2004-06-07 - 2:09 A.M.

Most people leave for college and change. I managed to change before I left. I went to college the same as I was that summer. Then I came back home the next summer and changed back. It's strange when I think about it. I picked up where I left off in January. It's like I took a pair of sissors and cut-out the past year, emotionally, not in memory. It's just, so strange. And hard. Being back where I left off while still living where I am. Seeing one boy I loved do what I wished the other had done. The timing is right in my fucked up head that's become unstuck in time like Billy Pilgrim, but it's the wrong person. And it never will be the "right" person. Because even that isn't right. And it's all relative when you think about it too much. And I jsut can't stop my brain from winding.
I'm sleepy.
And I have to pee.

Mood: Annoyed with my Dumb-Ass self
Current Music: Be Here Now by Oasis

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