, it doesn't want me to try.

Being scared is when you're hurt or lose a good friend, someone that looked up to you and you ket them down and this makes me feel like it's the end.

Being scared is when you think about suicide, sure it's easy way out -but to where, it didn't solve a thing and now you feel like an outcast for thinking it and you run and hide.

Being scared is being completely alone, everybody need somebody, but when all you got is a void it shatters your drams and hopes and you are afraid to go on.

Being scared is not being able to have the girl of your dreams, the girl you want to marry, the "FOREVER GIRL", the idea of going on without her tears me apart at the seams.

Being scared is living a life without love, every-day I go around and I carry an empty space in my heart that's waiting to be filled but it doesn't, it's like being slapped really hard with a leather glove.

Being scared is feeling pain, the pain of being abused as a child by other children, this pain lives and breathes inside me as I live and breathe and it wants out, to be it's own, to express it's pent up rage and to be nothing; for a momment-to be one-the next to be just another blood stain.

Being scared is what I've become, it's so complex and yet so simple, yet it can't comprehend itself into a being, the pain, the love, the friend, the girl . . . what does thins mean? When does the fear end? When can I be myself? When I can be just one?