Cordelia
    Okay, I know I don't like her. First, I remember when I was sleeping on the couch at the hotel with that decaying pounding in my chest, and all his little mortal friends were there, standing over me. It's unsettling to breathe after four hundred years; it's even more unpleasant to try to breathe with horrible pounding screaming in your chest, I thought I would suffocate, but still they stood. It's not at all different from what they did when I came all round and resentful with a very different pounding inside me - It's Darla, the vampire bitch, Angel's old girlfriend (that's hardly the word I would use but what do they really know about us or me) and she's pregnant!? Wowy, let's gawk and stare and make frivolous comments - God,  four hundred years and so many memories. Since I've been brought back the memories seem to get stronger and after Dru sired me - they don't fade, anymore. Sleeping on the couch, I woke up and said his name, "Angelus." The way I remembered - the syllables so soft on my lips because I thought he was going to save me (I'm smiling here, that "I was so foolish" smile and laugh). I believed he would...then Miss C tells me in her snotty voice that it's "just Angel." Maybe to her, but to me he was never "just Angel."
  He's from my blood, I made him, and deep within himself he knows he still answers to that name infamous glory, no matter how hard he pretends he doesn't. Then Angel told them all to leave and I was glad because I never did like to share him with anyone else. I always remembered the way she said that, though. And I can't forget the time she threatened to hit me, or when she did and I wasn't in the mood to hit back. No, no, baby didn't like her hitting Mommy. I wish he could of let her know instead of me; I should kill her for upsetting him like that. No, I don't like her. She's just irritating. She won't admit that she feels threatened by the presence of another woman, and she screams too much. I remember when I gave her to Luke during The Harvest, her shrieking makes me want to roll my eyes because it wasn't so much fearful as it was narcissistic.
    Except when I was pregnant, she briefly took my side. It's odd, really, those first brief minutes in the hotel everyone saw me as pregnant Darla, but for a few moments in her eyes I was the helpless they're - he's supposed to help and fight for. After that I became an object to protect, an object to protect that they were afraid of (I have to laugh at that one). I have to admit that Cordy scolding Angel was more than enjoyable; he couldn't lie to her - again - because there I was carrying the big ole evidence of his deceit. Yeah, that was a riot...but then she tried to bond and that was just boring. In the end, though, she was weak enough to give into the face, the face they all give into even when they don't want to. Yeah, us girls, Cordy saw me as a woman, not a vampire, a woman hurt by a dominating male. I guess women will always side with women - that is until I fed on her.
    Sometimes I wish I hadn't because then I would have had someone on my side through all of it. Honestly, I had no intention of feeding on her until she brought the subject up. That was her fault, she was a goose, a female human trying to relate to a female vampire. Still, the gesture was thoughtful, it's not every day people try to relate to me, but I was legitimately hungry and she was just there. I didn't have the pounding in my chest, but I had the pounding in my stomach so I took advantage of her, as vampires often do; I guess she learned her lesson, but I wish I had finished her off. Let her think Angel is the good guy, but one day she'll learn the truth.