Her little twinkling voice and the eighteenth century gowns is what inspired me at first. Definately the gowns and silk shoes because I wish I could live back in those times. Darla is so petite yet so full of power and not afraid to use her sexuality. She is intelligent, beautiful, sensual - one of the strongest female characters on television. She is both independent and dependent. She both resents men and longs for them. I see her as a woman who just wanted to fall in love, to be alive and enjoy all the fine pleasures of the world, and her epic tragic life and unlife has only abused her and bruised her, staked her in the back, burned her and thrown her around. No apologies to her, no thank you's for her. Darla loathes being used, yet in the end it is how everyone treated her.
I'm angry, sad, and disgusted because few people (real and character) respect her in life and death. Just because she's "evil" is no excuse to mistreat her. She knows what she wants and only uses other people because it's the way she learned and knows and trusts. Darla is very dear to me, I relate to her, I feel what she feels - her confusion, her heartbreak, her fear, her denial, her affection, her desire, her lonliness.
It was the episode Darla that really connected me to her. The burden of her soul. The decaying inside her chest - the cancer. I've been depressed for a very long time and I knew exactly what she was feeling, what she was talking about, I felt it with her. There were the broken mirrors in the beginning, the cuts on her wrists. Yes, she cut her hands when breaking the mirrors, but she could have also deliberately done the cutting. In those brief moments I saw myself. I guess I'm what one would call a cutter. Her blood was my blood, her wounds so familiar to me. I was looking into a mirror.
All I want is for Darla to be happy. Too many nasty little tricks have been played out upon her. I don't think it's fair or right that she isn't with her baby; it is very wrong. I believe she deserves to be with her baby more than anything. I do not believe she woiuld have eaten him, because she could never kill Angel because he is part of her. She wanted to kill him several times, but she didn't. Connor is a part of her, therefore, she would never harm him. Never. Darla can love. She can love more than she thinks she can. Darla has more of a soul than I can say for some people. I admire her and I love her.
Darla deserves to be loved without judgement. Lindsey is the only person who truly loved her in that way, and I love him for it. In my perfect little world Darla would be with Connor and Lindsey. Loved and happy, and she would no longer be afraid to love back. She'd realize her self-worth - Darla is and always will be Queen. |
