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March 23rd 2004
What is the point of everyone in the office having voicemail if people refuse to leave a fucking message?
I just got in trouble because a buyer was calling my Account Manager and then tried me and “couldn’t get” anyone. First of all I was in my other Account Manager’s office when the asshat called and secondly LEAVE A FUCKING MESSAGE. “I can’t get anybody there.” Earth to asshat, I am not chained to my desk, I sometimes have to go to other places in the office to pick up printout or maybe god forbid PISS at some point during the day. What the fuck? So she complained to my manager. Great.
So I guess I am not allowed to move from my desk anymore. I have to sit here and answer the phones all the time like a fucking secretary, which I am NOT. Thank you very much.
If everyone has a problem leaving voicemails why don’t we just get rid of the voicemail feature. Yeah, that way everyone will have to answer all of the phones all the time and no one will ever get any fucking work done.
It’ll be like my old job. I’ll get so stressed out that I will have seven canker sores in my mouth at one time. I’ll work every night until at least 9:00. And be a pissy bitch 24/7…oh wait that’s me right now.
Yeah that’s the ticket.
The preceding rant was brought to you by the letter F and U and the number 69.
Aw man Express has the best clothes. I saw a lot of cute things, not too expensive that I want to get for Spring and Summer. I have to get them before I go on my trip to LA.
Lots of cropped pants, t-shirts, a skirt that I HAVE TO HAVE, and cute dresses.
My favorite food place in the concourse was PACKED today. Why do we have tourists here now? Is it Spring Break? And why come here? Go someplace warm and leave me alone.
Yay! A new Queer Eye tonight.
Why is nothing working on this farkin computer?
POS
I’ve shut my computer down TWICE and restarted it TWICE and it’s still slow. WTF? It’s not like I opened a virus because I am careful with that stuff. I always erase emails from unfamiliar addresses.
Unlike other morons in this office. Heh.
My friend tried to get Prince tickets but the floor was sold out within like 5 seconds. And she didn’t want to pay a lot of money for seats near the lights like we did for Billy Joel and Elton John.
Not that it was horrible because just being there was enough. I am definitely trying to get Madonna tickets when she comes around here.
And Duran Duran aw yeah.
My mom said she cleaned out my room and found like 25 pairs of socks. I was wondering where they all went!
Heh.
Melissa and Daniel were scheduled to go home today. Yay!
BABY!
I have to get a card for them.
And Yankee stuff for him. He’s my first “nephew”.
Ah shit the whistle is blowing. Back to work I go!
Stace
March 22nd 2004 9:32p
I am going to be interviewed for the documentary sometime within this next week. Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
I hope they give me a day's notice so I can get my hair done. I need to look nice on TV so everyone who's ever fucked me over can eat their hearts out. Assholes.
Excuse me again. Those always slip out!
Man I always get so depressed when I hear Jeff Buckley. They're playing a song of his on the end credits of "The L word". This song was played a lot in the days following 9/11.
Damn it! Braveheart is on! And I missed half of it. God I love that movie.
Does anyone else find it annoying when people let their friends get in the way of them possibly having a relationship with someone? I can't be the only one...
On that note I am going to bed.
Stace
March 22nd 2004 12:32p
To all of my friends: If I ever start referring to my boyfriend (if I ever have one in my lifetime) as “my baby” please hit me in the head with something. Thanks. Ick.
My baby likes this. My baby doesn’t like this. Should I get this for my baby? AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
I love my best friend but I am back to being bitter Stacey. Couples make me ill again and that was just so nauseating to me. Bleh.
It was like that Seinfeld episode. “Have you seen my fiancée? I wonder what happened to my fiancée! The poor baby.” “Maybe the dingo ate your baby.” I should have said that. Heh.
Hell Elaine Benes was pretty bitter and bitchy when she wanted to be. So am I.
The only person I’m friends with right now who has the right to say “my baby” is Melissa because SHE HAS ONE!
Wow I feel better.
Oh and then this morning I saw the two couples I can’t stand who take the A train with me. One kisses too much and the other one ALWAYS HAS TO HOLD ON TO ONE ANOTHER.
It’s a good thing I don’t eat breakfast because I’d be puking all over the A train.
COUPLES SUCK!
Wow I am really pissy. I know what I’ll do to make myself feel better. I’ll think little Daniel and how cute he is. BABY!
Okay that helped.
Ah much better.
I was so tempted to bring my 12-year-old cat home with me but 3 cats would be too much. She’s just so damn cute.
My brother and I watched the weirdest cartoon last night. It’s called “The Birdman” it was on Cartoon Network at 11:30. Actually I thought it was the weirdest until the next one came on at 11:45. It was called…Aqua something or other. I don’t know but the main characters are a shake, a carton of French fries and a wad of meat aptly named meatwad. It was so weird. But funny.
And watching anything with my brother is funny when he is laughing hysterically.
I love watching MXC with him. It’s so funny. My mom sits there and says, “Oooo” and “Ahhhh” when people fall.
I missed most of the Sopranos last night because we were at the hospital a while and then went to the supermarket.
I watched the last 5 minutes. I’ll have to watch it On Demand tonight.
Damn my fingernails are out of control. I had cut them last month and now they’re like dragon lady nails again. And when I get excited my little China girl says, ‘Oh baby just you shut your mouth.’ Yeah get the picture?
I can’t believe how mushy I got around the baby yesterday. I was such a mush. I was making myself sick.
I am going to be a selfish mother. I can see it. NO ONE will touch my baby. Heh.
Aw now I want to get married and have babies. If only a guy could just fall into my lap right now…
……………………
Damn it.
I always had a feeling that I was going to marry someone I already know. I don’t think I am going to meet someone new. I think it’s going to be either a guy I am already a friend with or a friend of a friend or maybe even a guy from my distant past.
Yeah ok like I am ever getting married. I can’t even have someone date me for more than 2 weeks. Sorry 3 weeks.
Oh no…
To the idiot who altered this sign...you're an asshole.
Some people just deserve to be beaten senseless...
Okay onto happier thoughts.
I still cannot believe I held a baby who was 2 hours old.
Was anyone else laughing at the thought of Paris Hilton being thrown from a horse? Was it just me? Okay so I am evil. What of it?
It is so cold in the office today. I feel like I need a pair of gloves…too bad I don’t have any.
It was so cold this morning. Where’s spring?
I feel bad for all of the people who had Kentucky going all the way to the NCAA Championship. But not.
I didn’t do any brackets this year. Why bother? That is the hardest thing to predict. And this year? I would have been out of the running by the 2nd round.
My mom bought a bunch of stationery with my name on it. Probably because I always complain that the stores only ever have things with Stacy on them instead of Stacey.
She was cleaning out the spare room and found my old Annie doll. The little Sandy that came with her that fit in her dress pocket is lost forever but I was so excited when I went into my old room and there she was on my bed.
She also found a shirt I had bought from Abercrombie and Fitch a few years back that says “Pure” on the front and “Evil” on the back. That shirt is so me.
P.S. I hate needy people.
I was listening to Howard Stern this morning and Courtney Love was on. She’s insane and scary.
I brought my laundry up to my parents’ house like I always do. And I brought some stuff that I had left there. Like tank tops because it’s too hot in my apartment to wear anything. But I can’t walk around naked. People will see me through the windows.
I need to buy like a pack or 2 of boxers to wear around the apartment; and packs of t-shirts. I love Hanes V neck T-shirts.
They’re so comfy.
Maybe I’ll do that tonight.
Back to work I go.
Stace
March 22nd 2004 10:09a
One set of twins down, one more to go. My coworker Erika had her twin boys on Saturday morning. NATURALLY. Hello? One was 7lbs 4 oz and the other one was 6lbs 13oz. She had two normal sized babies one right after the other. Can you believe that? Good lord.
Oh yeah and OW.
Aw my friend tz at the Yankee message board I go to is so good to me.
That was from today's game.
March 21 st 2004 10:12p
After pushing for three hours my friend Melissa's son Daniel James McDonald was born at 2:48p and he weighed in at a whopping 8 lbs 9 oz. He is the cutest most perfect baby ever and I cannot wait to hold him again. I was proud to be the first non parent/non nurse to hold him today. I couldn't stop looking at him, his tiny nose and his tiny lips and his pink rosy cheeks...It made me wish I were married so I could have a baby. I'm sure that feeling will pass soon.
I did tell little Danny that his Thea (aunt in Greek) Stacey probably won't have her first child until he's at least 18. He was making the cutest little noises while I was holding him. I can't believe I was holding a baby who at that point wasn't even 3 hours old. I am usually terrified of holding small babies and they all (Melissa, Julie and Racquel) were like "You get him first." And once he was placed into my arms...I was fine. Now I want all of my friends to have babies so I can hold them all.
I can't get over how cute he is. Like you know how you sometimes have to lie to people and say, "Oh yeah he/she is soooo cute!" We didn't have to lie. Daniel is adorable.
I have to be Thea Stacey because Melissa's sister in law will be Aunt Stacey.
Racquel is going to be Titi Racquel since little Daniel is a quarter Cuban.
I was so happy for them. They're a family now. It's just so unbelivable to me how in a matter of minutes your life can change in such an incredible way.
Having a baby truly is a miracle. Too many people take it for granted or do it for the wrong reasons. Having a baby is a HUGE responsibility. Having a baby is such a wonderful thing.
47 needs to hurry and get here.
Oh and now that they didn't use the "B" name they were thinking of, IT'S MINE!!! I don't care who I marry, what his last name is, that name is MINE.
Julie might have to go back to the hospital tomorrow because her sister is due to have her third baby and she was having contractions today.
Babies babies everywhere and none of them are mine.
Wait that's a good thing. I can hardly take care of myself.
Julie took a picture of me holding the baby so I'll put it up on the site because it is quite a sight. I didn't want to let him go. I was perfectly content with him in my arms. Oh Danny Boy...
Or D.J.
Nah I like Danny better.
Well I have to go to bed because I have the worst tension headache ever. And I have no idea why.
BABY!!!!
Stace
March 21 st 2004 12:56p
Melissa was pushing as of 45 minutes ago. I am expecting a call at any moment telling me that I am an auntie!!!
WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!
I am so excited.
TINO!!!!!!
The Yankees are playing the Devil Rays and they're interviewing Tino Martinez, hero of my favorite game (Game 4 2001 WS).
Oh god and Giambi is in the batting cage in the background while Suzyn Waldman is conducting the interview. YES LOVES me.
Aw Tino. I do miss him. I miss all of those guys, O'Neill, Brosius, Knoblauch.
I can't wait to shower but I am also dreading it. It's so cold in this stupid house.
I'm going out to an early dinner and then going to the hospital to see my "nephew". Hee.
So I'll have a christening to look forward to later this Spring.
My pregnant co-workers are close to their due dates as well. One is a week away and the other is a month away. Two pregnancies four babies. Frightening.
HAHAHAHAHAHA!!! Derek Jeter ran over to Don Zimmer (who now works for the Devil Rays) and rubbed his head like he used to before every game when he was with the Yankees. That was great.
Shit I hope it doesn't do some sort of reverse curse...
I don't know if I can wait until 4:00 to eat...I am so hungry.
I am going back to the gym this week. I think it will be good for me to work out again. Plus I want to look good for my L.A. trip.
Damn it!!! Giambi is DHing again! HE ALWAYS DH's WHEN I WATCH!!!!!
Sorry for that outburst but that means less camera time. It also means less drool so I guess the keyboard will be happy.
I'll be back
March 20th 2004 9:32p
My favorite MXC is on!!!!!
I HAVE NO SKIN PIGMENT!!!!!!
BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
March 20th 2004 8:43p
I'm bored...
Full Name: Stacey Rose
Nicknames: Stace, Gotsu, Stay
Age: 29
Sex: female
Single Or Taken: Single
Current location: NY
Date of Birth: August 26th 1974
Astological Sign: Virgo
Place of Birth: NY, NY
Parents' Names: Constantine & Diane
Siblings' Names: James
What Elementary School Did You Go To: Lakewood
What Middle School Did You Go To: Felix Festa (7th grade) St Augustines (8th grade)
What High School Do You Go To: Clarkstown North
SKIN DEEP:
Ethnicity: Greek/Irish/Italian
Eye Color: Shit brown
Hair Color: Shit brown
Height: 5'9" ish
Glasses Or Contacts: glasses
Piercings (if none, would you?): 4 in my ears all closed up
Tattoos (if none, would you?): no and maybe
Shoe Size: 9
LAST...
Thing Youve Eaten: chinese food
Person You've Called: uh...my parents
Person That's Called You: My friend Julie
Person You've IM-ed: Marcy
Person You've emailed: my best friend Racquel
Movie You Saw In the Theater, and With Who: Along Came Polly with Melissa, Matt and Julie
Movie You Rented: I ordered Bruce Almighty on demand, does that count?
TV Show You've Watched: Queer Eye
Thing You Did With Your Family: my dad picked me up in the city
Thing You Did With Your Friends: hung out for Melissa's birthday
Thing You've Bought: Gucci and LV bags ;)
Time You Cried: I don't remember which is refreshing. I would usually answer with 'last night'
Time You Laughed: yesterday at work
Time You Fell: in the parking lot at Garden State Plaza
Time You Swam: May 2003 in Puerto Rico
Time You Showered: yesterday morning
Person You've Shared A Drink With: I don't share my drinks...oh wait...yes I did. With a friend who shall not be named.
Song You've Had Stuck In Your Head: "I Believe in a Thing Called Love" by the Darkness
Song You've Downloaded: "Frontin" by Pharrell
Person You've Kissed: He who shall not be named
Person You've Hugged: My mom
OPPOSITE SEX:
What Do You Notice First: eyes
Turn Ons: sense of humor
Turn Offs: people who don't call when they say they're going to...
Ideal Eye Color: blue
Ideal Hair Color: dirty blonde
Ideal Height: 6'1"
HAVE YOU EVER...?:
Fallen In Love: Yes
Made Out With Someone: Yup
Gotten Drunk: I have Irish blood in me, of course I've gotten drunk ;)
Done Drugs: I've smoked them I haven't done them. It's called college...
Smoked: I smoked for 6 months when I was 14. Last time I smoked a cigarette was when I was 17. Pot it's been a long time.
Gone To A Party: yep
Been Completely Intoxicated: Come on, of course.
Woken Up With A Hangover: New Year's Day 2000 and 2003
Wanted Someone You Couldn't Have: it's the story of my life
Wished on A Shooting Star: never seen one
Taken A Vow Of Silence: I wouldn't last 5 seconds
Cheated On A Test: nope but I've helped people cheat
Cried After Watching A Commercial: nope
Had Your Heart Broken: recently, yes
Broke Someone Else's Heart: Yes. JQ in Boston.
Had A Job: many of them
Cooked A Full Meal For Guests: not yet
Laughed, And Couldn't Stop: yes
Pulled An All-Nighter: yes, the night before Christmas Eve
Been To An Exotic Place: hmmmmmmmm no
Been Swept Away By A Current: yes!!! in Myrtle Beach when I was 13...thank god it didn't take me too far. That was scary
Been On A Freefall Ride: oh yeah (love them)
Made The Wrong Decision On Purpose: yea
Broken Something Out Of Anger Or Sadness: yep
Hurt Yourself Out Of Anger Or Sadness: yep
Cussed Someone Out: hmmmm I curse alot but I don't know if I've ever really cursed someone out
Bungee-Jumped: nope but I want to
Broken the Law: yes
Kept A Secret From Everyone: yes
Been Rejected: of course...recently
Rejected Someone: yes
Regretted Doing Something: hell yes
Regretted Not Doing Something: God yes
DO...
You Have a Crush on Someone: unfortunately yes
You Wish You Could Live Somewhere Else: yes L.A.
You Think About Suicide: currently no but I have in the past
You Find Yourself Attractive: sometimes
You Drink: sometimes
You Do Drugs: nope
You Smoke: nope
You Like House-Cleaning: HAHAHAAAAAAAA yeah ok
Save AIM/MSN Conversations: depends on who they're with
Wish You Were A Member Of The Opposite Sex: only for 5 days every month
Ever Cry Because of What Someone Said: yep
WHAT / WHERE / WHO:
Kind of Shampoo Do You Use: Clairol Daily Defense
Soap Do You Use: Ohm body wash jasmine and rose
Are You Most Scared of: falling in love
Do You Want To Get Married: yeah
Do You Want To Live: in a nice apartment or house
Do You Want To Have Your Honeymoon: Greece or Ireland
Makes You Laugh the Most: my best friend Racquel and my coworker Tom
Makes You Smile: my family, friends and my cats
Easiest to Talk to: Racquel
THIS OR THAT:
Me or You: Depends
Cold or Hot: hot
Pool or Hot Tub: pool
Shower or Bath: shower
On or Off: On
Open or Closed: Open
Water or Tea: Water
Fruit or Vegetables: Vegetables
TV or Movie: TV
Radio or CD: CD
Baseball or Soccer: Baseball (YANKEES)
Football or Basketball: Basketball
Cash or Check: Cash
Blonde or Brunette: brunette
Hug or Kiss: Kiss
Ocean or Lake or Pool: Ocean to look at, lake to live by and pool to swim in
Florida or san jose: Florida
Spring or Fall: Fall (YANKEE BASEBALL)
Day or Night: Night
Dr. Pepper or Root Beer: Root beer
7UP or Sprite: Sprite
Smoothie or Juice: Juice
Lace or Satin: Satin
Flowers or Candy: Flowers are less fattening
Scruff or Clean Shaven: scruff
Tall or Short: Tall
FOR OR AGAINST:
Long Distance Relationships: For
Using Someone: Against
Suicide: against
Killing People: against
Smoking: against
Doing Drugs: depends
Premarital Sex: for
Driving Drunk: against
Gay/Lesbian Relationships: You love who you love
NUMBER...
Of Times You've Had Your Heart Broken: 4
Of Continents You've Lived In: 1
Of CD's That You Own: over 300
Of Scars On Your Body: 2
YOU...
Want: Mr. Big
Wish: I could be able to write again
Love: .....
Miss: Mr. Big
Fear: never being with anyone
Hate: when people don't care that they hurt me
Hear: the TV
Wonder: why people hurt me
RIGHT NOW...
Wearing: jeans and a sweatshirt
Eating: nothing
Drinking: Coke
Thinking About: Mr. Big
March 20th 2004 6:49p
It's amazing how someone can be a parent for nearly 30 years and NOT know what their child likes and dislikes...I have NEVER liked seafood EVER, in my entire life. Why would my dad ask me if I want shrimp? Bleh.
This house is TOO COLD!!! I am always cold. No matter where I am.
Two months ago I slept over at a friend's house and I had to sleep in a down comforter and he slept with a regular blanket. My Africa hot apartment is turning me into an old lady. I am ALWAYS cold even when it's not that cold.
Is E! running out of people to do E! True Hollywood Stories on? Tara Reid? What the hell has she done to merit a True Hollywood Story? Oh yeah show up at EVERY single party and wear smudged black eyeliner.
Why are people up in arms about the urinals in the Virgin Airways lounge at JFK? Who cares? Most of the people upset about them WILL NEVER SEE THEM. I think they're funny. And a chick designed them!
Oh and why does my dad say he's not hungry, orders Chinese for me and then says he's going to share my stuff? GET YOUR OWN FOOD!!!! I gave him $20 I'm sure he could get something for himself. PITA.
I love my dad but he drives me insane...now I know why my mom has been so wacky lately.
March 20th 2004 3:34p
The baby isn’t here yet. The doctors decided to induce labor instead of doing a C section. Ow.
So he’ll probably make his grand entrance tomorrow which is exactly a week late. That’s not bad.
I am listening to Annie Lennox’s new CD “Bare”. I love her.
A few track names: “The Hurting Time”, “Loneliness”, “Erased”, etc etc.
I heard “Honestly” on the soft rock channel on my digital cable and I liked it a lot.
I think I found my theme song “Wonderful”
A snippet:
Idiot me
Stupid fool
How could you be so uncool?
To fall in love with someone
Who doesn’t really care for you
It’s so obscure
But I feel wonderful
Um…yeah. That’s just about every SINGLE “relationship” I’ve ever been in.
Well okay I don’t think I’ve fallen in love with anyone. But people I could have easily fallen in love with have hurt me.
I start to care about people easily. That’s my problem. And then I don’t stop. No matter how much a person hurts me I never stop caring about them. Some people have the ability to start hating people who have wronged them. I don’t have that ability. And then what happens? People hurt me over and over again.
My dad can shut people out when he wants to. Sometimes I wish I were like that. Not all the time though. Just in certain situations.
What the hell am I talking about?
My mom is at her reunion right now. I hope she is having a good time.
I almost ate a meatball earlier because I was starving and there is NOTHING in this gosh darn house. And I had the meatball in my mouth and was about to close my mouth and realized “I can’t eat red meat!” I had to throw it out.
That sucked.
Only a few more weeks and then I can go out have the biggest steak ever. I think I am going to talk my dad into taking me to Peter Lugers.
Mmmmmmmm steak.
Gross. My dad has the worst cough. It sounds like he is coughing up a lung.
Bleh.
That’s what happens when you smoke for 50 years.
I guess I’ll watch basketball since there is NOTHING else on.
Stace
March 20th 2004 1:54p
leave a message on your phone
just to find out you're not home
keeping up with you is something I could never do
and I know something's wrong
'cause you've been gone too long
a fucking waste of my time is all that you've become
Wow. Hello. Could I relate to a song any more than what I just wrote? I found that on another friend's journal. I have to found out who sings it.
March 19th 2004 6:32p
Good news!
Melissa’s C section is scheduled for tomorrow! YAY!!! It’s baby time! I am going home tomorrow morning so I can go to the hospital later in the day. I am so excited. BABY!
More good news. I may really be on TV. WHEEEE!!!!
I just spoke to someone who is doing a documentary and if it happens he wants me to be interviewed on camera. Can I be more excited right now?
Wait…I should know better. Every time I get excited about something, something fucks it up. I will be cautiously happy.
BABY!
Sorry.
Okay so the C section is at 11:30 tomorrow morning…so please pray that everything goes smoothly for Melissa and baby.
I have to get out of here. If I am going home this weekend I am doing laundry and I want to pack everything tonight.
Stace
March 19th 2004
I just talked to the family. One of my mom’s laminates fell out of her mouth, just in time for her 40th high school reunion so now she looks like an extra from Deliverance. And of course our dentist is in San Francisco.
I felt bad for her. She’s been looking forward to the reunion for a while and she’s been really stressed lately and now this. Poor mommy.
Then I spoke to my dad briefly about basketball and then I spoke to my brother who read off the dates of my Yankee tickets. I have 2 Boston games: one in April and one in September. Yeehaw. I have a Met game in June. I have Old Timer’s Day…although now that Donnie Baseball is a coach it won’t be as fun for me. And I have a Sunday night game on my dad’s birthday September 19th. Happy Birthday Daddy!
They’re on the road for my birthday.
Bastards.
Yankee baseball clap clap clap clap clap
10 days!
Okay the sun is out now. What is up with the weather here?!
My goodness.
I have to say I love when people I am supposedly a friend with at work go to lunch in a group and don’t include me. I appreciate that especially since I ALWAYS ask people if they want something when I am going down to Starbucks or to the newsstand. Fine, fuck you then.
I think I am going to go to look where “Eternal Sunshine…” is playing and see it tonight after work.
So instead of going home and watching my cats fight I’ll go to the movies.
Sounds good right?
I am in one of my “I vant to be alone” moods like Marlene Dietrich. But I am perfectly happy to be left alone. Last week I was bitching and moaning about it.
I don’t understand people who can’t handle being alone. It’s kind of sad to me how people depend on other people to have a good time.
I can honestly sit in my apartment and sing a long to cheesy music at the top of my lungs and have the best time.
Sure there are moments when I wish someone were with me but there are those moments when I love just being all goofy and silly alone. The only person I can truly be goofy with is my best friend Racquel because she is the same way.
She has a boyfriend now and I never see her anymore. And I’m not complaining. I am happy that she is happy. I know no one can ever break our bond. That’s impossible. But there are sometimes when I need to talk to her and I can’t. It’s so stupid but she’s the only person I can talk about certain things with because she understands me completely. She understands me without me even having to say a word. We share the same brain. Some people don’t understand that about us. They think they can be like us but no one can be. I can honestly say that she is my soulmate and NOT in a romantic way at all.
I can’t believe I used that word but it’s true.
We say things at the same time, we say what the other one is thinking before she can say it…it scares some people.
We’re protective of each other. She actually told someone she would kick the shit out of them if they hurt me again…he didn’t listen because he did and now she wants to kick his ass. Heh.
Racquel and I can be in a supermarket and have the best time. One night we spent 3 hours at Tower Records and seriously it was one of the best times out I have ever had.
There are only two other people in this world that can make me laugh as hard as she can. One of them is my coworker Tom and the other one well let’s just say the other one is the aforementioned person who is due for an ass kicking.
She and I have been friends for 25 years…she is like no she IS my sister.
Oh God I am so mushy. What the hell was my original point?
Ah who cares?
Another good thing about Racquel and I is that we both get into the same crappy moods and we understand that we have to be left alone. Other people can’t do that and it drives us insane.
I don’t know what I’d do without her.
And I know she feels the same about me.
If you are envious, you have a right to be. Every person should have a Racquel in his or her life.
Word of the day: asskisser
Okay so it’s not really a word…
Stace
March 18th 2004 9:09p
RIP JJ Jackson who was one of the original 5 MTV Veejays.
Donald Trump wants to trademark "You're fired!" Um okay.
I got the best message ever! Well, okay that's an exaggeration...Mommy called me to tell me that my Yankee tickets have arrived. AW YEAH.
11 days until the season starts. Wheeeee!
My coworker is STILL there. She works late every night and usually has at least 2 out of the 5 days where she's there until 10:30-11:00. I am planning on staying late tomorrow night because I have no life.
It'll be fine. We'll order food or go out get some and bring it back like we did last time. I can't believe I stayed at work until 12:30a that Friday. I should have gone out to a bar afterwards. Yeah right.
Hmmm one of my coworkers was describing a girl he had a crush on high school and he said, "She was tall, and had a rockin body like you." Um what? I almost fell over. He is not someone I would imagine thinking of me having a rockin body but hell I'll take a compliment whenever I can get it.
I better get my rockin ass back in the gym.
My coworker who started using the cross trainer because I lost so much weight using it said that she was on it yesterday 30 minutes and I was like, "Aw I miss my machine!"
It's mine. Everyone started using it after I had lost so much weight.
I was the trendsetter!!!
I better start another trend soon...ick.
I don't look that bad considering I have eaten McDonalds more in the last month than I had in the last 5 years combined.
If I start working out regularly again I can look good in 2-3 weeks.
Ooooo wait I have to start working out now. My LA trip is in a month and a half. WHEEEEEEEEE! The trip where I'll be at a Anaheim Angels game sitting near the dugout and will meet my future husband who will have to understand that unless he's playing against the Yankees I will always root for my boys.
Hee. Hopefully my future husband will become a Yankee one day.
I hate when people call my cell phone by mistake. I get all excited and then get disappointed when I realize it's someone who called the wrong number.
I said I wanted my hair to grow down to my bra strap by my 30th birthday...well it's there. WOO HOO!!!! And I still have 5 months to go! I am going to keep growing it. I've never had long hair. And I have wide shoulders and long hair makes me look not so wide. Now if I could only get it to do something. It's wavy. It's not straight and it's not curly. It's that blah in between shit.
And I way too lazy to blow it out. Please. I couldn't even be bothered to do my hair when it was up to my chin.
When I worked at the pizza place in Oswego I chopped my hair off into a boy cut and I would shower, put my hat on for work and it would mold my hair into the perfect shape to go out after work. Heh.
Speaking of the pizza place I had a dream I went up there to visit my bosses. And it was a weird dream. The boss I lusted after and who frankly lusted after me, thank you very much, was calling me his baby and kissing me and hugging me. It was strange I haven't seen him in 4 years and I haven't spoken to him in just about a year. Actually he owes me a phone call. The other boss who also had a thing for me emails me every once in a while. They both liked me. I was the only girl who worked there for a while. My boss was the first guy to ever tell me I was beautiful and sexy which was funny because I think I am a lot more comfortable in my womanhood now at 29 then I was at 22. At 22 I was just so not comfortable with anything about myself. My lazy eye, my body, my hair, my face...the only thing I liked about myself was my sense of humor.
I wonder what he'd think if he saw me now at almost 30. I am a lot different now. I carry myself a lot differently. I can pull off the confident woman thing, even if I don't feel it all the time. Enough people have told me that I am pretty for me to realize that I am (finally).
Jesus there is really no point to all of this.
Sorry to go off on a tangent like that. Good God.
I was watching my boys last night. I got home AFTER Giambi hit his home run, of course....I think I have only seen him hit like 3 HR's in person. Wait no. I saw him hit one in the playoffs I can't remember which year when he played against the Yankees. Anywho, the cameramen at YES must love me because they got some GOOD shots of him. Rowr.
Because Jeter, A Rod and Giambi every game is a multiple panty affair. DAMN.
YAY! I caught Most Extreme Elimination.
Time to laugh.
My mom loves this show. Heh.
Stace
March 18th 2004
Okay enough with the snow Mother Nature. It’s driving me crazy especially since my super DOESN’T SHOVEL THE SIDEWALK IN FRONT OF THE BUILDING. Assclown.
Memo to George Steinbrenner and Brian Cashman: On Larry King Live the other night Ben Affleck was asked what he would do if the Yankees signed Nomar next year and Ben said he would hang himself…DO IT!!! Get Nomar!
Just kidding
I wish he had said, “I’d retire from acting.”
Now that would be cool. But we’re not getting Nomar. He’s a West Coast boy and if the Sox get rid of him he’s probably heading to SoCal.
There’s a possibility that you guys may see me on TV sometime in the not so distant future. I’ll keep you posted.
Hee.
If it’s snowing again tomorrow I’m wearing jeans to work.
I am not dressing up to get all wet and gross from the snow.
I really need to do laundry this weekend. I also have to get some of my spring stuff out because it will probably be in the 70s in two weeks.
Okay back to work I go.
Stace
March 16th 2004 8:58p
So I returned to work today and everyone was walking on eggshells around me.
I had so many people come over and ask me where I had been. I always think people don't notice when I am out but everyone did. Everyone was so worried. It was actually nice.
I actually got to work early. The worst thing about returning to work after being off 3 workdays with a weekend thrown in is email. I had about 8 million of them. Lots of crap, a couple of viruses that I deleted like a good girl, an email from my friend Brenda announcing that she and her husband and son are moving to Raleigh/Durham North Carolina, an email from someone I hadn't heard from in a while (and it wasn't obnoxious this time--so that was nice), and LOTS of work crap.
I am trying to decide what I want to do with my hair. I am still growing it out but I think I want to do something colorwise.
So another person from my office is moving down to Miami. What the hell? Is Miami the new place to be? Maybe I'll move there instead of LA.
South Beach, Latin men, golf courses, the beach....
Hurricanes, humidity, beautiful women with killer bodies...maybe not.
Supposedly there is a commercial with Jason Giambi and Tracey Morgan. Okay I was home 5 straight days and watched TV for at least 12 hours every one of those days...how come I didn't see it?
WTF?
Oh and could I be more excited about tomorrow? St. Patrick's Day! Wheeeeeeee! Irish guys ALL OVER MANHATTAN. Aw yeah. Cute, drunk Irish guys. Eye candy anyone?
I love Irish guys. I've always loved Irish guys. The majority of guys I've liked, liked a lot, lusted after and loved have had Irish last names. Most of them have had M last names which is really odd, only two Mc last names. No O apostrophe last names, there was a Quinn, a Manley, a Mackey, few of them were chubby with glasses and pretty blue eyes, some have just had pretty blue eyes, two were shorter than me, a couple were taller and one was exactly my height, most drank beer like water, and most of them ripped my heart out. Heh.
I grew up with Irish guys so that's all I like. Can't help it. I'm sure as hell not going after a Greek guy. Bleh. And my dad who is Greek doesn't even want me to marry a Greek guy.
"The red's bright like a baboon's ass." HAHAHAHA. Could you imagine if someone described your shirt like that?
I love this show.
Oh yeah "Significant Others" is on again.
A repeat from last week, the new one comes on in ten minutes.
Ah shit. I can't stay up too late. I have to get up at 5:30. I have a therapist appointment at 7:10a.
My brother keeps ordering and buying shit on Ebay with my username. GET YOUR OWN DAMN SCREENNAME!
Excuse me.
The LA Trip is looking better and better everyday. Wheee!
I cannot wait.
I just realized I have a lot of AMEX points I could probably use them towards something vacation related.
I need to go away this year. I would love to go to Puerto Rico again.
I'm thinking of taking the week of my birthday off. My 29th was pretty shitty...I don't know if I can handle turning 30 and having to go to work.
Two of my coworkers are turning 40 next month. April 16th and April 17th. We are going out the 15th to celebrate. Tax day!
I would take 2 weeks off if I was turning 40. Heh.
Please God let me have a boyfriend when I turn 40. At least. If you choose to give me a husband that would be great too.
I am so pissed that Charlie Kaufman stole my idea. I want to see "Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind". And then I want someone to really erase certain people from my memory. PLEASE?
Thanks.
Damn it! When is Queer As Folk coming back onto On Demand!?
I watched another episode last night. Yum.
How come websites aren't loading on my computer? Piece of shit.
I need to get DSL.
Oh my God this guy described a vagina as a melted candle with hair. BWAHAHAHAHAHAHA! This show is insane.
Some of the lines are just unbelievable.
This character on the show is telling her sister that she is having an affair with a married man and is describing his wife as a cold bitch...SHE'S HAVING AN AFFAIR WITH HER SISTER'S HUSBAND.
How sick is that?!
Could you imagine?
I love going out for drinks with people from work. Especially when they have corporate cards and pay for everything. Heh.
Okay so I had a soda tonight but I am saving myself for tomorrow, in case I end up going out.
I probably won't but you never know.
YAY! Queer Eye is on.
Could march be any more annoying weatherwise? I mean one day it's 57 and the next day it's 31 and snowing?! WTF?
I hope my friend's fiancé gets chosen for Queer Eye. That would be so cool.
God Kyan is so hot.
I should have eaten more than ede mame for dinner.
I am HUNGRY.
Goodnight.
Stace
March 15th 2004 8:50p
Beware of the Ides of March.
No kidding.
This depression I am in better lift soon because I can't take it anymore. But hey at least someone called to check up on me.
My former roommate said some of the people in my office were concerned about me. Aw.
At least someone was.
Okay I shouldn't talk like that. My dad was worried. My mom was worried. My brother was worried.
I was worried.
But I see my therapist on Wednesday morning so that's good.
Damn Jake Gyllenhaal is HOT.
Austin Powers International Man of Mystery is on, you know, the first one. It's on TBS's Dinner and a Movie. The chick on the show said something stupid like, 'When this movie first came out in 1994..." 1994? 1997! Dumbass.
God that's so annoying. At least get the FUCKIN date right when you're on TV. Stupid ass.
If my friend Melissa had her baby tonight she could have named him Brutus since it is the Ides of March. Heh.
"Allow myself to introduce...myself. My name is Richie Cunningham and this is my wife Oprah."
BWAHAHA!
This movie is just what I needed to get out of my funk.
God I used to love Andrew McCarthy. He was so cute. (I turned on the E! True Hollywood Story on the Brat Pack)
Rob Lowe was so pretty. "About Last Night..." Was on earlier. I remember seeing that movie at 12 and being like, "Whoa that's a lot of sex."
Same reaction at 29.
I am still laughing thinking about Curb Your Enthusiasm. Some of the stuff that Larry David said last night was so funny. Like when the bellhop was showing him how to use everything in the room and Larry was like, "This is a floor, it holds everything up" or something like that. So funny.
So Congratulations to Charlie Sheen and Denise Richards on the birth of their baby girl Sam. Is it short for Samantha or is it just Sam?
"Free me from these chains...I need to change my way."
"heal these broken wings...I need to fly far away, far away."
Wow, I can relate to so many songs lately.
It was nice to know that some of my coworkers were worried about me.
Alanis Morissette chopped her hair off. I'm growing mine out and she chops her off.
Isn't it ironic? Don't you think?
Oh come on, I HAD to go there. It wouldn't be me if I didn't.
Okay Jack just scared the shit out of me by jumping onto my lap without a warning. I didn't even see him.
I watched "Sweet Dreams" the Patsy Cline movie. It made me cry. Something else I watched today made me cry and it's something that normally never makes me cry...damn it what was it?
It's amazing how many Patsy Cline songs I can relate to.
It's kinda sad.
Pathetic actually.
I think my mom said that my brother went to see wrestling tonight. So I think he may be at Monday night RAW.
My brother is so funny.
I just saw a commercial for something called the Marijuana-Louges. HA! I want to go see it. It starts March 18th. Do any of my friends who read this site and who live close by want to see it? It's probably really funny.
I miss weed sometimes. Only sometimes. I think it would make me pass out now.
I turned RAW on to see where it is.
What's with the NCAA Tournament regions actually being the names of cities? WTF?
Yep it's at Continental Airlines Arena. My bro is in East Rutherford New Jersey,
EW that wrestler has crazy ass veins sticking out of his arms. Gross.
As much it pains me to admit this, "Jersey Girl" looks cute. I won't go see it of course but I'll probably watch it when it airs on cable.
In six months. Just kidding.
Oh my mom told something so disturbing! I've written in the past about how my dad is addicted to Fox News Channel. Well, it seems he actually tried to get one of his friends to turn it on when my parents were over his house for coffee. My mom was like, "Do not turn it on!!!" HA! He was a guest in someone's house and he wanted to watch Fox News Channel and almost made them do it...does anyone else see the problem here? He can't go one night without seeing Bill O'Reilly? Good lord.
It's frightening. I think we need to have an intervention.
Okay the little girl upstairs is really jumping all over the place tonight.
When I go to bed at night I usually put my hamper in front of my door so my cats can't get in at night. Well this morning they were able to get into the room. They pushed the hamper and door just enough to get themselves into the room. It was so funny. I was like, "How the hell did you get in here!?"
"The Good Girl" is a sick and twisted movie.
"Spaceballs" was on earlier but I know that didn't make me cry. What the hell was it!?
I'll probably think of HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! Jack was on the table and he rolled over and fell off the table!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. Oh god I needed that laugh. Thanks.
That was so funny. He just disappeared.
Some visitors to the site have inquired about why one person is blacked out of my Jana's B-day pics. He didn't want to be mentioned on my site so I figured I wouldn't put his picture on it either. It's a shame cause ladies he's a hottie...even though...oh I won't get into it again. He doesn't like me anymore, I have to get over it. Maybe he never did, maybe he lied. Not that I'd ever know...Okay I have to stop or this will turn into a really long and nasty rant and I don't want to do that. Even though I have every right to be a bitch. How do you just stop calling someone? For no reason?
I should have known better. Everytime I am happy BAM! Everything gets ruined. I am usually blindsided. I think things are fine and they're not. Duh.
I guess I deserved it. I did write once upon a time that he had four chins and that he needed to grow the fuck up. When he said he was going to get me back for it I didn't think he'd go to such extreme measures.
Well on that pleasant and revealing and frankly quite embarrassing note I am going to shower and then go to bed.
I was used and abused people...how humiliating.
Goodnight John boy. How ironic once again.
Stace
March 14th 2004 10:53p
Okay The Sopranos was "eh" but Curb kicked ass. Larry David has to be the most annoying human being on earth. Oh my God. Could you imagine if he was really like that?
The new show Deadwood looks too violent for me.
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO a first season episode of Queer as Folk is on. WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!! So excited. Yay!
Guess the shower is going to have to wait again.
OH MY GOD is this the episode that has my favorite sex scene of all time? I hope it is. Could this night get any better? No I think not.
Please please please be that episode. I think it is.
IT IS!!! YAY!
Wow this is so sad I am excited because Queer As Folk is on. God, can you make my life more exciting? Please?
Heh they're joking about how two dates constitutes a long term relationship. Hey that happens in my world too! I guess I am a gay man.
God Gale Harold is so hot. April 18th has to get here soon. Damn it.
WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! The sex scene is on. Excuse me. I'll be back in a few minutes...Aw yeah.
This show gets me CRAZY.
The FCC better not fuck with my show.
GOD HE'S SO HOT!
Good looking guys are assholes though. I have to go after not so good looking guys because good looking guys ALWAYS fuck me over.
Ooo you're so pretty, you're so funny. I'm not going to call you again for NO REASON. Oh wait there is a reason. I'M A PUSSY. I can't tell you I don't want to be with you so I just stopped calling you. By the way my therapist thinks you need to talk to someone. I agree.
Ahem.
Now I feel better.
Aw man now I am getting all riled up. This show gets me a little too crazy.
I need a boyfriend. No, wait a friend to hook up with.
Favorite quote time: "You can't stay. I've got someone coming over in approximately seven and a half inches..." Hee. So dirty.
One of the guys on the show is wearing a Queens College t-shirt. Heh.
I can't believe the fourth season is starting already. Which means I met the cast of QAF 3 years ago? Wow.
I want to go away for the weekend. Maybe I'll go somewhere alone (Yeah right)
I wonder if my friend will be having her baby tomorrow. God it's so weird to have a close friend who is so close to giving birth. I have to get over my fear of small babies.
BABY!
Yay!
The one good thing about my mom's surprise visit was the fact that I threw all of my garbage out.
Oh god these guys say I love you too quickly on this show. I love you after 2 dates? I can't even get an "I really like you" after like 6 or 7 dates or a phone call. HAHAHAHAHAHA!
I am so glad I can laugh about this stuff now.
Hmmmm I am going to go into my archives and post some shit from the last time this happened...with the same person.
Screw me over once shame on you, screw me over twice shame on me. But hey I'm a dumbass. What can I say? I fall for idiots.
I'll learn eventually.
Okay it's crying time.
Stace
March 14th 2003
I was ambushed today. I haven't really left my apartment much in the last 4 days and I was prepared for another boring, quiet day at home when there's a knock on my door at 1:30. It's my brother and my mother.
It's not that I don't love my family, it's just that I have not been in the mood for people this weekend and my apartment's a mess and my mom usually inspects EVERYTHING when she comes here.
She was good, she only cleaned one toilet and my dishes.
My brother went out and got us Mc Donald's. Because having it twice in 4 days wasn't enough I had to have it a 3rd time.
Who cares. I have no one to worry about. No one sees me besides my co-workers. Who cares if my ass expands. At this point I really don't give a shit anymore.
Anywho, the poor cats haven't seen another male in over a month so they were a little afraid of my brother. My mom's the only other person who's been here since the end of January.
It took them a few minutes to get used to him. It was funny.
We watched my Dukies lose to Maryland in the ACC Tournament final and Most Extreme Elimination. My mom says she watches it sometimes. We were cracking up. One chick really busted her ass on the log drop challenge. We all yelled out, "OOOO" when she fell. As soon as I saw her I knew she was going down because she alittle on the heavy side.
JASON GIAMBI'S LAME DEODORANT COMMERCIAL!!! I LOVE SPIKE TV.
Excuse me.
Oh my god I love the fake names they use on MXC. They just said a really long Greek name. HAHAHAHA!
Oh good it's on again at 7:30. No matter how bad my mood is this show cheers me up.
Has Ben Affleck gone on a Tastycakes binge since his break up with Jen? It sure as heck looks it. He looked a little puffy to me last night on SNL. Yes, I watched it.
I had nothing better to do. It wasn't that bad but he kept laughing during the skits so that was kinda funny.
Ooooo gross. The mystery mud is really scary looking.
Their favorite fake last name on this show is Babaganoosh. Or however the heck you spell that.
So let's see I have to watch the Sopranos and the season finale of Curb Your Enthusiasm. And shower...badly.
Bleh.
Yeah the dash of death. I love this challenge. The people usually fall all the time.
BWAHAHAHAHAHA!
I love when they get hit in the head. This shit is so funny.
God I love this show. Thank you Spike TV for this show.
Oh my god. My poor nose has had so many liquids spew out of it from watching this show.
Yay! Rotating Surfboard of Death is coming up!
I am missing Wrestlemania XX. Darn.
My all time favorite voice over on this show is from an "international" show where this really pale girl is about to do a challenge and she shouts, "I have no skin pigment!" In a British accent. I was literally crying from laughing so hard. I could hardly breathe. I first saw it with my brother when I was home for Christmas.
Or was it Thanksgiving?
Pepito Ortiz! BWAHAHAHA!
I was so bored this morning that I watched, "Three Men and a Little Lady" and I didn't even change the channel.
I kept it on.
Ooo Kate Winslet is on Inside the Actors Studio. I love her.
Okay time to shower and then watch the Sopranos and Curb.
Stace
March 13th 2004
I am stuck in a rut. I need a new job but there's nothing out there. I can't just quit because I have bills to pay and no money. I have never been unemployed. I have been working for the past twelve years. I wouldn't know what to do with myself. I don't want to become one of those people who is unemployed and wakes up at 3 in the afternoon.
I need to win the lottery. Nothing too crazy. I don't need to win the mega millions just a couple of million.
So I could pay off my debts (which compared to most is close to nothing), buy a nice apartment and then take some time off so I can work on writing. Oh and also pay the WGA dues.
People tell me that I'm funny and that I am talented. I have to put it to some use.
Of course people have also told me I am the funniest person they ever met and some have told me I have made them laugh harder than anyone else in their life ever has...and where are they now? WHO THE FUCK KNOWS.
Oops. Sorry.
I downloaded new ringers for my cell phone. "Harder to Breathe" by Maroon 5, "Toxic" by Britney Spears, "White Lines" by Grandmaster Flash (aw yeah), "New York, New York" by Frank Sinatra and "Are you Gonna Be my Girl?" By Jet.
"Toxic" is assigned to someone who has never called my cell phone and probably never will but whatever. I had to do it.
Am I the only one who thinks Fred Durst is a tool?
Aw "If You're Gone" by Matchbox Twenty. This CD "Mad Season" reminds me of the summer of 2000. Its one of the CDs that was on repeat. That and "Blue Parade" by Sarah Slean.
Oh my God I was just singing along with Jessica Simpson. Someone help me please...someone get me out of this rut.
Okay I put Zero 7 in. This should make me feel a teensy bit better.
Even though it reminds of someone/something. Fucker.
How come people don't care that they hurt me badly? What is that about? I do nothing but be nice and they shit all over me.
I am a doormat.
Sorry again.
I don't know what to get for dinner. I have money now so I don't have to leave the house...thank goodness.
I guess I'll get chinese because I am still not eating red meat and that's usually what I order from the Spanish/American restaurant.
My poor pregnant best friend is so close yet so far away. Her son doesn't seem to want to come out yet. Her due date is tomorrow but he is already 8lbs 4 oz. OW and she wanted to do natural. OW again.
I need to eat. Hmmmmmm.
And shower....
Stace
March 12th 2004 8:41p
I went out to get something to eat and drink because there was nothing in the apartment and I ended up getting: a bag of potato chips, a package of cookies, and a quart of ice cream...a nice healthy dinner.
Bill Maher is cracking me up right now.
He just made a really bad remark about John Kerry's wife.
Someone posted this on a political board in regards to John Kerry: "Hey John, why the long face?" I'm sorry but that cracked my shit up.
Oooo the Curb Your Enthusiasm finale is Sunday night. Hopefully the Sopranos will be good this week.
I am about to watch a repeat of Sex and the City where Big was an asshole to Carrie. Hmmm Big being an asshole? Shocker.
A guy named John being an asshole? Another BIG shocker.
"Do you believe? What you see..."
"Wasting my time, in the waiting line...."
LOVE THAT SONG. I bought the Zero 7 'Simple Things' CD because of that song and because I heard it in this episode and I ended up loving the CD.
It's so good. I highly recommend it.
My favorite songs on that CD are, "Destiny", "Spinning", the aforementioned "In the Waiting Line" and "I Have Seen". Go to a record store and if they have those scanner machines where you can listen to snippets of the tracks, listen to those.
Oh boy couples on TV are making me soooo fucking sick today.
I was nauseated about 18 times while watching General Hospital today.
And now Miranda and Robert are making me ill.
I love Samantha. I want to be Samantha...I have 15 years to sleep with about 1000 guys. I can do it.
How do you know when someone is "The One"?
Aw but Miranda and Steve aren't. Damn them!!!!
I just saw Ben Assfleck calling me an evil evil person because I root for the Yankees. He's lucky I didn't run into him in the building.
Oooo someone just informed me that the Madrid bombings happened 911 days after 9/11. Freaky.
My brother IMed me to see if I was okay. How cute is that?
Heh.
I am watching a replay of the Yankee game and DAMN Giambi looks good all lean and mean. I cannot wait for the regular season to start. I will just be watching baseball every damn night.
Baseball opening day is in 17 days, Queer As Folk starts in 36 days. WHEEEEEEEEE!
Yay!
Man I am tired. I'm going to bed.
Stace
March 12th 2004
Well I had a pretty intense panic episode this morning and I don't want to leave my apartment. I have no idea what that's about.
Can my job be that bad that I don't want to go in there at all? My body is reacting to it?
Well, that's just lovely.
I called my mom because she's been having the same issues lately. Maybe I should go up there for the weekend?
Okay just spoke to mom. She said it's obvious that I am unhappy at work and having to go into a situation I dread every day is making me panic.
She also told me not to worry about what they're thinking and to concentrate on making myself feel better.
The people in my office make you feel bad for taking days off and now here I am taking 2 in a row. Although I'd much rather be feeling more like myself than what I am feeling right now. My heart is beating fast and I feel like I can't relax.
I'm gonna go and do some breathing exercises.
To my friends who read the site, my cell is on in case you want to call. Then again who knows if I'll answer it. Leave a message.
Stace
March 11th 2004 9:45p
I hate my job...if anyone out there knows of anything let me know because I am so ready to walk out.
I was out again today. This time I was actually sick and I checked my work voicemail at about 11:30am. I had 6 messages! WTF? No one calls when I am there. I don't understand.
And one of the station people tattled on me. Whatever. Fuck you. Bitch.
It's not a big deal but she is a neurotic freak and blows EVERYTHING out of proportion. If they decide to bombard me tomorrow I will walk out, come back on Saturday to pick up my stuff and not go back there.
That's how fed up I am. I was there until 11:30 last night. And the co-worker who was with me last night is STILL there right now. I see her on my buddy list. It's 10 of 10. She stays late every night. Does that tell you something? THEY NEED TO HIRE PEOPLE!!!
Asshats.
Ugh.
Some idiot drove down my street with his radio so loud that he set off 4 car alarms. What is the point of that? I don't understand.
I got this Rembrandt 2 Hour White stuff. It's only suuposed to take 2 hours to whiten your teeth...Crest Whitestrips take too much of an effort. I want immediate results.
I hate my teeth. They're too small.
Oh here I go.Now I am going to complain.
I'm going to bed to think about how shitty my life is, how I hate people who fuck me over and keep myself awake all night crying. Goodnight!
Stace
March 10th 2004 12:00pm
Are you there God it's me Stacey? THANK YOU!!!!!!
March 9th 2004 7:38p
Todd Bertuzzi of the Vancouver Canucks should be suspended INDEFINITELY for the vicious and frankly cowardly hit on Steve Moore of the Colorado Avalanche. How do you 1) hit someone from behind and then 2) drive their FACE INTO THE ICE? I don't care how big a star he is, the NHL needs to suspend his ass for at least a year. Steve Moore has a fractured neck for crissakes. I literally got sick to my stomach when I saw the footage on ESPN.
And anyone who sticks up for Bertuzzi is an idiot.
Switching gears completely before I go off and rant like I did about Ben Assfleck earlier... I was able to watch Sunday's Curb Your Enthusiasm. Oh my God. Larry David is INSANE. So funny.
Tomorrow is going to be a hell day at work. Although my supervisor and a couple of my coworkers are helping me send the over 400 orders I was complaining about. If I only had those orders I'd be fine but that's 400 new orders on top of a million other ones. One of my coworkers and I are planning on staying late tomorrow and ordering dinner.
There's a lot of commotion outside right now. Oh and the other day I had no idea that a kid fell 5 stories out a window a block from my building...I read about in the paper yesterday. I was like, "HOLY SHIT!"
Okay last week's Queer Eye is cracking me up. Carson's one liners are making me howl which is freaking my cats out.
I think this dude's apartment is in the nothern part of my neighborhood. The building looks familar.
Commercial.
"Her name is Rio and she dances on the sand just like that river twisting through a dusty land..." Ah Duran Duran's love song to America. God I LOVED this video.
VH1 Classics should have a block of just Duran Duran videos.
Okay my spam mail is pssing me off. Can I go back to getting Penis enlargement emails? I miss them. Now I keep getting engagement ring and weddings in Vegas emails. FUCK OFF!!!! I am nowhere near getting married. I am not even dating anyone. ASSHOLES!!!!!
Dear God it's me Stacey...you helped my friend Margaret when she asked for your help so I am begging you CAN I GET MY PERIOD???!!!!! Thanks a lot God. You rock.
I know I'll be bitching tomorrow but right now I am bloated, pissy and sore and I have been like this FOR OVER A WEEK. Am I pregnant or what?!
Ooo chills. Frightening thought. Me, a mom? UGH.
I am watching "Significant Others" on Bravo. Great show. Must see TV.
It's VERY funny.
This show RULES.
I have a new favorite show. This show is so damn funny.
"I'm not the one wearing a size 2 dress on a size 8 body." BWAHAHAHA!
Oh dear. My sides. Oh.
Here are my bags:
Sigh....
I think I want to see Jim Carrey's new movie because my girlfriend Kate Winslet is in it.
Heh.
Okay, time for bed.
Goodnight moon.
Stace
March 9th 2004
Twenty years ago today I had my second eye surgery. It wasn’t successful because my eye only stayed straight for 2-3 years afterwards.
Yes I know how do I remember this stuff?
Although when I called my mom and asked her what happened twenty years ago today she answered right away. Apple, tree, not far, you get the picture. So now I have to watch Sunday’s Curb Your Enthusiasm because my mom said she peed in her pants laughing.
My co-worker Tom always seems to know when I need to laugh. I am having another shit day. I emailed him to see how his day was going and his reply was, “Terrible, screaming buyers, DOS’s, Accounts receivable, avails…but I did save a ton on my car insurance.”
BWAH!
Tom is one of the funniest people I know. He needs to be in comedy and it drives me crazy that he isn’t.
So what does Stacey do when she’s having bad week at work? Well she buys a handbag or in this case TWO handbags. Yes. I went out last night and bought 1 Louis Vuitton and 1 Gucci. Yes I am insane. BUT they are classics and should last me YEARS. I’ll take pictures with my camera phone and upload them to the site so you can see them. They’re so pretty!!!!
Oh Ben Assfleck, you want a piece of me, you got it: “Ben Affleck's gone public in calling Yankee Fans: "Evil, Evil, People" and asked them to stay away from seeing his movie "Jersey Girl".
I CANNOT wait to see him here this week. I JUST missed him last night. The security guard was like, “Stace you just missed your man. He went upstairs two minutes ago.” I was so mad.
I wanted to fake sneeze and say, “A Rod!” if I saw him.
Ben, you’ll be lucky if Red Sox nation goes to see your weak ass movies. They don’t want you as their ambassador.
Here is entire snippet from Dateline.
Ben Affleck - who'll be in New York tonight for the premiere of "Jersey Girl," minus his ex-fiancée with the bit part in the movie - might be getting himself into real trouble on this Friday's installment of "Dateline NBC."
The diehard Boston Red Sox fan insists to Katie Couric that the Yankees are "the worst thing to happen to professional sports since the inception of professional sports. The New York Yankees are the - how can you root for the Yankees?"
That prompts "Jersey Girl" director Kevin Smith to try some damage control: "There are some Yankee fans who might have gone to see this picture until you opened your big fat mouth."
To which Affleck retorts: "Stay away, stay away, you evil, evil people!"
Ben, you’re a baby. Why are you suddenly whining about the Yankees now? And why is it bad for baseball when the Yanks get A Rod but it would have been fine for baseball if the Red Sox got him? Why are you and the rest of the Boston moh mohs crying poverty when you have the second highest payroll in the major leagues? You don’t root for Pittsburgh or Milwaukee you asshole. If you’re so concerned with the Red Sox payroll, why don’t you give them some money? Oh I know why BECAUSE YOU BLEW IT ON AN ENGAGEMENT RING THAT COST NEARLY TWO MILLION DOLLARS!!! Instead of spending money on engagements that don’t last and gambling it away in Vegas, became a shareholder of the Red Sox franchise. And then maybe people will start to care about what you have to say about baseball…nah never mind, they still won’t give a shit. And your movies suck.
I am going back to work.
Stace
March 8th 2004
I had such a bad night’s sleep. I usually can’t sleep well on Sunday night anyway but last night was especially bad. I was too hot and just uncomfortable.
So apparently Time Magazine has a typo on their cover this week. The headline is about Martha Stewart and it says, “Just Deserts” instead of “Just Desserts” BWAH!
I called my coworker who is a notoriously bad speller and asked him if he had gotten a new job and hadn't told me.
I was ready to walk out of my job. I was thisclose to just walking out and never coming back. I am ready to kill someone. I am going to have to stay late every night this week (except for tonight because I have plans) Nice right?
Assholes.
Thank god I don’t have a social life. Oh and how pathetic is this? My mom was supposed to come over first on Thursday, then Saturday and then yesterday…did she come over? No.
I feel so loved.
Really.
It’s bad enough my friends don’t visit me anymore but now my own family won’t come to see me?
It’s a bad thing when you’re telling your therapist about a certain person in your life and she calls that person ‘crazy’, right?
Yeah thought so.
I have to go and print out orders for the next 55 minutes.
I am playing lotto this week and if I win big I am not showing up at work ever again. I won’t even give 2 weeks notice. Buh bye.
Stace
March 7th 9:39p
I cannot understand the attraction to Tony Soprano. Bleh.
I sort of understand the power thing but WHOA he just kissed Dr. Melfi.
March 7th 2004 start time 5:20p
My movie is on. "Kissing Jessica Stein". That will be me in a couple of years. I am going to get so sick of guys that I am going to try lesbianism.
Heh.
I have seen this movie so many times...I watch it everytime I catch it.
I am trying to decide if I should order dinner or make spaghetti. Hmmmm.
I watched the Yanks/Red Sox exhibition game this afternoon. Giambi wasn't even there. Damn it. Although the YES cameramen were thinking of me when they were showing Arod and Jeter sweating and doing sit ups.
Mmmmmmm.
Someone alert Mel Gibson that he may have to make a second passion of the Christ. I think another immaculate conception is happening.
Either that or the stress at work is getting to me.
Being PMSy for two weeks is not fun for me or for anyone around me.
Oh so that picture I got of Giambi helped me with my dreams last night. Heh. He kept popping up in that outfit. No matter what I was dreaming about.
"We're not in a relationship, we're in a situation." Oooo new favorite quote.
The apartments in this movie make me jealous.
I shouldn't be. If I fixed this apartment up it would be incredible!
But I have neither the money nor the energy to do it.
My former roommate has invited me to go out to Staten Island and stay overnight with her at her apartment.
Oh I hope I don't get my period tomorrow...
But I get to see the doggy! YAY!
And I get to ride the ferry! I missed the ferry.
I need to shower. I feel gross.
Maybe I'll shower, go to the diner and pick up a turkey burger deluxe and get ready for the Sopranos.
I really don't remember what happened last season...you know because it was like 10 years ago.
I hate long hiatuses. Like Queer As Folk. It ended last June and it's coming on in April. What the hell is that about?!
I just got an email and the subject is "Keep Your Kitty Happy". Guess where my mind went on that one?
Its an email about kitty litter. I was thinking it was about sex toys. Heh.
Okay yeah I am showering...
March 7th 2004 11:09a
Question: When did the lead singer of Kool and the Gang become a starting pitcher for the Boston Red Sox?
"Oh yes it's ladies night and the feeling's right oh yes it's ladies night oh what a night, oh what a night."
Nice hair Pedro.
March 7th 2004 1:07a
I love my fellow Yankee fans...
Okay now I'm really going to bed. Heh.
March 7th 2004 12:48a
Ben Assfleck is hosting SNL next week. Oh my God I've never wanted to see anyone so badly in my life!!!! I so want to say something to him about his bitchy little rant at the Daytona 500. I think he'd laugh at me for being so brave.
And is VH1 trying to kill me??? I watched the Best Week Ever twice now and that shot of Giambi in his Yankee T-Shirt with the sleeves cut off, bat on his shoulder, arms glistening from baby oil, with a look on his face that says, "I will fuck your brains out" seriously made me have heart palpitations. Sweet Jesus.
I asked someone to tape the segment and make screen capture because I NEED THAT SHOT OF HIM AS MY WALLPAPER!!!!
Hot damn!
I wish I could get into this bang craze that has literally swept Hollywood but I don't have the right shaped face for them. Oh well.
I have two pairs of Uggs.
Heh.
Time for me to put that shot of Giambi to good use...Thank you and goodnight!
Stace
March 6th 2004
I know it's only Spring Training but I am sitting and getting ready to watch my men, aw yeah.
It looks so nice down there. 82 degrees in Tampa.
I ordered chinese and will sit and watch the game.
No matter what is going on in my life...the Yankees make me forget about all of my troubles. Yankee Stadium is my happy place. I even smile when I drive past it.
Shit what am I gonna do when I move out west? I guess I'll have to go to Anaheim when they come to town.
How come Jason Giambi is the DH when I am watching? DAMN IT!
Everytime I sit close to the dugout he's DH also. It's so irritating.
It's still so weird to see Arod in a Yankee uniform.
Okay the first 4 innings are over. It's 11-5 Yanks.
Jorge Posada is knocking the shit out of the ball.
Back again. Posada was 3 for 3 with 6 RBIs and 2 runs scored. DAMN.
They won 14-5.
This season is gonna be fun to watch.
Does anyone else find it disturbing that Beyonce's SEVENTEEN YEAR OLD sister got married? MARRIED? AT 17?
Wow Jessica Simpson's sister isn't that pretty.
I have to catch "The Best Week Ever" on VH1 again...all I saw was a female comic say, "Naked?" Then they showed a shot of Giambi in a cutoff shirt with a bat on his shoulder, then cut back to her saying, "Naked in chocolate sauce?" So I have to see what they were talking about.
Damn he looked hot though, with his arms glistening with sweat...ow I just hurt myself again.
I am having a strange pain in my back when I breathe right at the bottom of my ribcage...would that be a kidney thing? God I hope not. I don't feel like having to go to the hospital.
Okay I have to ask this...how come famous people with hair extensions look like they have hair extensions? Like aren't the extensions supposed to look like real hair? Like Paris Hilton and Britney Spears's extension always look like ass.
I am watching the Fabulous Life of Celebrities and I am getting jealous. How is it possible that someone can go into a store and spend $16000 in an HOUR?? Have I spent that much in the past 5 years? Jesus.
Oh my God!!! The Cutting Edge! I LOVED DB Sweeney. What ever happened to him?
My babies are both passed out right now.
I wish I could sleep like a cat.
Last night my phone rang and honestly scared the crap out of me because no one calls me, ever. It was almost 10 o'clock and I couldn't imagine who it was. It was my best friend asking me about something on Word. She was helping her boyfriend with his resume.
This is what my life has become. People only call me when they need something from me.
It's great to be me.
I give Jessica and Nick two more years. He's not gonna be able to handle her fame.
Shit the pain is getting worse...I hate living alone sometimes. How would I even get to the hospital? I am NOT calling an ambulance. And where do I go? Columbia Presbyterian?
I should know this stuff right? But who thinks about that?
I'll wait a little while. I'm sure the pain will go away and if it doesn't I'll go across the hall and have my neighbors help me.
I am in such a mood to watch Moulin Rouge right now.
OW!!! It feels like someone is stabbing me!
What the fuck?!
I'm going now.
Stace