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1 2 . 1 3 . 0 2 Well one down, and 3 to go. finals that is. guess its back to the good old bitchin grind of exams and papers makes me wish i wasn't a student again. although life is bitchin' well at least madison is bitchen'. the stat final wasn't all that bad, which makes me worry a bit about curves and what not. honestly if I end up with a "B" then I'll be more than satisfied. kind of makes me wonder sometimes if I have enough drive and gall to go through 3 years of Law. part of me just isn't really all that competitive anymore. that is for no reason. not like a test matters to anyone but myself. Maybe Tristan is right, I may really be more altruistic than I am willing to admit for myself. for some reason the work brings up Durkhiem again. not good. I was just studying an economic model of human capital and brushing up my reading for 874 but it didn't really last too long. the motivation that is. The rat is pretty mellow, but I suppose its to be expected for finals. I'm at the union again at about 1:00 in the AM making good on the wireless technology. funny imagining myself taking a study break on a laptop in a replica of an old german beer-hall enjoying a 22 ouncer in a paper cup. only in wisconsin i guess. Upstairs people are dancing, post-finals shindig. Had a strange urge to write something, or at least put something down in print - first time in a while, if you look at the random thoughts page. For some reason I haven't been very creative feeling, or maybe I just haven't been inspired lately. been having some pretty crazy dreams lately. of Okinawa. 1 2 . 9 . 0 2 So I'm back in the Union again, working on my laptop with a wireless card. little bit of distractions. Just finished tutoring sociology, have to say that Its pretty neat. Actually had a chance to learn about some topics in Marriage and Family in the American society. Drew a little bit of my knowledge from working in Public Safety, realizing that there is a lot of work to be done in that area. Learning is a process really, have to say that I have quite abit of experience from that in true faith. Meanwhile I have my own finals to prepare for and my own papers to write. ack. Can't believe I'll be back in Hawaii nei in a little over a week. It should be motivation in itself, but really it isn't. Been looking at some sites on Okinawa, namely lately about Shouichi Kina. yeah, I've managed to be distracted by other important things no doubt. Had an interesting dream last night about transporting fish from a large communal tank into water vapor. Apparently it helps to stir up the nutrients and life matter occaisionally, and this actually takes place in the ocean already. on the top floor of the lab there is a machine that aspires the living matter into vapor pushed through volumes of paper filters and newsprint. The vapor the condenses into a large tank that is accessible by a spigot. the lab tech fills up quart sized cylinders at a time and then empties it back into the "ocean". shake it up and the fish materialize again, in the same form. next we need to start working with humans. 1 2 . 5 . 0 2 Well in the aftermath of the 48-hour project we ended up doing pretty well, with minimal stress involved. actually got a chance to get a couple hours of sleep here and there. It was a very interesting process overall, interpersonal workings and the way the whole thing came together was definitely a valuable lesson in policy work. So now its just 3 hard ass finals, and a final paper for Con Law. oh and a couple of problem sets as well. and I still need to work on my application. maybe during the 10 hours in Phenoix. So I got a little sidetracked in my research for my final paper for Con Law, Downs kind of had to set me back on track a bit. Almost went off and did another analysis on Rice v Cayetano, but as it turns out I would have to do a lot of additional research. Better to stick to what you know better. Meeting with one of my other students tomorrow, one tonight. Hope everything went well with her midterm. 1 2 . 2 . 0 2 Well, about 12 hours into our 48-hour project, so far so good. Need to catch up on some sleep though. making good use of this wireless LAN card at the Union. pretty interesting topics really, if you're interested check it out. Working on the federal executive proposal A-76 which seeks to restructure the federal workforce to private competition. This is a good similation of actual field work I suppose, Kettl definitely picked very current and pressing topics. It turned out to be related to Homeland security afterall. Otherwise its snowing like heck outside, turns out I got a white welcome back to the Mad City afterall. snow snow. speaking of which I'll be back home in a little more than 2 weeks from now. get to trade snow for sand again. 1 2 . 1 . 0 2 48 hour project starts in about 7 hours and I can't sleep. probably due to the excessive amounts of shut-eye I got over the turkey day break. It wouldn't be as bad if I had actually gotten as much work done that I had originally hoped to. life as a grad student I guess. Been thinking a lot about break already, been dreaming about Okinawa and Japan lately. also speaking about dreams, I've been having a resurgence of apocolyptic dreams, one of which I found myself on the front lines of a confrontation between a youthful mob and hooded riot police. The government forces landed in a series of air drops of large pill shaped canisters that exploded behind me. They had a robotic like mannerisms and pleaded to the crowd with a scripted humanistic speech. the people around me started passing out knives. I eventually decided to leave the scene with someone. walking away in between waves of cop cars and chaos. part of me felt guilty, knowing that there was a battle being waged for a good cause, and I was walking away. another part of my mind justified my actions as surviving to fight another day. picking one's battles wisely I suppose. Thinking that I'll stay up until we meet for the 48 hour. been a little restless and there is always work to do. Thinking about heading over to the Sunroom Cafe at about 7:00am. will see. |