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[Following was first distributed in October 1994. All addresses hereon
have changed since then, and this piece not updated with new address information.] Hello all, (letter sent by Stella to email list of ex-FOF members) Here's a guy who is going to need friends to communicate with him and he certainly will discover who is friends *are*. Please respond to him if you wish. Here is what I received from him in snail mail today (October 13, 1994): Mailed to Stella on Oct. 11, 1994 - Marysville, CA postmark
From Richard Laurel (Richard Buzbee, legal name) [A hand-written letter of introduction was attached atop a small pile of papers, below:] |
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Hi Stella, I don't know if you can remember me. Richard Buzbee is my legal name. I came from the Dallas, Texas center with my son back in 1977. Reddish face, blonde hair and carrying around a lot of fear back then, most of which I unloaded over time. Here [enclosed] is a letter and two chapters that I sent out to all people in the Fellowship that I knew. I was removed from the school for sending it out, of course, and am now watching to see the response, and to proceed to the next step which should make itself clear hopefully. A group of students here at Renaissance is forming and want to take steps to remove Robert. An obvious step is the legal one but I would like to see what can be done by the group themselves. If you have some ideas then please contact me. My phone # is 916-692-1566 and my address is on the envelope. [see above] I have read several books -"The Wrong Way Home," "Captive Hearts - Captive Minds," "Combatting Cult Mind Control," but the best by far seems to be "The Guru Papers." It has led me into the light and helped me to take back my dignity as a human being - not a "chosen" human being, not speciaal, not lucky - just a human being trying to make my way through this experience of life on planet earth. So from one human being to another, I send you these things because I thought you would be interested. Richard.
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[The following letter enclosed with the above hand-written message,
and, as Richard wrote, was sent to everyone he knew in FOF:] Dear Friend, I am writing to you and several others because I value your friendship and regard you as someone with whom I can be honest and open. I decided to write to you because there have been some stories spreading through the school about myself and Robert, and I would like to clarify the situation. Also, I'm afraid that what happened to me is already being covered up and may soon disappear, like many things that have happened to others before. I was asked by Robert to buy a gun and become night guard at his house. I accepted because I considered this to be an opportunity to learn from him, and to protect him from harm. I went with complete trust in Robert and a desire to serve. After accepting the position, I was informed that one of the duties required of all guards was to give Robert massages when he asked for them. One morning, as I massaged Robert's back, without saying a word he sat me at the head of his bed on my knees. He then pulled down my pants, began sucking my penis, and asked me to come in his mouth. This was all done without my consent, very impersonally, without concern for me as a human being (married with a family), and without concern for me as a student wishing guidance to evolve. I felt betrayed and used by the man who I thought was my spiritual father. I quit the job and went off salary. |
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You might imagine that having sex with Robert is different
from having sex with other people, that Robert somehow uses sex
for teaching, or that it would make you more emotional, closer to
the miraculous. But it wasn't emotional, and involved no
teaching. While Robert was using me for sex, I was nothing more
than an object, something to be used to satisfy his own sexual
desires. Afterward, when I began discussing this experience with some of my closest friends, I discovered that many of them had been used by Robert for sex in a similar way. However, the greatest shock came from my son Troy, who told me that Roert had been actively pursuing him for sex from the time he entered the school--at age seventeen. While he was growing up, I taught Troy that Robert was like a God, someone he could trust fully in every regard. I thus unknowingly set him up to be used by Robert for sex. |
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Robert had told Troy (and many others with whom I have
subsequently spoken), that C Influence wanted Troy to have sex
with him. Robert also offered money and privileges in exchange
for sex. During sex, Robert uses no protection against AIDS,
herpes, or any other sexually transmitted disease, despite the
fact that he has sex with many partners. On many of the nights I
was a guard at his house, there was a succession of male students
coming and going from his room. If Robert removes me from the Fellowship because I have distributed this letter, I want you to know that I will still consider myself a member, and will support the school in any way I can. This our school--we have built it and paid for it. As a group, we have accumulated so much being; some people have been working on themselves for twenty years or more. To walk away from the school after learning about Robert's actions is to say that the school is his, and that we are powerless. But this is not true. We just need to trust ourselves and have the courage to come together and say no to actions that harm us. We not only have the right to do this, we also have the responsibility to bring the facts about Robert's activities into the open, where they can be fairly considered by all of his students. Since this experience with Robert, I have been given several books by other people who have had similar experiences with him, and who were trying to understand the reasons for it. With this letter, I am enclosing chapters from two books that speak directly to our situation in the Fellowship. [Chapters not included here.] |
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Please feel free to share my letter and these chapters
with other students. I would be interested in receiving a note
or letter from you as to your thoughts and suggestions about what
I've written here. Perhaps a plan of action will evolve through
our efforts together. I sincerely hope this letter will encourage
others to speak openly about Robert, the school, and their
experiences. If the school is healthy, it should stand up under
any honest inquiry.
In friendship,
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