2.25.01 -
i thought of you that night,
but i didn't say a word
everything you told me
had finally sunken in

and it wasn't that i didn't care
it wasn't your insistance
it was only your words
they were slowly sinking in to me

i layed there for a while
you thought i was asleep
you know i'm never before you
but then you never cared

how many times had you told me before
will i ever remember the things you did

i feel like we've been through this before
maybe in your life you lived it
but i never felt aware of your intention
and it was all around me

breathing like a lamb
so soft and gentle
it just barely tickled my ear
but not tonight

tonight i am engulfed in it
and it's difficult to breathe

and i would have slept in that church
had you not pretended to care

you being behind and inside me that night
when the explosion scared tears from me
i just wanted to make it stop
you just wanted to make me stop

and i didn't cry when you left
i laughed in the mirror
and pretended i was a lie
but you wouldn't have noticed

and i've been waiting all this time
for this night, for these words
and when i woke up
none of it was worth it