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| Lilah Morgan |
| "Exciting, isn't it? Going through their things. All the hidden pieces of themselves locked away, giving you a naughty little thrill of control." |
| Why is it a woman can so easily feel threatened by another woman? I know this is the way Lilah felt from the moment I came out of that big ole box. Poor Lilah, the busiest little worker bee of them all and what does she ever get for it? Beat up, stuck pouring the coffee for clients, and snubbed by her boss. I should have wanted Lilah to get that promotion because of her sex, but I didn't; I didn't even want to keep her alive in the wine cellar, but Drusilla insisted, and why shouldn't I give the child what she desires? |
| Lilah is the ultimate woman in a man's world, always having to prove herself, moving into Lindsey's office, snooping around for files that could one day protect her, but the deception of strength is wearing on her; she trembles and cowers when cornered. She has a job intended for a man, has the job because that man saved her; women don't want to be saved by men, not if they believe themselves independent, but we expect to, don't we? The sad thing is that despite her determination in believing that Lindsey spent extra hours snooping in her stuff, he didn't, and I knew that. Sometimes I think it was just an excuse to look through his things. I know she resented me in his office, but I liked it there, I don't know why. I suppose the real question is what was I doing in his office after he'd left work for the luxury or haunting of his home? |
| Lindsey...hmm, she mocked him, belittled him, every chance she got, but it only ever really bothered him when I did it. The only way a woman can truly hurt a man is when he's silly enough to love her and still love her through every twisting word she says to him; Lilah didn't have that kind of power and maybe she envied me for using it, but she knew she could never have it. Or maybe she was jealous because Lindsey was able to let himself love; Lilah thinks to be strong a woman has to swear off love - maybe she's right, maybe she's wrong. It's been four hundred years and I still don't know the answer to that one. |
| Lilah never asked me, but she knew that with me in the picture she'd lost him, and whatever elaborate plans or schemes she spent hours plotting around him, and I'm not talking about sex or love (though there might be some of that in the subtext), just power and control. Either Lindsey was going to work with her and be on her side or be on mine, and he chose mine even if he didn't want to or plan to. That only meant she was a woman alone again, but aren't all women alone, anyway? And besides, Lilah is only always on her side, and she'll have to pay for it again and again because she is a woman. |
| And if she hurts my baby she'll really pay for it. A baby, another thing I had ~have~, that she doesn't. |
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