Let’s stop, with finality,
this exercise in futility
Far beyond utility
Far beyond repair
Let’s stop it now,
while love’s still in the air
If you do dare
and take a bow
Let’s stop this futility
Of what use is it to us?
Tell me again
Please don’t make a fuss.
End it with humility?
Is that your desire?
Or would you prefer noble, our bodies flaming in fire?
Tell me now, I’m beginning to tire.
Tell me now, I can go no higher
with you, I’ve reached the summit
and in all honesty, I love it
But to be with you
Would mean a risk I’d rather not take
For fear of being revealed as a fake
Don’t get me wrong,
My intentions are true
Only this, has gone
on too long, too long
Let me go,
I’ve let you go,
Save yourself
Let me go
No more,
Can I handle
No more,
The candle
Grows dim
You know
It’s him
You know
He needs me
I know
you know
we don’t
need one another
So let go
I know
you will
There’s more to this,
Than a man who fits
Your description of
a lover with no love
I tell you, you don’t know
Don’t know the whole
Story, I will tell
All of it to you
It began two months prior
I met him once, in search of hire
I felt his gaze
Across my face
a pinkish glow
appeared in full
I didn’t realize it then
I had a thing for certain men
We talked, we drank
and later he thanked
me for my time
I offered wine
—I don’t know why—
he refused, said goodbye
Later that week I called him
asked him if he’d like a drink
he acknowledged, although I think,
he was unsure of my intentions
I didn’t realize the vibrations
Until we met up that night
At his place, alone, candlelight
Unsure of our direction
He took my hand
And I gazed into his eyes
I finally then did realize
For him, how much I did care
Unwilling to be snare
For an unsuspecting man
I turned him away
Never looked back
Into the sunset I ran
And ran until it was sunrise
I collapsed, too weak were my eyes
To stay awake, and face the day
That was in May
Quite some time ago
I think now, I can’t go on
Living this lie
Not this one
Not the last one
The vicariousness is gone
So I wish I could wish you so long
Is it so wrong
To not want to hurt someone
Someone for whom you feel?
What sort of deal,
Have I made with the devil
I no longer can revel
In all I used to do
With that I’m through
I assure you
He’s gone
From my heart
There he left a hole
The size of Wal-Mart
Now it’s your turn
To let go of mine
And tear my life line
In half, again for the first time
You know I can’t go on
That’s the way it’s meant to be
So take your time, and let me free
You’ll probably forget me
Memories of me long gone
I have enough of them for both of us
And when the dust
Finally settles, I’ll write them down
So our memory can be found
And remembered by many to come
Although our time was short
All good things must come to and end
Albeit rather abruptly
I know you’ll refuse, as would I
It’s not for you to decide, nor me
The fates have already made the decision
And follow that I must
As you will, learn to grow accustomed
And my memory will fade
Fade, mine will never
Nor of you, nor of him
Two very special people
with whom to have been
When you’re old and feeble
I may come visit you
Not remembering me
You’ll think I’m a stranger
Think you’re in danger
You know I’d never hurt
Your feelings, I long to protect
That’s why I’m here now,
Begging you to let go
This is my final plea
I leave now to bid farewell to my man
Who could never understand life’s plan
To separate us
Separate him and me
Separate you and I
Never again,
I promise myself
And never again
I know, it will happen