| Yaten no Omoi Chapter 3 Sayonara o shitakunakatta -I didn't want to say goodbye- The final chapter people! Enjoy! Okay well parts of the anime are included, and well its my story so well I wrote it my way, changing a few things, remembering that this is a fanfic based on Yaten and *her* or *that girl* is usually referring to Usagi. And it's mostly in the viewpoint of Yaten. ^_^ Oh, and thank you once again for the compliments. ^_~ I've tried not just to show Yaten's love, but also include Seiya's love for Usagi. ^^ email: xxyumichanxx@aol.com Sayonara o shitakunakatta - I didn't want to say goodbye Baka -stupid Yaten no omoi - Yaten's feelings "" = speaking out loud '' = thinking (non verbal) Disclaimer : I don't own Sailormoon. All characters are owned by Naoko Takeuchi, Nakayoshi, and others. ^^;; Just writing a fic because I love her story. Please don't sue me. ^_^ Its called artistic expression dammit! ^^ ******* *************** "Galaxia wants to obtain all the star seeds and put the galaxy into a state of chaos. We still have hope,.. as long as we have the light of hope that the legendary Senshi left..." Healer watched as The Princess asked Sailormoon for help. Her princess, their princess, asking for help... Asking for help from *her*.. "To find the light of hope..." She saw the expression soften on the girl's face. "Of course, I would want to help - -" And then he realized the consequences...And he didn't want to go through the pain, and loose anyone, not again. *"We don't need it!"* "Healer!?" 'Just Me, Fighter, Maker and the Princess. We don't need anything else..nothing, nothing else...' "If you are alive and well, it doesn't matter! The only reason we came to earth was to find you! Now that we have, we have no reason to stay here! If *you* are with us, recovering our planet is an easy task!" "Let us go back to our planet." "Princess!" Kakkyu shook her head. "I don't care! I don't care if this planet is destroyed!" "Healer!" "I don't!" She tried in vain to make their princess understand. "There is no reason for,.. no reason to stay on this planet!" 'Just Me, Fighter, Maker and the Princess... We don't need anything else..nothing, nothing else...' She looked up. Her emerald eyes met a pair of blue. 'We don't need anything else..nothing, nothing else...' Her eyes. "Nothing.." Those beautiful eyes... ******* ************ "Yaten, I know you don't like Odango..but," '....' "I just wish you could understand." '....' "She's not what you think. She's so caring.. She's not a threat. She just isn't what you think..and I know you might think I am being so selfish, with ...the Princess and all, and the mission, but I just cant help it, I cant help but love her." '...I know..' "I know you cant now, but I hope one day you will understand her and accept her for who she is. Because she is so special to me..even if she, doesn't feel the same way." 'I know Seiya, that's why *I* love her.' *********** ************ "Healer." He felt a chill, being called by his senshi name. "Yes.. Princess?" She smiled. "I've talked with Seiya and Taiki and... I've heard of all the worrying I caused." Her eyes shined an almost crimson color as she went on. "And I'm sorry...I heard that you were especially worried for me. And I just wanted to thank you." "No, Princess, thank you. *For making me smile*." And although the princess's smile was so bright that he himself thought it could have lightened the world. As if this one smile would save the world, would defeat Galaxia. He knew that in reality, it wasn't so easy. And he knew that her heart would always belong to Seiya, even if he didn't return it. And he knew that Seiya was in love with that girl. And he, also had found another girl. Another person, that made him smile. And now it was too late. To lie to himself. He knew. He knew that he loved her. The only thing he regretted was falling for the same girl. ****** ******** He had awoken to the breeze that pressed against him. He looked around him, remembering how he had gotten there. He had wanted to be alone. Without the princess, with out Seiya, without Taiki, without the fans, without *that girl*, to think... And he heard a soft sigh. "Mamochan, why don't you answer me..? I'm so lonely.." And he looked up too see her golden hair blowing softly in the wind. And he wanted to call her name... And then the enemy appeared. "You said you were all right. Now you're crying you're lonely! Aren't you strange?" "Who are you!?" "At last, were alone!" ***** ************** 'This is my last moment as Seiya Kou.' He walked over to her desk. And you could hear the soft sigh that escaped his lips as he saw the picture she had carved of herself and her boyfriend at the edge of her desk. And he was again reminded, of the distance between him and her heart. "Although it was short, it was fun.." "Seiya! Did you see Usagi!? *********** ************** "Did you find her!?" "No, not in the building!" "What's left!?" "The top of the building and gym!" ******** ********* "Give up your star seed Tsukino Usagi!" He grabbed for his henshin pen. "!!" But paused. And he followed her eyes to the single rose. "Tuxedo ...kamensama...?" "If you try to lay a hand on her, I wont forgive you! Fighter star power stage on!" "Seiya.." "Star serious laser!" And he watched. "Now Sailormoon! The enemy! What are you doing!? Quickly!" "Si..Silvermoon crystal power kiss!" And he let his henshin pen fall to the ground. And the enemy escaped. He watched as she fell to her knees And he felt himself almost fading away as if only a shadow. And left at the scene were the two, the rose, the shadow, and the tears. "When I think about it, I'm not good at enduring things.." Seiya's eyes couldn't help but notice her trembling hands. "For example, even if I decide to work on my homework, I easily lose myself and start eating snacks until I'm full and sleepy.." "Odango.." "And then I fall asleep." Even the cheery voice she had been keeping up couldn't hide her tears. "But still, I thought I could take it. But when I saw that rose..I remembered him.." And more tears. "I thought I was okay...Even though I couldn't hear his voice except on his answering machine. And even though I haven't received any replies to my letters. I told myself it as okay..I thought that..I could survive by myself. But I just can't go on like this!" "Odango.." "I want to see you, I want to see you Mamochan!" "Am I not good enough?" And the shadow disappeared. ******** ******************* "Usagi! What are you talking about! Aren't you communicating with him?" Usagi shook her head. "Why?" "I haven't got any replies." "Since when?" "Since the beginning." "Why didn't you say anything!" ********** *************** "I'm serious about yesterday. After this concert, I wanted to sweep you away. I like you that much. I just..wanted to let you know this much. Now I can go all out for the final concert." He turned to leave but paused, "I hope you can meet your boy friend soon." "Seiya,.. I'm sorry." "You don't have to apologize.... I just wish I could have met you, much sooner." And for a moment he felt as close as ever to her. When his lips brushed against her cheek. But was once again reminded that she wasn't his, when the kiss ended. ******** **************** And he passed by her as if she was nothing. Because that was what she was, nothing... And he could tell by Seiya's expression that he had been rejected. Even though he and everyone else had known it would of happened, he still felt a mixture of pain and sympathy for him. Although smiling, he was crying inside. From the years they were together, he could tell, when he was trying to cover his sadness. But something else overpowered this sympathy. The reality, of what would have happened if *he* had done the same. 'This was the final concert, and if we don't find the light of hope, then....' ********* ************* "With your power, you can't defeat Galaxia! Escape! Hurry!" "Princess!" The Princess although powerful could not compare to Galaxia's power. Eventually, she couldn't hold out, and lost. And then her star seed appeared. "Fighter,.. Maker, Healer, you now have to combine your powers..." "Princess.." "Such a warm feeling.." "Princess!!!" Then the princess died. And the Starlights cried. As if the world had ended. *************** ************** "The glitter of the four planets," Pluto stopped in her tracks. "Is fading." Uranus finished the dreadful sentence. The bodies of the four senshi collapsed to the ground as Galxia took in their starseeds. "Why!? ....For us?" He didn't understand. "To protect the ones that are important." Mercury explained. "Important to you..?" And you could see the tears falling from each fading senshi. "Sailor Moon and the Star Lights are very important to us." 'Don't speak as if you are going to die..' "Even if you're going to die?" Fighter asked desperately. "Please, in our place, protect Usagi.. and this world." Sailor moon reached for Mars, and held her. Her body, fading away. "Wait.. Don't leave me alone..." "Don't be such a ...cry baby." "You promised that we would be together until the end..." "Baka,... you have Mamoru." Then Mars faded away. And Mercury, And Venus, And Jupiter. "Iya!" And she stood up. "Give them back!" "Give them back! Mars..Jupiter...Venus..Mercury..!" But she was blasted.. Then Galaxia pointed to the collection of star seeds that she had collected throughout her life. And although the sight was beautiful, he felt sickened when he thought of the ways she obtained them. And that was when Usagi saw a golden one, the most shining of them all and then she felt a presence of Mamoru. *"Baka,... you have Mamoru..."* "This is the star seed for this planet." Galaxia said noticing her surprise. "If that's Mamochan's star seed, then Mamochan is.." And he felt jealous..of the tears she shed for him.. ******** ************* "Why...?" "This is our way of fighting." Uranus explained with the simple words. "Why didn't you tell me..? I thought you became the enemy. I couldn't believe in you till the end." And the girl started crying. And he wanted to hold her.. He listened as Uranus told Fighter to protect Sailor Moon. He wanted to tell her everything was going to be okay. And their bodies started to fade. "Haruka.." "What..?" "I want to touch you." But even he didn't even believe that. The two reached out to touch each other. But they were too far apart and couldn't touch. They struggled ...and they eventually touched each others hands. "I can see the light, Haruka." "It's warm, Michiru." Then Neptune and Uranus faded away. And he felt that at last he understood the two. ********** ************ And they stood, as if ready to use their last hope. "For the planets that were destroyed by you!" "For the princess that protected us." "And for the friends that put their hope in us." "Sailor Star Fighter!" "Sailor Star Maker!" "Sailor Star Healer!" "We've come onto the stage of battle!" "What can you do? You are only betrayers that gave up on your planet and ran off!" They attacked Galaxia. "Star serious laser!" "Star gentle uterus!" "Star sensitive inferno!" And he thought there was hope. ********** ************* "The star seed of the princess of the moon, how beautiful..." And her features tightened. "Do you think you can defeat me with such a weak star seed! Stupid!" Galaxia obtained the shining seed, and then, Sailormoon collapsed to the ground. Her uniform disappeared.. And she was just a girl. And he wanted to cry. And he thought they would die. ********* ********** But, He felt that they would win when *she* had smiled. And he knew that everything was all right when he saw her reach a hand out to Galaxia. And everything was all right ...by her love. And peace fell upon earth, Kinmoku, and the Universe once again. *********** ************ The princess appeared behind the Star Lights. "Princess!" "It's a miracle." "I'm so happy." "Welcome back." *********** ******************* "Healer," The Princess called her name as she made herself noticed. "Kakkyu Princess.." "Healer, what is wrong?" "Nandemoarimasen... Nothing, princess, you are alive, everyone is saved, there is nothing, nothing at all that is ..Wrong.." She walked closer to him, sitting herself down next to him. "Were you thinking about that girl?" ".." "I knew one day, that you guys would eventually fall in love. And I thought I could handle it, but it is sad.... But, it can't behelped." She looked longingly at her senshi, almost as a mother who has seen her children mature. "We all fall in love. Even a Princess..." "Princess.." "Maybe it wasn't even true love...a love a senshi has for her princess...it may just have stopped at that. You guys were *taught* to love me.." "Princess, that's not true.. I did, I truly did..and Seiya too..." "But his heart has found another.." "Princess, please don't cry." "Do you think it's selfish of me?" "No, Princess. Not at all." "If you want to stay,... you may." "Princess..I would never leave your side." ******* ************* Usagi pushed a strand of blond hair behind her ear as she examined his face, trying to read his expression. "Of all the places, I think this is the most place, I'm going to have in my memory." But she failed. "I hope you wont ever forget us, Yatenkun, because you guys will forever stay in my heart." He smiled. And he knew he couldn't of said these words if they hadn't been alone. And he silently thanked his princess for urging him to talk to her before the day they would leave. And the words came out as if they were so natural. "I love you." And he watched her look up at him in amazement. And he bit his lip. "....or, so I thought." And he took in a breath. And silently, he apologized to his princess. "When I first met you, I thought you were foolish... When I first held you in my arms that day you fainted, I thought you were ..shining. And I thought I loved you. When we fought together against Galaxia, I thought you were brave. And when I talked with you that day at this very place, I thought you were naïve. And when I saw you around school, I thought you were.. stupid. But when I saw you today.. I now know that I don't and never did.... love you. That I was mistaking our princess for you. Now that she is back in my life, I know.." He tried his best not to let his emotions be seen. "You're so shining, but you aren't ..her. And that's reality. But Seiya is different. He loves you, for who you are. And so I know that you love your boyfriend.And that you will never love Seiya." And now she could read just a bit, a bit of his expression, so solemn. "But I just hope, that you will never forget ... *him*." "Yatenkun..I.." "Thank you for everything." He cut her off, because, he didn't want to hear her words, because he sensed he knew what they were. "You love your princess very much." "Yes, *we* do." He said hoping she would not notice the trembling of his hands. And he wanted just once, To touch her Just her pale skin He reached a hand To her face Trying not to tremble And just slightly Did the two brush And he felt an urge To kiss her And he cupped her chin in his hands And drew closer to her Hoping to just brush his lips on her cheek On her cheek.. But then he stopped He felt he shouldn't He felt as if her cheek was..taken. And slowly and reluctantly he let her go And he said he would see her tomorrow When they leave And *she* stood there until the sun set, looking into the sky. *********** ********* And then it was time... He felt wistful when they asked if they really had to leave. And he regained his sense of duty when the princess explained they needed to rebuild their planet. And he looked on as Seiya told Mamorusan to protect Usagi. And he watched as Seiya said how he would never forget 'his odango' And he laughed at how Usagi said they would forever be the best of friends. And he smiled as he said goodbye to Lunar. And he felt a bit sad when his eyes met hers. As if wanting to say something. And he closed his eyes as he said bye for the last time. And they disappeared. Into the sky. And faintly he heard a voice saying that they were no longer shooting stars but great stars that shine in the night sky. ****** ********* And now it was too late. And they had said their goodbyes. And he had lied. And then he cried. Not for his mother, Not for his princess, But for a girl, A girl named Tsukino Usagi. It was his duty to his princess. To his planet. To his friend. To her. Because it was a love, that could never be. And this was Yaten no Omoi.... ****** ********** Sad..Huh?? Jeez...I like the ending. What do you think? Don't forget to email me and tell me what you thoughts =)I felt as if a happy ending wouldn't fit a love between Yaten and Usagi (Boo hoo poor Yaten..) so...well you know..BUT...(Dun Dun Dun) ^^;; Is this really the ending..? ..Maybe..if I'm up to it, there *might* be a sequel in the future...with a completely different ending..or maybe just more tears for Yaten..heHe... I really don't know..But for now, hmph...how sad. Oh and for the famous line "Am I not good enough?" I was reall-y thinking about if I should change it to "Can't it be me?". Which I think is more accurate, but well...I changed my mind.. Oh and yah, again and again I think this..but poor Seiya too..and I just realized something..no bad guys..usually there is a scapegoat, but not in this fic..weird. (mamoru - usually scapegoat in seiya usagi fics) But I guess that's a good thing. ^^ If you want to read something funny try my fanfic, "Usagi and Seiya Together Again." (Mamoru is a reall-y big scapegoat in that one ^^) It started out as a Usagi and Seiya fic but, later Minako and Yaten are kinda stealing not spotlight...okie dokie. Bye for now. ^_______^ Other fanfics by me: Usagi and Seiya Together Again Kinmokusei |