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Oh, you're so fine, and always smilin' - you keep me at ease. You taste like summer and you smell like spring and I can feel you in the breeze. Oh, isn't it grand, a little retreat, I will sweep you off your feet. We're hurdling down the main part of town, with the lights and the sounds of the city. Oh, the crowd is restless, girl, I must address this, so meet me backstage when you're ready. Cause after all - You're more to me than a memory, a pretty face in the crowd. Oh, you keep the heads turning, but you're mine. Can we keep it together, depending on the weather, this is the start of something good. Oh, the Dj's been messed with, but you look so impressive tonight, so let's dance. You're so kind and oh so spotless, I'm falling for you already. You've shown me what I've been missing, don't matter what you wear you're so pretty. Are you getting cold, I will be your sweater and everything will be much better. Is your coffe cold? Let me fill it with gold, sing this song with me and then, you will see. You're more to me..etc. The dance floor is empty, but we can stay a little longer. The party's been over, but we can sit back and sip another. Hey kid, put on your digs, I'm not leaving here alone. And as we drive away, listen for me to say - girl I am your home.
	I didn't mean to make you cry. Just thought you should know of my constant decay, while you're away. You mean everything to me, and that's why these words came so easily. I know you've heard this all before, but I mean it so much more, than anyone before me. I know it's getting kind of old, but if I could only break the mold, you'd spill it all before me. This may seem like another sappy love song to you, but please rethink your first instinct. Listen to my words, remember how it hurt, when you were thrown aside, and left all alone. And now you're starting to unwind, maybe now you'll confess, untangle that mess, inside your mouth. I'll watch you break, finally make a mistake, and tell me how you feel.
I hate myself. The things I do. I just want to die. But you won't let me. You keep, hanging on, and pulling me back. Get away, it's no use, you can't save me. As much as I would like you to be, here by my side, for all eternity, you can't change the fact, that I hate myself, I'm going to miss you. But it's all ending now. This body won't, stop killing me. How can you watch? How can you love, such beast, inside and out. Get away, it's not use, you can't save me. As much as I would like you to be, here by my side, for all eternity, you can't change the fact, that I hate myself. I'm gonna miss you, but it's all ending now.
Today I started seeing red, looking too far inside me head. Doesn't seem worth it. Treasures set before me, taken for granted no longer free, there's a thorn in my eye. Oh, won't you save me? A future would be nice, but my blood is thin and it's turning to ice, falling asleep alone. Can't seem to keep it together. I tackle one down and up pops another. Is your mind at ease. Oh, won't you save me? Save me. I'm calling out to you, please save me. Hey babe I like how you feel, but I'm blind to my power so a kiss I will steal. Why do I float around? Daddy, I must ask, when I grow old, will I smile at my past? I'm drifting away, anchor me. Oh won't you save me? Remember your childish faith? Did I lose it in this mask, that I call my face? His words were so pretty. All you liars how do you live? Inside suits like mine and still manage to grin? Uncertainty's not pretty. Oh won't you save me? Save me. I'm calling out to you, please save me. I guess it comes down to, living for no one, and knowing you're through. Feeling so empty. When I close my eyes I see a map, my life outlined with an increasing gap, further and further away. Oh won't you save me? Save me. I'm calling out, I'm crying out, I'm beggin you - please save me.
	Why does everyone laugh at me? In my, in my, in my misery. I don't think it's funny, but they do, so I guess it's something that I should do. Cause I just love being the funny man, and that's exactly what they think I am. Just let it go. Let it go. Don't let it bother you, no more. Just let it go. What a cloudy afternoon, they're pushing me farther into this here gloom. How can you think you're so much better than me? Push me around and put me down, does it boost your self esteem? Put up your dukes, this ain't no fluke. Repressed relief. I'll put out your face, by walking away, ego deplete. Just let it go. Let it go. Don't let it bother you, no more. Just let it go.

	You and I had a weekend fling, but I was hoping this could turn into something, more than they would probably like. Cuz I remember how our laughter echoed into the night as we talked for hours smokin regular and lights and you looked so goddamn beautiful. Oh, my midnight rendezvous with you. My heart was pounding as I opened the door and I almost forgot about the kreak in the floor, but I got out alright and stole into the night, ran ten miles just to see you...oh what a site. Well, I watched your mouth move as you said some things and your tongue hit your lip and it made me dream, then you told me your story and moved a little closer to me. Yeah my hands got cold from the cold night air so I grabbed your hand and said "Sit right here." You so close to me, it was quite simply...Amazing so comfortable as ourselves, not sold out toys on a dusty shelf, but we're too good for that, yeah we're too cool for that. Oh my midnight rendezvous with you. Two nights later we were in the park, lying in the grass lookin up at the stars, and she was on top of things, yeah she was on top of me. God, she fit me like comfortable pants, oh dear lord I want to get in her pants, but first I want to dance, first let's find romance. And I can still taste her lip gloss it's bittersweet, we could scratch the surface or we could go deep, look what she's done to me, they said she was great not amazing. We sang that Frankie Vallie song then I went for the kiss, and that song goes a little like this: I love you baby, trust in me when I say: Oh my midnight rendezvous with you. I think I love you. Oh finally I see what's been makin me bleed, it's lack of your goddamn simplicity, it's what I need, and you can give it to me. I could tell by her smile and how she called me a dork that she was latching on faster than she'd guessed before. Maybe I'm wrong, maybe I'm naive, but I believe...You and I we had a weekend fling but I was hopin this could turn into something more than we can probably handle. Cuz I remember how our laughter echoed into the night as we talked for hours smokin regular and lights, and you....you looked so goddamn beautiful.

		Apparently I'm sensitive to sensitivity within, but is it wrong to have a sense of who you are? Won't ever be hard as a rock, blab on for hours just to hear myself talk, if I ever do that you can punch my lights out. I'm not real macho I'm kind of weird and the girl I likes thinks I'm a queer, but I'll just stick to the smile and wave. I guess it's true what Rachel said, "The less they feed you, the less you're fed, the more you want them the more they get stuck in your head." What am I trying to say? These little pills that I've been takin make my lttle heart start shakin' - they make me so depressed but it's okay, I'm already a mess. Well, they all think I'm so fucking happy but really inside I'm like an old oak tree, if they don't cut me down , well I'll die anyway. The bugs are eating away at my core, and I can't take this shit no more, I know it's been said before, but what's the point of it all? Now watch my face turn red cuz they're all laughing at what I said, so why do I keep on writing? What am I trying to say? There's no motivation. I'm scattered, and I'm done. I want to survive, get my life on track, but I can't talk to God, I think he turned His back, and the industry is against my ideas. But I won't suck grass and get really, really trashed, drink till I'm drunk 'n I'm flat on my back, but I will regret mistakes before I even make them. Somebody tell me when the pain will end, when the suffering's over and it's time to mend, I'm so fucking useless. Every new friend I attain, god I hope they don't find out I'm insane, so I put on my face and hide away in my little brain. Maybe it’s all inside my head, and I’ve overanalyzed what everyone has said, I’m takin’ things too seriously; maybe I’d be better off dead. Let me reinstate that I’m a geek, ‘n if you don’t know me then ‘y probably think I’m a freak, you’re judging me by what you see. You’re lookin at me thinking how can that kid, be so sensitive and keep it under the lid, this is how I let it all out. I’m starting to question the dream I have dreamt, my money’s spent, future with a dent, I’m sorry but this is how I vent. A part of me is saying “Give up now”, but another part wants to see how it plays out, The curtain will come down soon, though. My stomach hurst and I'm feeling ill, there's nourishment that can fill, there's no excitement for what's ahead. There's so much more that I could say, but I can see you're getting tired of hearing me play, so I'll just stop while I'm behind.