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Februrary 1st 2005
How the hell is it February already?
Rob Thomas has a solo album coming out? Um drool.
I was very proud of myself last night. I went to Old Navy with 2 of my coworkers after we got out of our training and I didn’t buy ANYTHING. Even with the sale and no tax. Good Stacey. And there was a lot of cute stuff that I could have gotten for Florida.
I was very impressed with myself.
It was hard though. I was actually slapping my own hand to stop myself from picking things out.
I did go to Macy’s but I used a $50 Gift Card I had gotten for Christmas to get a new wallet.
Then I walked from Macy’s to 42nd street and took the train home.
We’re going back down to Chelsea for training again. Damn that Old Navy!
My cousin (roommate) is a smartass. J Ho’s video was on and he turned the volume up on his TV to torture me. I was like, “SHUT THAT SHIT OFF!!!”
Heh.
So we are going out next Tuesday night with our Providence station for dinner and drinks. The last time we did that we all got trashed and it was one of the best times I’ve ever had out with coworkers.
We’re going to El Rio Grande on East 38th Street, which has the biggest burritos I have ever seen.
I cannot wait.
Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! Drunk Stacey!
I’m looking forward to tomorrow night. Hopefully it will be fun.
I made my appointment for my consultation with the oral surgeon and booked the surgery. Bleh. My surgery is scheduled for 9am April 16th. I took Monday and Tuesday off in case I have complications but if I’m fine I’m going into work.
Please God let it be ok.
I’ve been putting this off for close to five years. It should be fine. My eye surgery was fine.
I’ll just keep telling myself that.
Stace
January 31st 2005
So I found out where we are going on Wednesday to celebrate my coworker Danielle’s escape from NBC, the Cellar Bar at the Bryant Park Hotel. It looks swanky. Stacey may have to dress nice and wear makeup so she doesn’t look like ass compared to all of her cute and perky coworkers. Heh.
If it’s not cold I’ll walk the 9 blocks, if it’s cold I’ll be a lazyass and take the train 1 stop to 42nd street. Heh.
It should be fun.
So word from Brian Cashman is that Jason Giambi is ready for Spring Training. God if you exist please make it true. If I get to see sweaty Jason Giambi, Derek Jeter, Alex Rodriguez and Tino Martinez at Spring Training I will never ask for anything again. I don’t care if I end up a single old hag with 37 cats; just grant me that one wish. Thanks.
Oh good news. Grandma is functioning fine on her own. She can move herself around in her wheelchair, is going to lunch by herself and doing other stuff she couldn’t do two months ago! Yay!
Extreme Makeover made me cry again last night (the 9 o’clock episode). Damn that show!
It’s just so sugary and sappy that I almost always cry.
Especially when people are crying at the reveal and if they really deserve it. People who help others like the woman last night. She was so thankful for everything. I wanted to hug her. Yeah I know.
I made the coolest 80s mix on my computer today. Squeeze, New Order, Talk Talk, OMD, Naked Eyes, Blondie, Erasure, Yaz Dead or Alive, Pete Gabriel etc.
I have to go to off site training in less than an hour. The people who attended the morning session told me it was very boring. Yippee.
I was sitting my bed this morning combing my hair after my shower and Henry jumped up onto my lap and wanted to cuddle. He always does it at the most inconvenient times. I feel bad because I love when he becomes a cuddle bug. My little Foofy Foofy (TM Gitte Nielsen).
I love how Brigitte Nielsen calls Flava Flav, “Foofy Foofy” it CRACKS MY SHIT UP.
Time to get back on the chain gang.
Stace
January 28th 2005
My bedroom ceiling is fixed…for now. I have a feeling the rest of it will be falling shortly.
Two things I must talk about today: the bitterly cold weather and my fellow Yankee fans.
The weather is ridiculous. I had an asthma attack yesterday morning which was a fun way to start off my day let me tell you. Thank God I learned how to use my stupid inhaler. I understand it’s winter but motherfucker what the fuck!? Does it have to be like 9 degrees? Good god.
My room is FREEZING by the way so thank god for my down comforter.
Okay let’s talk about my fellow Yankee fans. People are bored because we’re hitting the homestretch and Spring Training is going to start in three weeks. My fellow Yankees fans are discussing at length what kind of condition Jason Giambi is going to show up in to Spring Training. With the way some of these idiots talk you’d think he’s going to show up 165 lbs. He was off the steroids last season and he was still “big” not the mammoth behemoth he had been in the past but he suddenly isn’t going to become Alfonso Soriano you dumb fucks. Jesus Christ. I am embarrassed that breathe the same air as these assclowns. They’re talking about how his power will go down. Sure, it might so instead of hitting 41 HRs he may hit 35. Oooooooo. Some people are predicting a healthy in shape Jason Giambi will hit 20HRs. Motherfucker what the fuck? Get your heads out of your asses. I will make this prediction now. IF Jason Giambi is healthy, he’s hitting over 30HRs, take that to the bank, put it in your pipes and smoke it and bite my ass while you’re at it.
Don’t you love when I am PMSing? I am soooooo pleasant.
I am actually in a good mood for a change.
I used new moisturizer on my face this morning. I’m “glowing”. Whatever.
I think I am the only assistant here right now.
Everyone else is at lunch.
Stace
January 26th 2005
It’s 10:25pm and where is Stacey Rose Gobbledygook? At WORK!
Can you say major overtime?
Hey if they’re going to be stingy with my raise then I am getting as much money as I can. Assholes.
Then again I’ll be killed on taxes.
Speaking of money I asked my dad for money on Monday night and he said yes. I asked for $300 and my mom called me on Tuesday to say, “Your father said to give you $500 instead.” Aw yeah Gus Gobbledygook rocks my world.
I am listening to the Grease Soundtrack right now. I love this album. Excuse me double album. I had the double album, cassette and now the CD.
I have some exciting news but can’t share it yet. I don’t want to jinx it. It’s a good thing that can affect my career.
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
It’s nice having “good” news for a change.
“Born to Hand Jive” was my favorite song off this soundtrack when I was little. Now I have two, “Sandy” and “There Are Worse Things I Could Do”.
Oh yeah yeah yeah everybody born to hand jive baby!
Shit it’s 12 degrees again?! I can’t take this weather anymore. It’s driving me crazy. I can’t breathe, my skin is dry as hell, I’m breaking out in hives and my lips are falling off.
Okay I am getting the hell out of here.
I’m taking car service home. It’s too late for me to be riding the A train especially since it’s having so many problems.
Stace
January 24th 2005
Wow the soup I am eating right now kicks major ass.
Broccoli, Cheddar and Potato, oh my!
The “blizzard” disappointed me. I was hoping for like 2 feet of snow. We got a foot in my neighborhood. BFD.
The way they were predicting the accumulation totals on Friday night made it sound like we’d be buried for weeks. Idiots.
I had a hellish commute this morning. The C train was suspended so the A was running local instead of express but then there was confusion as to what was happening. I hate being stuck in a train and not being able to call work if I’m going to be late.
I was at Opal Friday night with my coworkers. I had a nice time. I didn’t really dance too much because I was afraid of hurting my knee again. Ridiculous.
And I didn’t really get too drunk. I wanted to before I got there but once I got there I changed my mind.
Extreme Makeover Home Edition made me cry again last night. Sick kids always make me cry.
I’m also PMSing, which would explain why I am extra emotional.
I was on hold with Chase Saturday night waiting for a customer service rep because I needed to work out a payment schedule with them so they’d stop calling me every goddamned day. When I was on hold for 10 minutes “I Want Love” by Elton John came on and of course while I’m in the middle of belting it out this nice man Steve came on the line and started laughing at me. And you know how they record phone calls for quality purposes. Ugh.
I am getting more and more annoyed with my coworkers who bullshit more than they work when I am busting my ass trying to get things done. Where’s the justice? Why do certain people get away with talking on the phone with friends all damn day? Is it because they’re cute? Fucking ridiculous.
My coworker Danielle gave her notice last week. They’ll probably hire a supermodel to replace her. The new hires get prettier and prettier around here. I feel like saying to my supervisor, “Can you hire someone who’s not 120 lbs???” Jesus Christ.
I think they like that the carpenters always comment about how the women on the 26th floor are so pretty. Yeah great. How about hiring people who know what they are doing?
My coworker turned his TV on yesterday morning and the documentary was on and before the picture came up on the screen he heard my voice. Heh.
So the ceiling in my bedroom is supposed to be fixed on Wednesday. I won’t hold my breath.
It has new cracks in it so they better fix the whole fucking thing not just the gaping hole that’s been there since Memorial Day weekend.
Asses.
If it’s fixed I can finally paint it and rearrange it. YAY!
Am I the only one who finds Eminem sampling Martika’s Toy Soldiers hilarious?
It cracks me up every time I hear it.
My dad is still in Florida. I need to ask him for money damn it.
Work time.
Stace
January 18th 2005
I have a fever again. WTF?
And "Get Right" is on VH1...I was right the first time I heard this song. It sucks ass. Why is Jennifer Lopez singing so high????
The music and the beat are cool and you can dance to it but damn if they play this song on Friday when I go out with my coworkers they need to mute her voice.
OOOOOOOOOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!!
The concept of the video is okay with her playing all of the characters but yikes. Sing lower notes.
I still haven't had soda. It's been over a week.
Stace
January 16th 2005
I got some great news yesterday. I am a grinder and I have to get a guard to wear in my mouth when I go to sleep. Hmmmmm could it be that I am too stressed out!??! That'll be attractive.I'll be drooling all over myself.
Now I have two legitimate medical reasons to ask for less work.
My yearly review is on Thursday. Yippee. Not.
I was watching Celebrity Fit club earlier. They need to stop showing close ups of Biz Markie's asscrack.
Seriously.
Racquel and I had an interesting conversation last night about the male species and why we as females always give them second, third, fourth chances
OH MY GOD KRAZY EYEZ KILLAH IS A PANELIST ON I LOVE THE 90s!
Awesome.
Sorry what was I talking about? Oh yeah men and why we continually let them walk all over us.
I told her I only gave someone a second chance and she looked at me and said, "You'd give him a third chance if you could." And I stared at her and said, "I hate that you know me so well."
Now Ashlee Simpson's "La La" song is in a commercial? Yikes.
Wow did the Jets blow it or what?! They could have won. Idiots. I'm not a Jet fan but I don't like the Steelers.
I'm really mad about my teeth. And it's weird becase the other night as I was falling asleep I noticed that I was clenching my teeth and thought it was odd.
So now my mom, my brother and I will all have mouthguards. It's a heredity thing. We're all tense.
Heh.
Okay I have to go, my friend Wendy is taking the train into Penn station from LI and coming here to see me. Lucky her! I have do some cleaning.
Stace
January 13th 2005
I knew it was coming but I am still bummed, “Showtime announced that the current season of drama series "Queer as Folk" will be its last.
Sniffle.
But at least the L Word will be on two more seasons.
I have to watch my gay themed dramas.
I haven’t written in awhile.
Well I dove head first into working out again and took a Pilates class on Monday night.
Today I can finally breathe without being in pain. Heh.
It was great. My goal is to workout doing cardio at least 3 times a week, taking Pilates once a week and maybe a spinning class also.
I have to get into shape again.
According to the Yankees Jason Giambi will be at Spring Training. Woooo.
He better be. I want to see him.
I’ve been drinking mostly water since Monday. With a couple of cups of coffee thrown in there.
So far so good but its hard because my cousin (roommate) only drinks soda. So there are like 3 bottles of it in our fridge.
My yearly review is next week. Good God. It should be relatively painless. (Cross your fingers)
There was a woman on the train this morning that was leaning so far over to read someone’s newspaper cover that she almost fell off the seat. It was pretty damn funny.
It seems to be kid day here at NBC. And it’s so appropriate that the one with the biggest mouth belongs to the chick with the biggest mouth on our floor.
Heh.
Stace
January 8th 2005
Happy 34th Jason Giambi who I read is getting in shape for the 2005 season a la Rocky Balboa
in Rocky IV when he was in seclusion in Russia to prepare for the fight against Ivan Drago.
Excuse me as I picture this....
Hmmmm nice.
Happy 13th Birthday Daniel Culwell, the kid I babysat for when I was in community college. Wow.
He's a teenager. That is FRIGHTENING.
More frightening is another kid I babysat for is now engaged to my friend Julie's cousin. And he
likes to bust my chops whenever he sees me.
I started babysitting for my neighbors when I was 9. I babysat for kids who were 3 years younger
than me.
I'm thinking of taking out a loan to pay off my credit cards. Yikes.
My credit card isn't as bad as some people I know. My debt is from 3 cards. I know people
who have more than what I owe entirely on one card alone. So I could be in worse shape.
And I paid my store cards off entirely. So that's a good start.
I'll be fine. I'll get my good standing back.
That's my goal for 2005. To be okay financially.
"Oh Sheila" is on the 80s channel right now. Jesus this song came out in 1985. Who the fuck
can 1985 be twenty years ago?
Oh my God.
Am I the only one bummed about Jennifer Aniston and Brad Pitt breaking up?
I'm seriously bummed. I thought maybe they'd be one of the rare Hollywood couples who actually
could make it last.
Oh well.
He wanted kids and she didn't.
Brad I want kids. Heh.
I watched Father of the Bride Part II earlier. And seeing both couples having babies actually
made me cry. I am so far from having a husband and a family it's depressing.
I do want that. I'd like to be a wife and a mother. Sometimes before I'm 50.
I don't want to be an old unhip mom but I am well on my way. Ugh. I'm depressing myself.
Let's switch subjects. I had the mother of all headaches yesterday. My entire head hurt from
the top of my skull down to my neck. I was in agony.
It was horrible. I went to bed last night at 9 and woke up at 8:30 this morning. I guess
I needed to rest.
Okay so this is how 2005 seems to be shaping up for now.
Tampa/Spring Training in March
Vegas in April
L.A. in May
I have three weeks vacation this year. WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.
I'm saving my sick and personal days too.
In total I have 31 days I can take off between sick, personal and vacation days. A month!
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!
I'm only taking two days off for Tampa, same thing for Vegas and I want to go to LA for at least
5-7 days.
"She's the One" is on. Maxine Bahns who plays Edward Burns's love interest and who
was his love interest when he made this movie and "The Brothers McMullen" is a BAD actress.
Must be nice going out with a guy who is a director. Heh.
She's pretty and skinny but man she sucks.
There's one line she delivers so badly that it makes me laugh everytime I watch it.
"You're grown men, you're supposed to be brothers!!"
BWAHAHAHAHA.
Should I watch the Jet game tonight?
We'll see how I feel later.
Woo my friend just called about Tampa and she booked a hotel room at a kick ass rate.
2 out of 3. Now onto air fare.
I am so excited about this.
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
YAY!!! "Return to Me" is on. I love this movie. So is "Four Weddings and Funeral". Damn it.
What a conundrum.
I hate TV sometimes. It's all or nothing. There's always too many good things or
nothing good at all.
Stace
January 7th 2005
People in the Tampa Bay area need to look out because Stacey’s coming. Ha. I am going to Spring Training. I took the days off, we got the tickets to the three games we wanted to go to and they’re on the first base side. Aw hell yeah.
So the water and lettuce diet starts on Tuesday because Stacey needs to look hot for Tampa.
2005 is starting off better than I thought it would.
I started writing my book last night. And I think I can actually finish this one.
Now I just need to meet someone. Yeah right.
My Yankee season ticket payment is due today. I hope my check gets there. It should. I used the fast mail slot.
We have a slot downstairs that is so fast you have to be careful what you send. If you’re sending a check that can’t be cashed right away, don’t use that mail slot. Its supersonic. Heh.
The S is super and the U is for unique….sorry.
I have to get my eyebrows waxed. They look horrific.
A year ago today I was waiting for my friend Wendy to arrive from Atlanta. I remember she came to my office and rearranged my CDs. She also borrowed some of my CDs and I haven’t seen them since…hmmmmmmm.
It was so cold that weekend. We went out that Saturday night for our friend Jana’s birthday and it was like 20 degrees out. Brutal. But like I mentioned the other day it’s always cold when Wendy comes to visit.
That was a fun night. There was a big group of us. I think it was fun. Wait am I remembering correctly? Oh wait it wasn’t that fun for me because I was the only one not drinking and I had an entire beer spilled onto my camel coat. Some things about that night were really good though. Ah memories.
And now they’re shit and not because of anything I did thank you very much.
Ugh I am dwelling on the past again. I have to stop doing that.
Out with the old, in with the new.
If people screwed me over, it’s their loss, not mine.
I have things to look forward to this year.
(I said the same thing last year and look at what happened. Bleh)
Oh my DVD is coming out on March 29th. Heh.
There was an article in the Daily News a couple of weeks ago about Derek Jeter canoodling with some brunette chick at the Waldorf Astoria. Well, her name is Stacy Lynn Sprier and she’s a B movie actress who was once Miss Long Island.
Close Derek, very close. Wrong spelling, right hair color and wrong part of New York. You’re getting warmer.
Should I be disturbed that my future husband is such a manwhore?
Heh.
My show was back on last night and it was so fucking good. So so so so so good.
And then I watched Extreme Makeover because I love that show. It is so sick and twisted.
Next week looks really interesting. I can’t wait to watch it. The woman they’re going to makeover…wow. Scary. But she’s probably married with 3 kids.
I have to do laundry this weekend. Oh how exciting. And clean my room. And clean the TV/Computer room.
I hate that I have nothing to do on weekends.
I don’t get this OC obsession. I don’t think any of the guys are attractive at all and Micsha Barton’s voice annoys me almost as much as Jennifer Lopez’s.
I need to think of a good name for the heroine of my book. I am using a generic boring name right now but I want a good one. I got the name of her romantic interest from a friend/fellow writer. Actually he is a writer; he gets paid to be one. Must be nice.
I don’t get paid yet.
Yes I said yet.
I am very tired today. I slept okay but I still feel run down from my bout with the flu last week.
I cannot believe I am going to Spring Training finally.
I am so excited.
Maybe I’ll meet some cute Minor Leaguers. Heh.
Yeah ok.
Who am I kidding? I won’t meet anyone. I never do.
I’m still holding out hope that I am going to marry someone I already know.
And on that note I’m going to get back to work and be a good employee even though I am treated like a slave.
Stace
January 5th 2005
J to the Lo must be stopped. Her latest song sounds worse than a bunch of cats in a room full of rocking chairs.
To the people who produce her songs: Why on earth do you have her trying to sing high notes? She can’t do it. And it hurts most people’s ears.
Most people meaning someone like me who knows what musical notes are supposed to sound like. Jesus Mary and Joseph.
Bleh.
Get RIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIGHT.
Good lord.
I LOVE Kelly Clarkson’s new song, “Since U Been Gone”. The title is not grammatically correct but who really cares. I relate to the lyrics.
And she can sing.
It’s snowing! Yay!
So Ashlee Simpson got booed off stage last night during that debacle where Oklahoma got it’s ass handed to them on a platter? Are National Championship games supposed to be that lopsided? Goodness.
What a joke.
The General Sales Manager of our Philly station was a member of USC’s 1974-75 championship team so he was a happy camper this morning. He was here on calls. Last time he was here I got to wear his championship ring. It was very cool.
I have to mail out my Yankee ticket payment tomorrow. Yikes. I still cannot believe how much my tickets increased this year. Motherfuckers better win 125 regular season games and sweep every playoff series. I will accept nothing less for the amount of money I am paying.
A warning to everyone in the New York metro area, my friend Wendy is coming up the weekend of the 15th. Be prepared to freeze your asses off that weekend because every year without fail it’s miserably cold when she arrives. It’s actually comical.
Okay back to work I go. Yes it’s 6:17 and I am still here. I am accumulating as much OT as possible.
Stace
January 3rd 2005
I’m thisclose to puking. Someone got engaged over the holidays and everyone in the office is gushing about her ring and how she was proposed to. Puke and puke again. Shut the fuck up. “Oooooohhhhhh that’s sooooooooooo cute.” My lunch is making its way back up.
Bleh
Fuck couples. Fuck em all.
The hottie finally started working today. Some legal issues had to be worked out with his other job. A contract dispute or some shit.
And of course I look like ass today. I didn’t leave my apartment for 3 days and wasn’t in the mood to make myself look nice today so I look really bad.
I didn’t want to get out of bed.
I made Racquel cry yesterday because I must have sounded really bad on the phone.
Happy 2005!!!
Stace
January 1st 2005 12:05am
Thank God that fucking year is over....
Onto bigger and better things.
Stace
December 27th 2004
Having the flu sucks.
That is all.
Stace
December 25th 2004
My Uncle Vincent's wife passed away this morning. Nice Christmas present, eh? Good God. She waited for her sister to show up and then passed away.
It's so sad.
I'm sick with a cough and a sore throat. And that happened because I jinxed myself on Thursday night while I was out for Hell Night and stupidly said, "I never get sick."
So I'm not going to the nursing home to see Grandma because I don't want to get everyone sick.
I think I'll wait to fill you in on what happened Thursday. I'm still trying to figure it out myself.
Anywho, Merry Christmas again.
Hope yours is better than mine so far.
Stace
12:48p
I have a shot of cough medicine that I have been holding for fifteen minutes. I hate cold medicine. Bleh.
Okay it wasn't that bad...I wrapped all of my gifts. I suck at wrapping. Truly.
Stace
December 24th 2004 8:10pm
I started and finished my Christmas shopping in an hour. How good am I?
My breathing issues are back. I should have worn a scarf last night. Oh well. I'll just have to walk around slowly all weekend and not get worked up or I'll get lightheaded and dizzy.
I'm watching "Love Actually" which is one of my favorite movies in recent years. It's theme I guess is how Christmas is the time to tell people how you feel about them. But in Stacey's case it's different. Last night I was bascially told I am not worth anything which is really lovely when you have feelings for the person who made you feel like shit all night. Ya know?
That's the theme of my life. I have feelings for people. They say have feelings for me BUT then say months later, "I never had feelings for you."
I should really just throw myself in front of an oncoming A train and just end it. Why do I even bother?
I have a week left in this miserable fucking year and cannot wait for it to be over.
Stace
December 24th 2004
This Christmas Eve is a lot different than last Christmas Eve. Last year I got no sleep at all the night before. This year I was home by 11:30pm. Last year I reconnected with someone. This year I wanted to smash his face in. What a difference a year makes.
It's amazing what alcohol does to a person. It's sad when someone who can be really nice can turn into a monster when he's had a few beers.
It's also sad when he doesn't realize it.
I have to go out soon. I have to go shopping. Yes. I have to START shopping. I'm one of those procrastinators you always hear about.
Okay I am not motivated at all to go out anywhere and my depression is back in full force, just in time for Christmas! Wooooo!
Merry Christmas to all and to all a good night. Hopefully better than mine.
Stace
December 21st 2004
I am taking a break from work because I am close to killing someone. Oh yes it’s 7:04p and I worked through lunch and I am nowhere near done.
Bleh.
With the way this week is going I will probably be drunk before Chrispy even shows up on Thursday. Heh.
Racquel was telling her boyfriend how funny I am when I get drunk. And I think to guarantee getting drunk I’m doing tequila shots.
Aw yeah, because I just don’t give a shit.
My eyes are blurring from staring at the screen so much.
I’m listening to a really good mix of my music. I am going to have to save this as a play list.
Apparently Jack pissed on my cousin’s bed…oops. I felt really bad when he told me. I guess I should change the litter box. Heh.
I haven’t started my Christmas shopping yet.
Yeah I know.
Okay back to work I go. Yippee. Not.
Stace
December 19th 2004 10:33pm
Yay I just got a message from Chrispy. He wants to go out Thursday night which is perfect because Racquel, Julie and I will be in the city for Racquel's boyfriend's birthday happy hour in Chelsea. Woooo! A night out in the city to be drunk and stupid! And I won't be alone! YIPPEE!
Chrispy is hilarious. He said, "I heard about your knee. I hope you're not having surgery." I wanted to call him back and say, "I sent you an email about it dumbass. That's how you know about it." Heh.
He singing "Just a Gigalo" into the phone.
Hee.
Hearing Chrispy's voice cheered me up immensely.
I cannot wait to see him. We had such a good time out the last time he was home.
Damn it's late I have to get to bed so I can wake up early tomorrow. I brought work home to do this weekend and the damn system wasn't working on my home computer so I got NOTHING done. Bleh.
Stace
December 16th 2004
Okay I didn’t want to tell anyone about it because I didn’t want to jinx it but I have been seeing someone. I always make the mistake of getting excited too soon. And usually things will end after three weeks when the guy suddenly stops calling for no reason.
Anywho…I present, my new man. This was taken on Saturday night when we went out for a nice romantic dinner.
I think it’s love.
Stace
Here's me and my fat ass at the Holiday Party last Thursday night.
Like my bangs?
that's my coworker Birky. That was me after 4 shots. Hee. Can you say drunk?
December 13th 2004
I made an appointment to see an orthopedic doctor FINALLY because I can hardly walk today. Literally.
I’m a mess.
I am sitting here with my leg elevated with an ice pack on it.
My kneecap feels like it’s going to split open every time I put pressure on it or try to bend it.
If it’s really bad tomorrow I’m using my Grandma’s wheelchair.
And I’m pissed because I was going to start working out today. I’ve lost five pounds in the last week and a half because I haven’t been eating as much as I had been lately. Now it’s all fucked up because of my fucking knee. I HATE IT!!!!!
It’s getting worse. Oh my God I think I’m going to cry I’m in so much pain.
Okay let’s switch to good news. I got pretty good tickets for Duran Duran’s MSG show on April 13th. WOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
Next to the stage, Row B. Woooooooo!
Something to make me happy!
I paid $95 for Billy Joel and Elton John and was in the nosebleed seats.
Carl Pavano clap clap clap clap clap.
Hmmmmmmmm I’m going to have to beg someone to get me lunch today. How humiliating.
I really can’t walk.
Getting home tonight should be a lot of fun. I should cab it.
I can’t even bend down to feed the cats without screaming out in pain. Thank God my cousin came back from DR.
Wow could the soap opera in LA get any worse? Now Kobe Bryant is accusing Karl Malone of making a pass at his wife?
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!
Oh once again for those who didn’t hear me the first time. Carl Pavano clap clap clap clap clap.
Red Sox Nation can say, “Oh we never really wanted him.” Pffffffft.
Yeah you did. Hmmmmmmmm would we rather have Pavano a 28 year old about to hit his prime or David Wells a 41 year old with a balky back and a fat ass? To those who said Wells you’re fucking liars.
Wow, I am testy today. Damn knee.
I’m a little pissed about having to take the elevator in my building. I hate that thing. It scares me.
So did I tell you my dad called me for no reason on Saturday afternoon? I think he was bored. Heh.
When I spoke to my mom later in the day she said, “Oh he’s crazy!”
Heh.
I am in such a bad mood and I am going to smack everyone I work with if they give me stupid things to do.
There is a reason why I file things and make labels … so people can FIND THINGS AND FUCKING ATTACH THINGS!!! I don’t do it for my health. I do it so my lazy ass account managers can find their orders. MOTHERFUCKER WHAT THE FUCK?
This is why I hate my job. Well that’s one reason. One of many reasons.
I want to leave right now before I kill someone.
Stace
December 10th 2004
Oh ew I just burped and it tasted like coffee and tequila. I think I’m going to throw up.
Man oh man was I drunk last night! I did three shots of Tequila, 2 shots of SoCo w/lime and some other unidentified shot. I don’t feel that bad today which shocks me. The only time I feel crappy is when I burp. Heh.
“Sexual” by Amber is on right now and it’s cracking me because it reminds me of this chick I worked with at Telerep who wasn’t the sharpest tool in the shed but she loved that song.
Last night was a lot of fun. We danced our asses off. I was so drunk I didn’t give a shit how crazy I got.
I did shots with the waiters. Heh. One of them was like, “You’re the only girl who didn’t refuse the Tequila shot.” And I looked at him and said, “I am a woman.” And winked at him.
Heh.
We all freaked out when “Caught Up” by Usher came on. That was fun. One of my coworkers was like, “I’ve never even heard this song and you know all the words.”
I wanted to say, “Well I’m a loser who has nothing better to do than listen to music on weekends and that’s how I know all of the words.”
My hands are sore from clapping so much last night.
I have to clean the apartment when I get home. The kitties had a paper towel and napkin party when mommy was asleep and mommy was too hung over to clean it up. Those little shits.
“I’m so caught up got me feeling it I don’t know what it is but it seems she’s got me twisted…”
Yeah I can’t work today.
I am useless, well more useless than usual.
It’s a good thing they had the party on a Thursday night so at least we have all weekend to sleep. And I will take advantage of that.
I really can’t function at all today.
And I hate being excluded from things.
Lunchtime! Time for a greasy burger and fries! Aw yeah!
Stace
December 7th 2004
Guess who I am seeing perform on Thursday???
Here are a couple of hints:
Her name is Rio and she dances on the sand.
Meeting you, with a view to a kill.
The Reflex is a lonely child she dances by the park.
Hell fucking yeah I am seeing Duran Duran.
It’s about time something good came along.
Woo.
Stace
December 6th 2004
Well, my morning started off crappy.
I got pissed off when I was walking out of the building and as I opened the door to walk out, these two boys were coming into the building and went through the door as if I were holding it for them. I actually said, "Are you fucking kidding me?"
Then I'm walking to the train station and this weird old man is walking next to me and staring at me. I ignored him.
I sit on the train in a seat by the doors. An asshole gets on at 181st street and he has like 3 bags. One of them bashes me in my already throbbing knee. And is it a soft bag? Nah it's a shopping bag with a box of some sort in it.
Does he apologize? Nah.
Then another asshole gets on 168 Street and stands in front of me, which is fine. When the train pulls out of the stop he stumbles and steps on my foot.
Does he apologize? Nah.
Same asshole steps on the same foot again at 145th Street.
Does he apologize? Nah.
Same motherfucking asshole steps on the same fucking foot as we're pulling into 125th Street.
Does he apologize? Nah.
So as I am getting off the train at 59th Street I called him a bad word in Spanish.
Dickhead.
And then people wonder why I am pissy.
Fucking men.
I am watching and singing along to Chicago.
Yay!
It's a not a good thing when someone else's significant other tells me I have great tits, right?
I mean I know I do.
HA
Jackie is sitting here with me as I type this. My boo boo.
Henry is missing.
Seriously Jack is such a handsome cat. Really.
HA! I am chatting with my ex roommate and her fiancé at the same time and he wants to see a picture of my boobs.
What's this fascination with Beatrice and Bertha all of the sudden?
Wait all of a sudden or all of the sudden?
Whatever.
Oh Jesus I got another request. HAHAHAHAHA.
Wow my girls are very popular tonight.
Who knew? Maybe I should charge a fee.
DAMN IT!!!!! I missed "Billy Crystal: Don't Get Me Started" his stand up movie from the mid 80s. That shit was funny.
I watched Eddie Murphy Raw on Saturday.
"Half Eddie!"
Okay I must go to bed now so I wake up refreshed in the morning. Yeah ok.
Stace
December 5th 2004 6:53a
You must be thinking, wow Stace you're up early for a Sunday morning. I haven't been to bed yet and the sun is coming out.
I wish it were for a better reason then just being up.
Like being out and partying, or not partying but still being out.
Oh well.
I'm alone until Friday. My cousin is on his way to the Dominican Republic right now with his girlfriend.
I like how the New York newspapers are digging up as much dirt on Jason Giambi as they possibly can. He's a binge drinker, he parties too much etc. etc. Um he was like that when he played in Oakland. He's like a big kid. It's not a surprise. They're trying to drag him through the mud even more as if the steroid thing isn't enough to tarnish his reputation. Am I happy that he took steroids? Um no I'm not but I'm not going to suddenly turn on him because he did something foolish that probably 20% of the fucking league is doing. I can't wait for other people to be exposed. Motherfuckers.
And of all people who was supportive? Curt Schilling!!!! Yes. You read correctly.
Is he happy with what Giambi did? No. But now he said the most important thing is that Jason gets healthy. Amen Curtis, Amen.
Some of the people on their high horses are going to get injured really badly when they fall off.
Asswipes.
I am really pissed off.
My team becomes the first team in MLB history to lose a seven game series after having a 3-0 lead. And now my favorite player becomes the poster boy for steroids. What next? Will Derek Jeter be exposed as a pedophile??? (I am saying that for dramatic effect it's not true--at least I hope not) I can't take anymore.
Racquel and I were on the phone earlier (actually yesterday) and I was crying because that's all I'm doing these days it seems. Anywho, we were discussing how ironic it is that at the beginning of the year we were both convinced that this was going to be our year. 2004 was going to be the best year ever. What a crock of shit. Now we both can't wait for the year to be over.
It's funny how things turn out.
I actually cried yesterday 4 times. 2 times for no good reason...2 other times I was just lonely. Pathetic, right?
Well I am also menstrual so that might explain the waterworks.
It told Racquel I was in dire need of a Stacey and Racquel day. Just us, hanging out and laughing.
Thank God for Racquel or I probably would have ... Never mind. Let's not get into that. It's too early in the morning for that.
I have something to look forward to. The company holiday party is on Thursday night. Yay. I can get drunk.
It's very strange. All of my weight gain is in my middle. My ass, my belly and my boobs. My legs and arms are still Ok. Hmmmm. I can't believe how big my boobs have gotten.
My arms are still cut and tight...hmmmmmm.
Since I gained nearly 20 lbs in 2 months, can I lose that much in two months?
The other day I didn't care that was becoming a fat ass but now I am mad about it again. I guess it was because I was bloated, pissy and bleeding. Now I am not as bloated, not as pissy and Aunt Flo is about to leave.
I want to look good again.
I want to go out and have someone tell me I have the most beautiful body they have ever seen. That chick was hilarious. My friend Chris's girlfriend was laughing at me because I was standing there dumbfounded as this chick was grabbing my arms and spreading them open so she could look me over on the dance floor at Fiddlesticks. I did look good that night. Heh. I can admit that right? My hair was still really long, I was wearing the "nice ass" jeans I bought in Vegas and I was wearing a low cut top that showed off my cleavage. Damn it I looked good. I remember there was this really tall guy checking me out but I was too much of a chicken shit to go over to him and I guess he was too much of a chicken shit to come over to me.
I'm glad I got a little chunky because now people can say, "Wow Stace you look so good!" When I lose more than the 20 lbs I gained.
I want to be in the low 140s again.
I'm going to use the bike at the gym so I don't kill my knees.
"It's Tricky" by Run DMC is on the 80s channel.
I downloaded MSN messenger because having Yahoo and AIM isn't enough for me. I need to talk to everyone online.
Heh.
I watched "Frankie and Johnny" earlier. I forgot how much I liked that movie. I keep saying earlier. I mean yesterday, it's just earlier to me because I haven't been to sleep yet.
9:00am
I'm still up. I haven't attempted to sleep yet.
I'll just got to bed at 7 and wake up at 7 tomorrow. No big deal.
Ooooo wait...I am feeling a little tired.
10:03am
False alarm. I'm still up.
I'm still laughing at the people who are shocked about Jason Giambi going to strip clubs and partying. Most athletes do it. I've been to a strip club. Big fucking deal.
The media are the ones making this into such a big deal. The venom that is spewing out of some of these reporters mouths would make you think he were on trial for murder. Jesus. It's actually frightening. I was happy to see some people backing him in the paper. But the reporters need to chill the fuck out with the "he's tarnishing the Yankee pinstripes" shit. Please. And Steve Howe and his numerous drug suspensions didn't? All of the fights in the 70s didn't? The brawl in the 50s in that restaurant? Idiots.
How come no one is concerned with the fact that someone like Giambi who had natural baseball abilities felt he needed to poison his body with all of that shit? How come no one cares that he was sticking needles into his ass and stomach and slipping things under his tongue? How come no one gives a shit that the league was so lenient for so long? Where's the outrage about that?
The MLB loved the inflated home run totals of the last few years. Why do they make such a big deal about the Home Run derby now? Are you going to tell me that people didn't think Jason Giambi was on steroids in 2002? Hello? Shall I post a picture of what he looked like in that Home Run Derby?
The way people are reacting you would have thought that this was a complete surprise that blind sided everyone. Come on. No one could be that stupid.
God you haven't given me one thing I have asked for this year but I figured I'd give it one more try. I want more of these guys exposed. Jason Giambi is certainly not the only guy who was taking steroids. I don't want him to be the only one who takes the fall.
It wouldn't be fair. It's not fair that my favorite player is the only one in trouble. Can you do me this one favor? Please. It's all I got left. Thanks.
I cannot believe I stayed up all night.
Ooooo I can feel my stomach muscles! They're still there just buried.
Okay. Now I think I am going to lie down.
Wait is it lie or lay? I can't fucking remember. I'm too tired.
Stace
December 3rd 2004
And just when I thought things couldn’t get any worse…
So are we to believe that Barry Bonds had no idea he was taking steroids?
Please.
And why are some people acting as if it’s the biggest surprise in the world Jason Giambi took steroids? Is the sky blue? Is water wet? Are most guys on earth fucking idiots? Yes.
Come on.
So I weighed myself earlier and I am 5 lbs less than my previous high from April 2002. Oy.
I’m not going anywhere this month. I’ll go to the company holiday party but besides that if people want to see me they can come to my apartment and visit me. I will be sitting in my brand new black muumuu.
I’m going to be in agony tomorrow. I got a massage today and DAMN he was rough! It was good while it was happening but I know my body and what it’ll do to me tomorrow. Piece of shit.
My knees can really bite me by the way. If it weren’t for them suddenly turning into the knees of an aging MLB catcher I’d be able to workout pain free.
Ugh.
So my cousin is leaving for 5 days to go on vacation in the Dominican Republic with his girlfriend.
I wish I were going somewhere.
It’s 8:07p on a Friday and I am still at work. I was doing work until about 7. I’m not in the mood to go home yet.
My show “life as we know it” came back on last night. I was so excited. Racquel got me into it. I made my cousin watch Extreme Makeover and he couldn’t believe what he was watching.
Heh. The first woman was still not great looking even after the makeover. The second chick looked soooooo much better. Her boyfriend was very cute. Actually, he became her fiancé at the end of the show.
The one good thing about all of the papers trashing Giambi is that the eight million pictures they have of him are all HOT. See? Still shallow. Heh.
But of course I’m pissed off because now that I might really be going to Spring Training, Giambi probably won’t be a Yankee anymore. Asshat.
Damn it! CAN ANYTHING WORK OUT FOR ME?!?!?!
Okay I’m calm now.
Earlier today I was complaining about something and my mom was like, “Be happy. You have your health, you have a job, your family…” Blah blah blah. None it is making me happy. I am miserable. Am I really upset that I am getting heavy again? Not really, because who really cares? No one.
I should have been upset on Wednesday when every single pair of pants I tried to button wouldn’t close or if they did, they cut off the blood flow to the lower half of my body. But was I? Not really because again who really cares?
I never see anyone anymore besides my family.
And why do I have to be the one who has to go places to see people?
I spoke to my dad today also and he asked me if I was going to their house this weekend. I said, “No.” And he says, “Oh. Are you sure?” Um yeah dad I’m sure.
And I love when I have friends coming into the city but there is never a “Hey maybe we can meet up” coming out of their mouths.
I really love Duran Duran’s new CD. Like really really love it.
I have to figure out a fat outfit to wear to the holiday party. It has to be something loose that won’t expose all of my wobbly bits.
Well my legs are still thin so maybe I’ll wear a dress.
Or a tent.
Maybe a garbage bag, preferably black because it’s slimming.
I just read an article on Yankees.com about the Giambi situation and this quote stuck out: "I've played with and against him since 1993, and he's always been a great hitter," the player said. "I can take all the steroids I want to and become a 250-pound giant, and I could never be the hitter that Jason Giambi is."
Now that really pisses me off. It’s not like he couldn’t hit, why did he feel like he needed to do that shit? Dumbass.
Motherfucker what the fuck? I have like 3 people doing that now. Heh.
One of my coworkers gave me two copies of Shape magazine. Is she trying to tell me something? Heh.
Nah she didn’t even realize I gained so much weight until I told her. 16 lbs in 2 months is a lot.
I told another one of my coworkers how much I weight I gained because he said I still look great, yeah ok. And when I told him he said, “My right leg weighs that much.” Ass.
Stace
December 1st 2004
Thank you God. I appreciate you letting Aunt Flo visit on time. Now she will be gone before the company holiday party! Woooo!
Hey Lindsey Lohan, shut the fuck up and stop whining. You chose to become a celebrity. Waaaaaaa people talk about me waaaaaaaa. Waaaaaa people follow me waaaaaaaa.
We’re supposed to shoot the Christmas commercial tomorrow. I don’t know if I want to. I’m feeling fat, ugly and gross. We’ll see how I feel tomorrow morning.
My supervisor was like, “They don’t show your body!” And I said, “Everyone will see my extra chin.” I’m a DC now. I’m not a QC, yet. I’m on my way though.
I am becoming Bridget Jones…I should start smoking.
Good news. I paid off three store credit cards and will be cutting them.
Shit! How did it become 6:30! I have to get home. We got cable installed in the living room. That room has never had a TV.
Stace
November 29th 2004
Here’s the question of the day and it’s directed toward my Long Island relatives, friends and enemies who read the site: Do you say, “I live on Long Island” or “I live in Long Island?”
My friend Wendy said, “I don’t live in the island” but then again I don’t live on Manhattan and that’s an island. I say, “I live in Manhattan.”
Sorry it’s just one of those stupid random thoughts I get. See what happens when I’m bored??
Good lord.
My thoughts are with Dick Ebersol (my elevator buddy) and his family after yesterday's tragedy. It's so sad.
Okay I’m going home now.
Stace
November 26th 2004
My grandma is dying. I don't think she is going to make it to Christmas. I'm really upset. I nearly broke down when I saw what she looked like at the nursing home today. She was fine a month and a half ago. She could get into and out of her bed, she'd go downstairs in her wheelchair to eat, now she can hardly move or talk. Her mental facilities are there but her body is failing her and it's so hard to see that. My mom asked her if she wanted to get into her bed and she whispered, "I'll do it." And she couldn't even move. She didn't even have the strength to hold her arms around my mom's neck as she lifted her out of the wheelchair. She can't even pick up her phone.
I have to prepare myself for the inevitable but it's going to be tough. She's my last living Grandparent. And it would be fitting for her to die at the end of this sucky year. Let's make 2004 really bad God. Why not?
She is 96, she's lived a long life but it's still hard to imagine it happening. I'm going to be a mess and I really hate that I have no one to be with right now. My cousins all have a significant other and I don't. They have someone to lean on and I don't. My mom will be too much of a mess (obviously) because it's her mother and she's been taking care of her the past couple of years she's been in the nursing home.
And it was sad today because I caught her staring at me a couple of times as if she was trying to get one last long look at me. I really don't know what I'm going to do or how I am going to react. And I hope the idiots at work won't be complete pricks and not let me take days off for the funeral if it happens before January 1st.
I don't know if I can handle saying goodbye to her. She's been such a big part of my life for so long.
I have to stop writing because I am tearing and snotting all over myself and it's not very pretty.
Stace
November 20th 2004
Oh my God I weighed poor Jack earlier today and he's 25 lbs!!!!! The poor boo. I have to get him on an exercise regimen.
We both have to lose about 10 lbs.
Aw I'm depressed now. I just listened to "I'll Never Get Over You (Getting Over Me)" by Expose. It was just on the 90s channel. And no I'm not depressed for the reason you think. It reminds me of a time when my friends and I were going to see a band play in Jersey and that song came on. The three of us belted it out in three part harmony. It was very funny. I'm depressed because one of those friends passed away earlier this year and the other one has disappeared off the face of the earth.
Sad.
I still can't believe she's dead. How is that possible? How can one of my friends be dead? And she didn't die from an illness. She was sick four days and then just died. What the hell is that all about?
I'm feeling really depressed lately. I am seeing my therapist on Monday and I am going to tell her that I think I need to see my psychiatrist again so I can get some meds.
I can't believe I think I need meds. What the hell happened to me?
My moods swings are badly lately and I feel a bit out of control. I can't believe I am admitting this right now.
I'm feeling fat and ugly. I don't want to go out anywhere. I hate getting up and going to work. Bleh.
I think I need to start working out again and pray to God that my knee gets better.
I feel like I am wasting my life away. I'm worrying about things that probably won't happen. I'm thinking about things I can't change. It's really frustrating.
2004 needs to end right now. I can't take it.
Everything I asked for...I was denied so yeah this miserable year needs to fucking end.
My mom is retarded. I just IMed her and she doesn't know how to IM me back. So I emailed her from my Yahoo address telling her to write back. Ha.
Now that I am on the cable modem again I don't go onto the Internet through AOL anymore. I use Internet Explorer.
Okay this song will cheer me up. "It's a Love Thing" by the Whispers. Reminds me of my first job out of college (even though it came out in 1981). It came on one day and my coworker and I were singing it.
I know it's silly I remember these things.
Today was the perfect day for me to clean my room. Yeah ok. I will wait for Hurricane Diane's arrival tomorrow and she'll help me.
"Thank God It's Friday" just came on the Showcase channel. It's the Classic Disco showcase.
Damn it I forgot to sneak down to see U2.
Oh well. Hopefully my ass can stay up to watch SNL.
What is this shit? "La La" by Ashlee Simpson. She's screaming in the chorus. Literally. "You make me wanna la la in the kitchen on the floor."
The screaming is not good. This song would be good if she wasn't screaming. How would she sing this concert?
Oh wait she doesn't sing in concert. Heh.
I've surprisingly not lost the muscle tone in my arms even though I've gained weight. Hmmmm.
Okay the water and lettuce diet begins on Monday.
I want to look good by the end of December.
Oh how could I not mention this...that brawl last night in Detroit? Holy shit balls. Motherfucker what the fuck??! What is wrong with people?
What makes people think they have a right to throw stuff at players?
I got my cousin saying Motherfucker what the fuck? And whenever I do it to Racquel she laughs.
Are you my caucasian?
Stace
November 18th 2004 7:21p
I think Krazy Eyez Killah is about to come on HBO Comedy.
Motherfucker what the fuck?!
Stace
November 18th 2004
Happy 28th Birthday to Mel who you have seen in the Vegas pictures. Hope it’s a good one chicky.
Happy 30th Birthday to my high school/early college best friend Roda. I have no idea where she is but I hope she has a good birthday.
I had one of those dreams yesterday morning right before I woke up that seemed so real that I woke up pissed off at the person. Heh. It’s a good thing I never talk to him anymore.
So I gave in last night and let Jack sleep with me because hearing him crying outside my door was breaking my heart. Yeah big mistake, huge. Sleeping with Jack is like sleeping with a restless, snoring fat guy. Christ.
No amount of crying is going to make me let him sleep with me again. I need my sleep. He kept stepping my hair which hurt like a mofo and anytime I turned over he had to be near my face so he’d walk over me every time.
I am eating Sweet Corn Chowder from Hale and Hearty and it is soooooo good.
Yummy.
I discovered a new way to tell if a guy is gay or not…see if he has a pink Ipod or mini Ipod. Because no straight man I know would carry anything pink.
I was checking out this cute guy on the train the other day and I saw the white headphone wires and thought, “Oh he has an Ipod.” Then my eyes traveled down to his lap where he had a pink Ipod in his hands. Oy.
Our Christmas party is going to be on December 9th, we don’t know the location yet.
We’re also shooting the Christmas commercial on December 1st around 9:00am so if you want to see a bunch of my coworkers and me making asses out of ourselves singing “Jingle Bells” we’ll be underneath the tree near the ice rink.
I hate when people catch me off guard and I make a stupid face at them. Bleh.
Stace
November 16th 2004
Wow “Gigli” is reali bad. I cannot believe how bad it is.
I watched some of it last night and just couldn’t believe how something like that could not only be made but released? Jesus. It’s called straight to the .99 bin at Blockbuster.
And the love scene? I’d have better chemistry with Richard Simmons than those two had with each other.
There’s a part where Lopez is doing yoga and delivering a monologue about why she prefers women to men. (Her character is a big lesbian is turned straight by Assfleck later in the movie because lesbians cannot resist Ben Assfleck). And I think it’s supposed to be seductive but it was just silly
Her lesbian girlfriend is so distraught about being dumped by J Lo that she slits her wrists. What the hell?!
It’s a train wreck and makes “Glitter” look like an Oscar winner. And Assfleck? Nice accent loser.
Good God.
My cousin and I got free movie channels because Time Warner keeps screwing up the cable modem. Something’s always wrong with it. So we have Starz, Encore and The Movie Channel.
I really missed Desperate Housewives this week. Julie, my mom and Racquel all watch it. Heh.
It’s just so campy. It’s awesome.
So I’ve slept in my room the past two nights because I have a new lock on my door and the cats can’t get in. I feel bad though when I hear poor Jack wailing. He also tries to head butt the door open. Hee.
I wake up everyday at 6 without the aid of an alarm clock. I don’t know if that’s a good thing.
Aw shit there are reports that Pedro Martinez is meeting with George Steinbrenner today. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!
On that note it’s time for work.
Stace
November 9th 2004
Happy 30th Birthday Tim! The guy I loved in college who didn’t love me back. (Story of my life)
Hope it’s a good one but not too good, you asshole. Heh.
So I am sitting here at work typing away on my brand spanking new computer complete with a 19” flat screen monitor!
It’s so big!
My eyes still aren’t used to it yet.
I am still here at 6:30p because I am going to a comedy club tonight on the Upper West Side and I know me…if I go home with intentions of heading back downtown, it isn’t happening. The second I walk into my apartment I’ll want to stay there.
Speaking of my apartment the shag rug is gone. It was very weird walking into an apartment with wood floors. They’re in pretty good shape. I should have gotten it done two years ago when I first moved in. Oh well. It’s done.
The cats were completely confused. Heh.
The wood floors make the apartment look so much nicer. And bigger.
The one downside is that everything is loud now without the rug being a buffer. So I can hear my neighbors fighting downstairs.
I hope this comedy club sojourn is a fun one.
It’s actually auditions for a new show on PAX. Should be interesting.
They offer classes at this place to learn how to be a stand up comedian. Hmmmmmmmm. Kidding.
I feel like I am getting sick. NO!!!!!! Damn it.
I have no more days left, sick, personal, vacation all gone! I cannot wait for January 1st.
Yeah I am feeling sick. Crap.
My new show addiction: Desperate Housewives. Damn it. I didn’t want to give in.
Stace
November 6th 2004
I'm broke. I have $12 to last me until Friday. I hate when people don't cash my checks on time. Damn it.
Well I'm not totally broke. I counted up all of my change and I have nearly $165. I just have to find one of those Coinstar machines. Or just pay for everything in change this week. Heh.
I am listening to Duran Duran's new CD. I love it. I like pretty much every song on it. I like that a few of the songs are political.
I'm going to miss the shaggy green rug in my hallway. She's going to be ripped up on Monday. That thing has been in this apartment since 1969.
We're not doing the living room yet.
I think I want more bangs. The wisps are not behaving right but I think if I had more of them I could tame them better. Does that make sense?
I have a question. Why is Tara Reid famous? What does she do besides party hop? Does she even make movies anymore?
I'm going to annoy my neighbors by playing this CD over and over and singing at the top of my lungs.
Hee.
I was supposed to go home for a dentist appointment but I wasn't in the mood to go. So I cancelled and rescheduled for January.
Plus I'm going home next weekend and I think the weekend after that. I can't go home that many times. Oh god and then Thanksgiving after that. I wish I had a big family gathering to go to Thanksgiving. It's just going to be me, my mom, my dad and my brother if he's not working. That's going to suck.
It's cold in here today.
I love Leah Remini. I am watching the InsideOut special about her daughter's birth. She's hilarious.
I just found the original email from the HBO producer who asked me to be in the documentary. Aw.
One good thing that happened in 2004.
Jack is being so cute right now. My boo. He's laying on the table right now.
"There is nothing better than being with you and I'm feeling so nice. There is nowhere better than here with you and it's feeling so nice."
I love this song. it's very dancey.
"Did I already say? Cuz you make me forget. I might as well be brave and tell ya. Now it hurts me to think you might never know. Will it hurt as much as being true, I might as well be brave and tell ya"
Aw boo boo Jack is sitting right in front the keyboard.
"Can you, can you taste the summer? I do. I find it in your mouth, now, if I have the weakness it's for sweetness and it's floating on your breath as sweet as melody."
I didn't like this song as much when I first bought the CD but now I like it a lot.
"Doo doo doo doobeedoo doo doo doo doo doo doo can you taste the summer?"
I think I need a nap.
Stace
PS I thought I lost Henry but I accidentally locked him in a closet. Aw. The poor boo.
November 5th 2004
Could Stacey be more excited right now?!?! VH1 Classic is showing "Arena". WOOOOOOOOOOOOO! Duran Duran circa 1984. YEEHAW!!! I am so going to have an orgasm. Just from watching. Is that bad?
Nah.
Oh and they FINALLY hired a hot guy. They were bringing him around the office today. Every woman in the office was freaking out. Heh.
Eye candy! Fresh meat! Woo!
He's tall, he has long floppy hair and he is HOT.
I'm going to have to dress up on Monday. HA
"Please Please tell me now!"
Oh my God I LOVE Simon's mullet. Seriously, Duran Duran's mullets didn't bother me at all.
Yeah we're two minutes into this and I can't take it. Holy shit. It's a good thing I didn't go to see Duran Duran in concert when I was 10. I would have fainted. I'm 30 years old and freaking out in my apartment. Then again my hormones are totally out of whack.
Wow John looks hot.
Dear Lord.
Yeah John looks REALLY fucking good.
Aw man one of the sexiest things on earth is Simon LeBon on a stage with blue lights pouring down on him while he's singing "Save A Prayer". In 1984. Heh.
I LOVE when he smirks like that. GOOD GOD. I was less than two feet from him and I didn't say a word!!!!! DAMN IT! I'll never have that chance again. Boo.
OH MY GOD!!!!! WILD BOYS!!!!! I LOVE THIS FUCKING VIDEO. Simon LeBon wet, scruffy and wearing leather. Can it get any better than that!? NO IT CANNOT.
Wild boys never lose it wild boys never chose this way wild boys never close your eyes wild boys always....(boom) SHINE
Christ he looks hot in this video.
I need "Greatest" on DVD. There's a Christmas idea for people....
Yummy.
Ba ba ba ba ba ba ba ba this is planet earth.
Damn that was good.
DAMN.
Good news from the Yankees for a change. Joe Girardi is most likely going to be the new bench coach! WOO!
Hopefully he'll stop Joe Torre from pulling starters in the 7th inning when they're pitching a complete game shutout.
Let's switch gears. I got into it on the Yankee message board in the Politics section. I got pissed off by the people against gay marriage.
This is what I wrote in response to someone who said they were afraid that if gay marriage were to become legal his children would choose to be gay (Yeah I know bare with me)
My cousin who is 7 years older than me is a lesbian and I knew from the time we were young that she different than the other girls...and my mom had gay friends and I was exposed to gay people at a very young age and guess what? I didn't question anything I just accepted things. And another guess what? I didn't grow up to be a sexual deviant because I was exposed to gay people at a young age.
Kids are a lot smarter and they are not as influenced by others behavior if you're doing your job as a parent.
Maybe if people would accept that gay people exist and that it's a way of life then you wouldn't have to be worried about your kids. It would be something they know about. And something that they accept. I'm not saying they have to like it but at least be tolerant of it.
People don't choose to be gay. Would you choose to be discriminated against? Would you choose to be looked at the way they are? People are born gay and straight people have to accept it. And I hate to burst people's bubbles but God made them the way they are.
Just because the bible says it's not right doesn't mean God thinks it's not right.
I have a friend who decided to come out of the closet after she was married with two kids because she was sick and tired of keeping her true self inside. She wanted live her life and not live a lie. And she's happier than she's ever been.
Wow I am really babbling on this one.
I'm Christian, I'm straight, I believe in God and I believe that gay people should have the same rights as everyone else.
Whatever people do in their bedroom is their business.
People will become gay if homosexuals are allowed to get married?! MOTHERFUCKER WHAT THE FUCK? What is wrong with people?!
Why is our country going backwards?
I had a guy from Amsterdam ask me: how a country built by people who were persecuted for their religious orientations, and who wrote a Constitution to prevent such things from happening again, how has such a country grown to use the very same Constitution to justify extreme religious agendas?
Good question.
I've said this before. We have more to worry about in this country than whether or not gay people should be allowed to get married.
It's truly frightening how backward our country is becoming.
The rest of world is laughing at us. Nice right?
Switching gears again.
I bought a new flat iron. I'm going to try this straight hair thing.
We'll see how I do. Heh.
I'm 30 years old for crissakes. I should start making some sort of an effort to look okay, right?
I'm always complaining I can't get a boyfriend. Maybe if I dressed as nice as my girlie coworkers I would get noticed by the opposite sex.
Is it safe to turn ESPN on? Have they stop performing fallectio on the Red Sox players?
Jesus.
Can VH1 show something besides "100 Greatest Red Carpet Moments"?
Good lord.
On that note I'm going to bed to dream about Simon LeBon and his 1984 mullet resting between my legs.
Ta!
Stace
November 4th 2004 10:10pm
My cousin's girlfriend cleaned the kitchen and the bathroom. I have never seen that bathroom that clean ever, even when my grandma still lived here! I almost fainted when I saw it.
Heh.
Stace
November 3rd 2004 8:56pm
Wooo! Stacey has a few reasons to celebrate.
1) I am getting a cable modem again. THANK GOD! Dial up sucks! And now I can talk on the phone while I'm on the computer.
2) I am getting a brand new computer at work tonight. We're supposed to get a flat screen monitor too. Wooo!
That's good for two reasons. It looks cool and modern and we'll have more room on our desks.
3) My grandma is improving every day! Did I mention that she wasn't doing well? I can't remember.
4) I found my straightening iron so now I can tame my new bangs every morning.
5) I'm being taken out to lunch tomorrow.
6) Okay I can't think of anything else.
6a) Oh yeah! My writers block has ended. I can do my work for my TV writing class. I wrote some stuff on the way up to Rockland last night.
7) Most of my playoff zits have gone away. Thank goodness.
8) My cousin put an eyehook on my bedroom door so I can lock the boys out. Er, the cats not actual boys. Boys don't come to my apartment....
I really miss Sex and the City.
Oooo is the heat finally turning on.
I think.
God I love the 80s channel. "Should've Known Better" by Richard Marx is on.
"Should've known better, than to fall in love with you. Now love is just a faded memory. Should've known better now I'm a prisoner to this pain and my heart still aches for you."
Oy.
That's it I'm buying his Greatest hits tomorrow.
"I gave you all of my body and soul, never believed that we might lose control, I took my hands off the wheeeeeeeel."
Damn this song is good.
My cousin had his friend helping him moving some of the shit out of this apartment and his friend say Jack and said, "Jesus Christ look at the size of the cat!!"
HAHAHAHAHA
Poor Jackie.
Henry is attacking my feet right now.
I have to go up to Rockland again this weekend. I have a dentist appointment.
They're going to yell at me because I still haven't gotten my wisdom teeth out. I can't take anymore days off this year. I have to wait until 2005. for my teeth and to get my knee checked out. It's gotten a lot worse and I am fearing the worst (surgery) Bleh. I hope not. I wanted 2005 to be good. Two surgeries is not what I had in mine. I was thinking maybe meeting a man and having him fall madly in love with me. Or maybe winning the lottery.
I have a better chance winning the lottery then meeting a guy at this point.
Oh how funny is this? We got an invitation for a neighbor's 40th wedding anniversary/60th birthday party. But for the 60th birthday it says it's the 39th anniversary of her 21st birthday. HA! Everytime we asked her how old she was she'd say 21. I found that to be really funny. This is the same family that the wedding a couple of weeks ago so it should be a fun party.
Crap do I have to get another outfit?!
No. I have stuff to wear. I think.
GODDAMN IT!!!!!!!!! BIZ MARKIE IS ON THE FUCKING SHOWCASE CHANNEL. At least I missed the "Come on" this time and I am too fucking crampy to laugh. MOTHERFUCKING COCK SUCKING ASSHOLE.
Wow I feel better.
Oh yes God did answer my one prayer. After 8 days of waiting Aunt Flo arrived.
"Could you tell me where is door 3?"
Nice grammar.
I think I am getting Gwen Stefani's CD. I like the first single. It's weird. Heh.
Especially because she says, "Take a chance you stupid ho" in it.
And her bags kick ass. I have two of them.
CD recommendation: "Simple Things" by Zero 7. I know I've said it before but I must say it again. I'm getting their latest one too. They're so good.
NO WAY!!!!!!!!!!!!! "Just the Way It Is Baby" by The Rembrandts is on the 90s channel!!! I LOVED this song. Reminds of the summer of 1990.
I literally gasped when I heard the first note. Heh. I scared Henry.
These are the things that get me excited these days.
Pathetic.
Aw Henry is sitting the doorway of the room like he's guarding it or something. Heh. My boo boo.
Time for bed.
Stace
November 3rd 2004
I’m moving to Canada. Does anyone want to join me?
What an embarrassment. People are just dumb. And we are going to get what we deserve.
At least I can hold my head up and say I’m from New York and we voted the right way.
I didn’t think I’d be this upset about the election results because I knew in my gut what was going to happen and with the way the last few weeks have gone for me I shouldn’t be surprised by anything anymore. But man I am pissed off. I’m just really angry.
So Toronto or Vancouver? Where would you go?
The mighty nation of America is an embarrassment. And to the 11 states who voted against gay marriage/civil unions, you’re all idiots.
I know gay couples that have been together DECADES and their relationships are stronger than any straight marriage I’ve seen. The sanctity of marriage my ass. We have bigger concerns in this country than whether or not John and Tom get married. Please.
How about all of the kids in Iraq who are dying because of a lie? Why aren’t people concerned about that? Why aren’t people concerned about the fact that Osama Bin Laden is still alive and still taping messages mocking us? Why aren’t people concerned about the deficit? Why aren’t people concerned about the fact that our President is a complete moron?
I just don’t understand. Someone please explain it to me.
I was 2 for 2 in Presidential elections now I’m 2 for 4. Damn it.
2004 cannot be over soon enough for me. This year SUCKS!!! And it started off pretty damn well and then it took a nosedive around the middle of February, then it recovered at the end of March and slowly started climbing back up…I had a period of normalcy for awhile and in mid September it was at a pretty high altitude and then October comes along and BOOM. Like a car speeding down the first hill of a roller coaster it went flying off the track into a dark abyss…and has not recovered.
I guess I can just hope for an okay rest of November and an uneventful December.
Here’s to 2005. Please be better.
Oh and another thing, no one should be able to tell me what I can do with my uterus. As much as I hate it at this moment I should have the right to decide whether or not to have or not have a baby.
Wow I am such a liberal. Who knew?
A Deejay on 92.3 K Rock was singing, “The sun will come out in 4 years….” HA
Okay so my friend in Minnesota wants to move to Canada too!
Congratulations to Derek Jeter for winning the first Gold Glove of his career.
Bret Michaels of Poison fame is now a country singer? Hee.
I think I am more bummed today then I was the day after the Yankees lost because this is our life. We are FUCKED.
Stace