How Do You Fall In Love?
by Bryn
Status: complete
Category: Sam and Jack
Rating: PG
Spoilers: 100 days, COTG, i think that's all
Summary: Sam and Jack looking back at how it all started...
Disclaimer: All publicly recognisable characters and places
are the property of MGM, World Gekko Corp and Double Secret
Productions. This piece of fan fiction was created for
entertainment not monetary purposes and no infringement on
copyrights or trademarks was intended. Previously
unrecognised characters and places, and this story, are
copyrighted to the author. Any similarity to real persons,
living or dead, is coincidental and not intended by the
author.
Authors Notes: Thanks so much to Becca and Flo!!! You guys are the best!!
I wouldn't have done this without you!
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Sam’s POV:
So I guess you could say it started slowly. All right, most people would say
*very* slowly. In my opinion though, love is one of those things best not
rushed into. Besides that, for quite a long time these feelings were
considered a court-martialable offence – *not* a big incentive.
Despite what Daniel thinks, it *didn’t* start at the very beginning either.
Sure that day way back when, when I first walked into the briefing room at
SGC and met our infamous Colonel O’Neill, there was an attraction. I mean he
is one hell of a good-looking man and I’m not blind. But at the time I was
very professional and falling for my commanding officer was the farthest
thing from my mind. He pretty much felt the same way; hell he didn’t even
like me at first! I had to grow on him I guess. So yes, the attraction was
there and of course the obligatory flirting soon came as well, I think it’s
just one of those reflex things. But it actually took a year or two for the
love to start, and as I said before, it came slowly. At the time I was
oblivious. I was focusing on my work, my family, my friends, but now that I
look back I see how obvious it was and how inevitable. How could I work next
to such a man, such a strong, loyal, trust-worthy, intelligent (in his own
way), determined man for so long and *not* fall in love with him?
I guess I first became aware of my feelings when he was stranded on Edora. I
worked day and night for three months to get him back. I didn’t quite
understand why at the time, I just knew that my life wasn’t the same without
him, wasn’t right without him in it. I knew nothing could ever come of these
feelings so I pushed them aside. What else could I do? Seeing him with Laira
tore me apart at first, but I understood. Just because I had feelings for
him didn’t mean he couldn’t have a life. We weren’t together, we *couldn’t*
be together – it was hopeless. He had every right to try to find happiness.
Besides the fact, at the time I don’t think he was aware of his feelings for
me, or at least the solider in him wouldn’t let him be aware of them. So it
went for another couple of years, admiring from a safe distance. The two of
us loving each other subtly at first then with greater and greater power,
until neither of us could deny it, but still there was nothing we could do.
Nothing was said and nothing was ever done. I don’t think we were even
consciously aware of how the other felt.
Then the day came when General Hammond decided to retire. He said he
couldn’t watch us save the world forever. We’d given him one to many frights
over the years and his heart couldn’t take it anymore. It was hard letting
him go. He had grown on us and we all loved him dearly, even Teal’c, and we
knew the SGC would never be the same without him. But with heartfelt
promises of keeping in touch, we said good-bye. Just before his final
departure, General Hammond called the colonel and I into his office and
*that* was when it truly got started.
“I just wanted the two of you to know that as my last act as General and
Base Commander I spoke to the President about a …personal concern of mine.”
The General handed Colonel O’Neill a folder, which he opened to read the
document inside. His chin actually dropped. For once in his life Colonel
Jack O’Neill was at a complete loss for words. He looked dumbfounded. The
General just smiled and I was very confused.
“What is it, sir?” I asked in general, not knowing or caring who would
answer. The Colonel looked questioningly at General Hammond, who just
grinned all the wider and nodded his head. Still looking baffled Colonel
O’Neill finally answered.
“It’s authorization for a breach regulation to permit a marriage between the
new SGC General and his 2IC.” Now it was my turn to be dumbfounded. The
announcement had been made yesterday that Colonel O’Neill would be promoted
and replacing General Hammond, while I would be given command of SG-1 and
placed as second in command of the Base. All I could do was stare. That was
pretty much all the colonel-soon-to-be-general could do as well.
“I expect to be part of the wedding,” Hammond said with a pat on Jack’s back
before leaving.
Then there was silence. I think we literally heard a pin drop.
Finally Jack turned to look at me: “I guess I wasn’t as good at hiding my
feelings as I thought.”
“I was going to say the same thing, General,” I replied.
And that, as they say, was that.
Jack’s POV:
Sam may be an Airforce Major and one of the best soldiers I’ve ever served
with, but she’s a hopeless romantic. That was, most definitely, not *that*.
There had been so many barriers, so many obstacles that had stood in the
way of Sam and I being together that standing there in that office staring
at her, I found it difficult to think or to even move.
Sure I loved her, I realised that when I had finally admitted that I’d lay
down my life just to see her smile. A heart used to rejection though doesn’t
quite know what to do when suddenly faced with requited love.
For me I guess it started that very first day in the briefing room when she
looked me straight in the eye, faced down all my crap and challenged me to
arm wrestle. Now that took *guts*. She was right too, once I got to know her
I *did* like her. I couldn’t help it. I couldn’t help that my feelings for
her grew beyond like either. How could anyone not fall in love with such a
wonderful woman? She’s the strongest, smartest, most courageous person I’ve
ever met.
Look at what she’s had to deal with over the years: Goa’uld, Jolinar,
Maybourne, saving the world, saving me. She’s done that more than I’d care
to admit…saving my hide I mean. Not only does she put up with me but she’s
repeatedly put herself on the line for me. For some reason beyond my
comprehension, she cares about me. I’m not sure if that makes her the
bravest woman in the world or the stupidest. And for some reason she doesn’t
even think I’m in love with her.
Okay so it took *me* a while to realise it, but she’s suppose to be the
smart one out of the two of us. I think I finally realised my feelings for
her when she was taken over by Jolinar. The thought of losing her scared the
crap out of me.
As much as I wanted to be with her after that I knew I cared about her far
too much to ever complicate her life or endanger her career like that. So I
stayed silent and tried to move on. I tried to start a new life with Laira,
as hard as it had been, and for a time it looked like it had worked. But
then Sam found me and all thoughts of Laira quickly flew from my brain. She
paled in comparison with Sam, everyone and everything did. Still though I
could do nothing and I resigned myself to loving from a far.
Then the general decided to retire, I got promoted and Hammond gave me this
paper. Funny how everything in my world could suddenly be turned upside down
with one simple piece of paper.
“I guess I wasn’t as good at hiding my feelings as I thought," I said.
Okay, not my best line ever, but at the moment even my infallible sarcasm
was failing me.
“I was going to say the same thing, General,” Sam replied, a little twinkle
in her eye.
I was shocked. Hell I was just happy she wasn’t running away screaming at
the mere thought of marrying me, I surely didn’t know what to do now.
“So…what do we do, Major?”
“Well I know the choice of best man is up to you, sir, but I think we could
make the general a groomsmen or something.” Sam said with a huge, gorgeous
smile.
God I love that smile. I’d do anything just for *that smile*.
Copyright (c) 2000 Bryn Moser
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