CHAPTER FORTY THREE “Nick! I swear to God! If you don’t open that door this fuckin’ instant, I’m gonna break it down!” I moaned from the loud intruding voice and cuddled tighter into whatever I was clinging on to. “NICK! I MEAN IT!” I jumped. Nick? That wasn’t me, last time I checked. I sat up and was met with gorgeous blue eyes looking up at me. “NICK!!!!!!” He smirked and ran his hand down my chest. My breath caught in my throat, and my head began to spin. Why did he always have that affect on me? “Look Bri, we didn’t run away,” he whispered in my ear. And it took all I had not to grab him. I smiled, and leaned in to kiss him. I love him. So much. I needed to feel him. Especially after last night, I need to know it was real. I felt his lips brush mine momentarily before his entire body heat left me. I opened my eyes to see he was gone. I turned around to see him standing with the sheets wrapped around his waist. “Well?” “Well what?” I asked. I didn’t even know he was talking. I guess that’s what it means when his mouth moves. “Get in the bathroom!” He smiled playfully. “What?” I had absolutely no idea what was going on. I guess he had did that to me. “Kevin, he’s knocking on the door,” “Oh!” I jumped up and went for the bathroom. Kevin couldn’t know. “Grab your clothes on the way,” he called after me. I did and closed the door behind me. “Coming!” Nick called out. I smiled, ignoring the dirty thoughts in my head and slipped my pants on. “Where the fuck were you?” “Sleeping Kev,” I suppressed a laugh. I love Nick. So much. I was in absolute bliss. “And Brian?” “W-what?” I shut my eyes tightly. Shit Nick. “Brian, where is he?” “How should I know I’m not his keeper,” good one. “I know you’re hiding something and I want to know what it is! Where the hell is Brian? Why am I finding out Leighanne had to get another room?” Dammit! “And what the hell is Brian’s keycard here for?” He asked pointing to the floor. I wanted to cry and laugh at that one. AJ’s such an idiot. “And what the fuck are you doing naked?” Oh God Kevin, you don’t wanna know. “I uh…got hot,” “When you were sleeping,” “When I was sleeping.” “Okay then,” there was a pause. “Did you maybe….hmmm, forget something?” Kevin said overly sweet and dripping with sarcasm. Forget? Forget what? “Uh…” Good answer Nick. “Sound check? This afternoon perhaps?” Kevin replied, obviously irritated. Afternoon? When did that happen? It was the morning when I walked…or been dragged in. And who says ‘perhaps’? “Afternoon?” I heard Nick ask. Ah, my baby. He was mine. All mine. “Yeah, afternoon,” “Sorry, I must have lost track of time.” Damn straight! (or not ;D) “Whatever, just tell Brian I’m looking for him.” Kevin sighed, but I was waiting for that last dig he always…”Just don’t forget we have a concert tonight,” “Smartass!” Nick called after him. I wasn’t sure if I should come out the bathroom yet, so I stayed. The thought of what we were doing was so… dangerous…forbidden. Hot. I mean, I never thought I’d actually had him. Never. But I do. And it’s crazy, but it’s incredible, and I’m prepared to do everything for him, if he is for me. But right now, the thought that I had him was overwhelming me. It made me so warm inside, complete for the first time in…forever. And I’m not going to let him go. “Let’s paaaarrtay!” I head Nick scream from the bedroom. I laughed. He’s such a kid. I walked out of the bathroom to see him dancing around the room listening to imaginary music, while putting on his clothes. My heart fluttered. He was adorable. And he was mine. I just couldn’t get that out of my head. And he was hot. Fucking hot with only his jeans on. “Nick,” He stopped his little dance and turned to me. The famous Carter smirk appeared on his perfect lips as he looked at me. He didn’t know what that smile did to me. And I didn’t even give him a chance to breathe. I was on him in a second. I kept on repeating in my head, mine, mine mine. “Oh fuck,” he moaned when I pressed up against him. “Brian,” he gasped. “We…it’s…fuck,” he moaned. I could feel him press hard against my leg. “It’s 6 Bri…we need…we need to get to…” his words were lost when I found the spot on his neck I’ve come to love. I nibbled lightly at the base of his neck and heard him struggle for breath, “then lets go.” I smiled against him before I pulled away. “Ass,” “I know, isn’t it hot?” I joked back walking to the door, while slipping on my shirt. He rolled his eyes, but not before checking it out. I smiled. “Brian, come here baby. I just want one more kiss,” I turned to see his bottom lip set out in a pout. How could I resist? I wanted to suck on that pouting lip. I walked back over and he shut the door before his lips crashed onto mine. I was up against the wall in a matter of seconds and his hips were rotating against me. I parted my lips so I could breathe. My head was already spinning. “Nick,” I moaned. Fuck the concert. I wanted Nick. He deepened the kiss, which elicited a moan from my throat. “Okay, now you can go.” He pulled off me and walked over to where I had thrown his shirt. I stood there completely shocked and hard. He looked back and laughed. “Hey, we’re even now,” I smiled back through my haze, “we’ll see.” CHAPTER FORTY FOUR I don’t think I felt this good…in forever. I slipped into the elevator before the doors closed. I leaned my head back against the wall and closed my eyes. I was tired, that was for sure. But I was happy. I was with Nick. “Someone looks like they got some last night,” a voice broke my thoughts. I opened my eyes slowly, recognizing the obnoxious voice. “Go away,” “I want details…oh God, no, not details. Just…what happened?” “AJ…” I trailed off. “What? Come on! I’m dying to know,” “Really?” “Yeah,” The doors opened, before I stepped out, I looked back at him, “I’ll be there for the funeral,” I winked. “Bitch,” He called out after me. I stuck my finger in the air behind me, not bothering to turn around. I pulled out my key card as I turned the corner, I needed to get some stuff. I looked up, to see Kevin camping out my door. I froze completely in my spot. Fear completely taking over my body. So many things could go wrong…will go wrong. Did he know? Did he hear? Dammit. “Brian?” He called my name. Yup. That’s me. “Brian!” I shut my eyes tightly and willed my feet to start moving again, “Brian, where the hell have you been?” “Out,” “Out as in not with Leighanne,” My heart slammed against my chest. “Yes,” “What the hell is going on?” “Nothing,” I brushed passed him and tried to stop my hands from shaking as I swiped my card. “Brian! Don’t lie to me. What the hell went wrong between you two? It was perfect almost like…2 days ago…or less…” I watched as the red light turned green. “Not now,” I answered him, closing the door behind myself. He stopped it with his hand. “Yes. Right now. She’s crying, she’s been crying. What did you do to her?” I shut my eyes tightly and fell back on my bed. I ignored my speeding heart at the mention of her name. “Brian-” “Fuck off, if I wanted to tell you, you would have known already!” I snapped. “I don’t care if you wanted to tell me or not, Leighanne is a friend, you are my cousin. I care about you guys, I want things to work out for the both of you, but you always make it sooo difficult!” “Fuck. You.” I was risking it, I knew it. But I didn’t want to deal with him right now. He burst my happy bubble and he was going to get hell for it. “Why the hell is she in a separate room?!” “I figured it’d be easy for her to pack her things when I send her home!” I barked back bitterly. “What? Sending her home? You are NOT going to send her home. Be a man, work shit out,” “I already have,” “She’s here because of me, and she will leave on account of what I want. She’s my guest, not yours. She’s staying until I find out what’s going on,” “What?” I whispered, too shocked to move. This couldn’t be happening. “You fucking heard me, until I hear what’s going on, she’s not going anywhere. And I’m making sure of it,” “You don’t control my life. And I don’t want her apart of it.” “Again, what happened?” “I worked shit out,” “Fucking hell! Be more specific!” I was shaking by this point. I wasn’t sure it was from rage or fear. She couldn’t stay. I didn’t want her to stay. AJ didn’t want her to stay. Nick never wanted her to stay. No one wanted her to stay. Except Kevin. “Shit Kevin, stop barging in on my private life!” I saw the anger flame in his eyes before he stepped back, he clenched his fists. “She’s staying until I find out what’s going on,” it was so final it was scary. The way he said it. The pit in my stomach grew and once he left I dove for the bathroom. I needed Nick. And I needed him now. CHAPTER FORTY FIVE I sat on the edge of my bed, nervously playing with the hem of my shirt. I needed to talk to Nick. I had to tell him what was going on, why Leighanne was still here. If I didn’t, who knows what he would do. I went to pick up the phone, but something held me back. A voice whispered he wouldn’t understand. He’d think I was just keeping her as an excuse or something. He had a wild imagination. I slammed the phone back down. But he’s gonna find out. I picked up the phone. And slammed it down. Shit. Fuck! I can’t do this! I picked up the phone and dialed the three familiar numbers I’ve come to know so well. “ ‘Lo?” “Hey,” I whispered, my throat still sore. “What happened?” He asked immediately. I smiled. “Kevin,” “Fuck,” “Yeah, fuck.” “What’d he do this time?” “Leighanne,” “He did Leighanne?” I laughed, my voice was slightly raw, his attempt at humor was pathetic. “Leighanne’s staying.” “She’s what?” “Staying,” “What the fuck? Why can’t you just tell her to go?” “Cause she’s not my guest. She’s Kevin’s. Kevin knows something going on, and he’s not going to let her leave until he finds out what it is.” “Shit,” “Yeah,” There was an awkward moment, before I sighed and decided to voice what I was thinking, “I have to…stay with her, be with her” There was a long pause. Slightly too long. “You can’t,” “What do you mean I can’t?” “Please don’t do this,” “Do what?” “Don’t do this to Nick, please. Don’t do this to yourself,” “Kevin can’t know,” “He loves you, he’ll get over it,” “No. I mean, yes, he loves me, but that’s not the point. He’s different. I…I can’t explain it. He…has his beliefs. I just, I mean…” “Brian, you can’t not be you. You just be you and see what happens then,” he repeated his words he used once before that meant so much to me. I smiled and my eyes watered. God I loved this man. “Thanks J,” “I’m serious, do you hear me?” “Yeah, I hear you,” “Yeah, but are you listening?” “I-,” I sighed, man this guy saw right through me. “I can’t…AJ…Kevin’ll kill me.” “Think about this, please.” “I have,” “No,” “No?” “No you haven’t.” “What?” “I’m saying you haven’t!! If you had, you wouldn’t have just taken into consideration your own feelings,” My face heated at those words. “What’s that supposed to mean?” I raised my voice, but he was obviously unfazed by it. “You only care about yourself and what Kevin thinks of you! What the fuck! What about Nick? You gonna drop him again? I mean, seriously, make up your fucking mind, stop playing games. Stop playing with his heart!” He yelled. I could practically see his angered and disappointed gaze boring into me. He was right. I was being a selfish prick. “Brian?” “Yeah J?” “You know I’m right,” AJ smiled through the phone. “Yeah, I do.” “Hold on a sec,” I shut my eyes tightly and fell back on my bed. My God, this was so complicated. I couldn’t even think about the fact that I just took into consideration not telling Nick and to not be with him. What was I thinking? A knock at the door startled me. Who the fuck could that be? My heart slammed against my chest at the thought of Nick. I couldn’t see him now, I felt horrible. So guilty. How could I even think about not being with him? Ugh! What if it was Kevin? Shit! The knock persisted. I sighed and made my way to the door with the phone still in my hand. I was greeted with two arms wide open and waiting. I smiled. “Don’t…” “Come on, you know you want it.” I laughed. And tried to relax my tense shoulders. AJ was right. I did. I leaned in, and was embraced by two strong arms. I sighed and nuzzled my head into his shoulder. What would I do without him? After a moment or two, he pulled away and smirked, “now don’t ever do that again okay?” “Okay,” “I’m serious,” “Never!” I exclaimed dramatically, throwing my head to the side. “Shut up,” I smiled. “Now, before we go to the concert, you need to tell Nick. Okay?” I hesitated. Fine. “Yeah,” “Okay, good.” “Okay then,” He laughed. “Alright, I’m going down, you coming?” “Yeah,” I grabbed my keycard from the desk. I followed him out the door and to the elevator. Once they opened, I stepped out before AJ and right into Kevin. “Sorry,” I mumbled trying to move away. His body towered over mine as he grabbed my arm to stop me. For a brief instant, panic swept over me. I frowned and tried to put on a serious, annoyed face. “Can I help you?” “Shut up. You know exactly what you can help me with,” “No actually, I don’t. Explain it to me?” Fear left me and annoyance took its place. “I want to know what’s going on!” “Nothing is going on!” I raised my voice, letting him know I was mad. I rarely raised my voice. “Not here,” “Damn right not here,” “What’s up?” An angelic voice from behind Kevin asked. I smiled when my heart beat faster and the weight lifted from my shoulders just from his voice. “Hey Nick,” I breathed. I hope I didn’t look as dopey as felt. “Hey Brian,” He smiled back. Kevin stepped back from me, his shadow didn’t tower over me anymore. “Hey Nick,” “You guys ready to go?” Nick asked. His eyes were so beautiful, so lit and innocent. I nodded, Kevin grunted and backed away completely. Nick watched Kevin walk away and then turned to me, “you okay?” I smiled and willed my hands to stop shaking. “Yeah…I um…” “What’s wrong?” I looked at him. Really looked at him and wondered to myself how the fuck I could have second-guessed our relationship and been so ready to go back to Leighanne. “Actually…there is something,” “What’s wrong?” His brow creased in worry. God, if we weren’t in public right now. “I…” How could I say this? Leighanne is staying. There. Now, to only vocalize it. “How about you tell me after the concert? We’ll be in the buses…all alone…” He trailed off seductively. “But…” “Guys! Let’s go!” Kevin called us. Fuck. I have to wait and worry about this, another 3 hours? Dammit! Blonde hair caught my eye and I watched Leighanne walk out the door, Kevin guiding her. My God, what an asshole. He’d never understand, and he expects me to tell him everything. I turned back to Nick who was watching me watch her. Oh shit! I wasn’t looking at Leighanne! The look on his face made my heart squeeze. “Ni-” “It’s okay Brian, seriously,” his smile was small. “Baby, it’s not like that…” I trailed off realizing what I just called him. He looked around worriedly for a moment, but noticed everyone had gone into the vans. He smiled. It was a true smile that went up to his eyes, which were even sparkling. That Nick Carter smile that drives everyone wild. ‘I love you’ he mouthed to me before walking out of the lobby to join the others. 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