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Title: A Moment That Lives On
Author: Poet
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Rimmer returns from being Ace, but it's not *that* kinda fic. Rimmer's POV.
A bit of that Lister/Rimmer angst thang. As for ownership... I've decided. That Grant Naylor creature doesn't know how to treat my boys right, so I'm just moving in and taking over.
Notes: I've only seen series 5, 6, and 7 and just a handful of the rest of the eps, so grade on a curve. This takes place post-"Stoke Me a Clipper" and pre-"Epideme." The title, inspiration, and a bit of random dialogue came from a Diamond Rio (::gasp:: country!) song called "You're Gone."
Warnings: Rated PG. There's sap, there's guy-luvin', there's extraneous commas. If you don't think you can handle any of that (I know those commas can really get to people), now is the time to get.
Dedicated to Pardy, who wanted a Brett Riverboat/Riviera "Keed" fic, but I'm not sure I could do the CatSlash thing just yet. :o) Also dedicated to Dervie, cuz I made her cry. ::hands Dervs a box of tissue:: Sorry babe! (09/18/01)
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A
Moment That Lives On
by Poet
~*~
I walk in and crouch next to his bunk. *My* bunk. He's still sleeping in my bunk, the one we shared. I just sit there and watch his chest rise and fall. His snoring's lessened; must've had Kryten have his adenoids out. Probably did it the day I left. I chuckle silently, causing my shiny jumpsuit to catch the glare from the lights outside. A faint glow is cast across his face; or maybe that's just him.
I move to stand and walk out, but his soft, sleepy voice freezes me in place. "You're going to leave without saying anything." It wasn't a question or even an accusation.
"Listy." I smile down at him. "I didn't want to wake you."
"Smeg."
~*~
"I think I'm broken." It was a joke. He meant it as a joke.
He just wasn't expecting Lister to agree.
"I know." And Lister took him into his arms, soothing an ache Rimmer hadn't even known was there. He wept loud and long, soaking the smaller man's shirt with hologrammatic tears.
They made love, soft and slow and lingering. Rimmer had never imagined it could be like that; Lister had, he just never thought he'd get to experience it.
~*~
"You're here, but your mind's not. Where are you?" He'd caught me.
"I was remembering the first time we..."
He takes a breath. "Made love?"
"Yeah. I was thanking God that He let you lay beside me."
"You don't believe in God."
"I believe in you," I whisper. "You found hope in hopeless. You made crazy sane."
"Rimmer you weren't that ba--" I move to press my finger to his mouth in an attempt to quiet his protestations, but I can't trust myself to touch him. It has the same effect though, and he breaks off.
I look at him and half-smile. "The good news is I'm better for the time we spent together."
I can hear his voice crack as he begins to speak. "But the bad news is you're gone." He swallows a sob, and it's all I can do to keep from going to him, keep from kissing the unshed tears away.
"I have to go now."
"I know."
"I still love you."
"I know."
As I leave I don't glance back. I can hear him quietly weeping, and I know if I looked at him, I wouldn't be able to stop myself. I wouldn't have the strength to leave.
~*~
He woke up and felt for the other man, but his hands only came up with empty sheets. "Listy?"
"I'm here." Through the haze of sleep he could see a coffee-colored body climbing in next to his own.
He wrapped his arms around the younger man and sighed. "Mmm... Where'd you go?"
His lover turned into his embrace. "Had to take a leak. Did I wake you?"
"Hmm. No. I had a dream."
"Wanna tell me about it? Might make you feel better."
"No, I'm fine now," he said, yawning. He squeezed his lover tightly and began drifting back to sleep even as he felt the light kiss pressed to his brow.
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I said hello I
think I'm broken
And though I was only jokin'
It took me by surprise when you agreed
I was tryin' to be clever
For the life of me I never
Would have guessed how far the simple truth would lead
You knew all my lines
You knew all my tricks
You knew how to heal that pain
No medicine can fix
And I bless the
day I met you
And I thank God that He let you
Lay beside me for a moment that lives on
And the good news is I'm better
For the time we spent together
And the bad news is you're gone
Lookin' back it's
still surprisin'
I was sinking you were rising
With a look you caught me in mid-air
Now I know God has His reasons
But sometimes it's hard to see them
When I awake and find that you're not there
You found hope in hopeless
Your made crazy sane
You became the missing link
That helped me break my chains
And I bless the
day I met you
And I thank God that He let you
Lay beside me for a moment that lives on
And the good news is I'm better
For the time we spent together
And the bad news is you're gone
The bad news is you're gone
"You're Gone"
Diamond Rio
~*~
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:)