Sheesh.
It's been ten days already since I last blogged, like anyone would care anyway (how many times have I mentioned this line now?).
For the past couple of weeks I've watched nothing but serious movies, Oscar nominees so to speak. So far I have seen Munich, Brokeback Mountain, Capote, Good Night And Good Luck, Transamerica, Syriana and Walk The Line.
Watched three at the cinemas, Munich, Brokeback Mountain, and Syriana, the rest on DVD. I won't go into the details of each as I such I don't know how to properly review a movie. Let me just say that all deserve to be seen as they are all great movies.
If you have to watch one in the theaters, go with one of the movies I saw in a theater.
Oh, and I had no idea Truman Capote was like that.
With all those serious movies, it would be nice for a fun movie and what can be more timelier than Final Destination 3 or Big Momma's House 2 to dumb things down a bit.
Sad thing is, starting tonight, I am back on the night shift and for me to watch a movie, I would have to plan ahead hoping and praying that Eastwood Cinemas would follow the freaking schedule for a change.
Movies have not been the only things keeping me busy.
There are of course the girls, pool parties and casual sex. Right. Those things don't even happen in my dreams.
I have been so occupied playing Wild Arms 4, a game which I purchased a couple of weeks ago. With a little over 30 hours of game time, I am already at the final dungeon.
Sure there are tons of extra things which can be done before completing it, as well as the customary Clear EX save game, but I simply can't believe that I am almost through with it and was able to do so in a couple of weeks.
Yes, Dragon Quest VIII which was the last RPG I played was abnormally long, but this one is short, too short. Now the feeling of not wanting to finish it is back.
Then again, I might as well finish it and grab myself a copy of Grandia III.
Watched Brokeback Mountain today at the Eastwood Cinemas right after my shift. It was an interesting movie which some would avoid due to it's unique way of tackling the topic of homosexuality. I have nothing against homosexuality, but most people do but the movie just speaks the truth about it. This is our world.
I suck at making reviews. This is a movie you should not miss, it may even open up your eyes to certain things if you are still quite conservative about things.
Yup, open your eyes up which actually happened to me. I did not expect Anne Hathaway to be in this movie and I was surprised as she is just love. So you could imagine how surprised I was when she took off her clothes and showed her tits. I mean, we've been watching Princess Diaries and Ella Enchanted wondering how awesome her body would look underneath and here we are with such a surprise. Oh, and so did that girl from Dawson's Creek who is not Katie Holmes.
You should see this movie and not only because Anne Hathaway should her boobs, but because, uhmmm, it's a cinematic masterpiece by Ang Lee.
The best Valentines card ever.
Webcomics cheer me up so much, and seeing the Valentines Day post over at Ctrl+Alt+Del just made me smile so much. Now this is how one should propose to a lady video gamer (If you could actually catch one).
Now on to a little non-sense.
There are times when you just feel so miserable simply because you look back at things and realize how stupid you were to let opportunities pass.
This is one of those times.
I feel quite miserable today. I know it wouldn't have mattered much but the least I could have done was ask. I was already there, like anything would change if I did ask her out.
Calling a day before Valentines, you'd expect the main reason would be obvious already. So you had to avoid it completely. Now, you were successful in letting that pass but a certain degree of regret burns up inside. You notice that things didn't change really. It's still distant and asking certainly wouldn't have changed anything.
You have already lost it, and I doubt anything you do right now would actually fix things. Things will never be the same as you had already pushed too hard, so why not at that one point in time could you not push it a little farther still.
Watching a certain couple on PBB reminds me so much about us. Bummer.
I should just drown myself in Wild Arms 4.
To Think I Might Not See Those Eyes
Finally decided to call her up and it was just my luck that I caught her while she was sleeping. I still got to talk to her as the person who answered the phone just handed it to her.
The initial minutes where of course a little awkward, as I did wake her up but things straightened out midway. It went okay, nothing special, nothing spectacular, and nothing too awkward either. Sadly, it did not go as planned as I had been practicing some of the things I wanted to tell her but opted not to.
I had no intentions of asking her out (being Valentines day and all), but now I wish I did. I know she would have declined anyway, but it would have been nice if I did ask. Who knows, maybe she would have said yes. Thing is, if she would have said no, we'd be back to the same situation the last time I asked her out which led to us not talking again.
Enough of this. It is my day-off so I should be having fun rather than contemplating over this last call even if it means blah-blah and so-so.
Wild Arms 4 proves to be an engaging experience and I am now off to Filgaia to spend more time with them.
A Ray Of Joy Shattered In A Second
A power outage was scheduled at Megaworld in Libis today so we had to report to work at PBCom in Makati. It was not at all strenuous, and before I forget, the power outage simply meant that there would be no air conditioning and elevators in the building. You could still work if you opted to.
Due to the fact that it was announced late in the evening, teams were allowed to get there things in Libis and then go to PBCom burning a few hours in between. The day, like any other day was quite relaxing even though systems failed again since it was a weekend.
Tomorrow though, I have to report to work alone. No teammates, no team lead, no L2. It's not like that would something new, this site ain't called "Perfecting Loneliness" for nothing.
Plus, I do know a number of people from other teams whom I could sit with tomorrow so as not to look like a complete loner. Right.
It's also my day-off again on Monday and Tuesday so I am sure I'd breeze through the day, right after which I am going to watch Munich which hopefully would still have a 4:20 PM screening.
I bought two games last Thursday, We <3 Katamari and Wild Arms 4. Two games I really wanted to start playing. Tested them out at the store and they worked fine. Tested them the next game at home and none of them worked. We <3 Katamari booted to a black screen with Wild Arms 4 locking up while loading the intro and no matter how much I twisted the PS2 around, it would not continue.
Bought another copy of Wild Arms 4 from a store in Ever Gotesco. As soon as I got home, I tested it, lo and behold, it freaking worked and loaded farther than the first copy ever did. I love you, skinny white saleslady. Now I finally have something to really smile about.
This just in. The power outage at Megaworld was cancelled today. Guess when they rescheduled it, tomorrow of all days.
Just my luck which has been very bad as of late. I don't want to expect something good will happen out of this as nothing ever happens anyway. Everything happens for a reason? Bollocks!
I opt to report to Libis tomorrow. I am not going to tire myself again.
There Is Nothing But A Wasteland
Girls. We seem to have been blogging a lot about them this lovely month of February.
Let's not slow down though. This time it would be about the one who enters my subconscious while I am asleep.
I was going to mention a certain dream in yesterday's post but I was in a rush so I was not able to add it. It was a wonderful dream. I have stopped talking to this certain gift (direct give-away), since early December of last year. In the dream, we were talking again and really having fun while at it. We were even talking in person and in my room as well. Oh, and in the dream it was perfectly clear that we were just friends but hell it was still fun than nothing at all.
I really miss her and have been contemplating with myself as to call her again, just for old times sake.
Thing is, I'm scared. My heart beats a million times faster when talking to her, at least for the first few minutes when I pick up the phone and call her. Heck, it even happens when I see a new blog of hers on my RSS reader.
Another is that I don't think I am ready. I don't think I would ever be.
The reason I mentioned the dream is that I had another one this morning. Oh boy, this is just too much. Does she even dream of me?
Anyway, have been messaging this girl my mom is recommending. She's a niece of my mom's friend, a local girl as my father would say. I saw her once but never got to talk to her personally.
She sent this SMS a few days ago about choosing a pet which would best describe her if she was indeed a pet. The choices included dog, cat, sheep, snake, butterfly, bear, among other with each having a distinct meaning. I choose bear so as to be a little wild and crazy.
When she sent the meaning of each, I laughed at what bear meant. It meant the one you are fooling around with. Laughed because it was true. Maybe things would change once I meet her.
"I'm sick and I'm tired of always being the good guy." -- All The Rage by Funeral For A Friend
Make me happy. Get me one of these, the coolest toy I've seen.
When You Can't Say No, Simply Ignore
I was all set in doing this presentation for her, but before going to bed she messaged me again if I would do it. I gave all sorts of excuses of being tired and not being able to do a satisfactory job for her. She did not reply.
The following day, she asked again if I could do it saying she really needs the help. I didn't know what to say, so I simply ignored the message sending no reply whatsoever.
Now I don't know what the implications of that would be and frankly my dear, I don't give a damn. It's not like there would be any thanks or physical benefits if I did do it.
But hell. Three cheers for me.
Anyway, four straight days of work and now two rest days. Then I go back to work on Saturday and Sunday and then two day-offs again. Life is quite fun sometimes.
I haven't started playing any new games yet as I feel Resident Evil 4 is too massive for a two-day off. Maybe I'd find a copy of Wild Arms 4 somewhere. Oh, and before I forget, Kingdom Hearts II is finally being released in the US on March 28. Now that's something to look forward to.
I think it is time to cash in on one of these unusual qualities I have, being too nice and doing projects/homework/presentations/reports/book reports/(just name any kind of thing that needs to be submitted, and am there) for pretty girls.
I should start learning to ask for something in return. Anything would do.
Or I could just learn how to say NO and be firm with that answer.
Damn. I just can't help myself. She asked me again, and I said yes. The thing is, I have nothing better to do so I agreed. Problem is, she knows that as well, so she never hesitates to ask especially in dire straits. I won't even get anything in return, heck, even see her for that matter. We somehow do not exist in the same time-space continuum.
In reality, I seldom ask for anything in return. I do things out of my own free will, because I feel like doing it no matter what may happen.
And if possible, I wouldn't even want to stop or give up on something or on someone even if the future continues to be dark, grim and hopeless. It is (was) keeping me happy. And sane.
Something happened to one of my teammates when we were in Villa Escudero, she tripped. Woke up to extremely bad news in the morning and ever since I have this sick feeling in my gut. Somehow I can't help but feel guilt and feel responsible for things that happened. Or maybe it's just that I am worrying too much, these are people I have spent almost everyday for more than a year with.
It's just a real awful feeling.
The one week of rest and recreation ended yesterday and work resumed today. Thankfully, our schedule until the end of February is quite heavenly. Seven in the morning until 4 in the afternoon. Queue during most of the day, but we would still get an hour's rest by the end of the shift. At least. I hope.
Definitely a good thing. Well, anything is better compared to spending 500 Php a day just to get to work at 1 in the bloody morning.
Oh, and yes, you did read that correctly. We have a projected schedule until the end of the month. Amazing ain't it?
But wait, there's more!
I also know in advance what my day offs are going to be. My day offs would fall on February 9, 10, 13, 14, 20 and 21. Damn! What could be better than that.
Oh, yes. It's my day off on Valentine's Day. Like that matters. Who knows, there are 10 more days until Vday. What's the worst that could happen?
Wooh! That really knocked my socks off.
Since I am a lousy photographer, I spent most of the afternoon resizing, cropping and adjusting shadows on the pictures I took from the recent trip to Quezon. It was quite an enjoyable experience, but I wish could have spent the time playing another video game or watching a DVD. I am talking about the pictures, okay.
Due to the team being on leave for a week, plans for an out of town trip finally materialized. Chose Villa Escudero as the destination as one of our teammates knows people there and we were able to get a discount.
It was a lovely place, lusciously green, serene and peaceful. The food was reasonable and plenty. The staff was quite friendly and accommodating. Carabao rides to and from the guest house to the main entrance.
The resort was filled with statuettes that looked bright and colorful during the day but would give you the fright of your life when you see them at night when they surprise you as you turn a corner.
The resort also had a museum. Museum at a resort? One would expect a small one with only a few things in it. I was blown away though by the size and amount of items they have. The museum was built into a church. The first floor was filled with religious artifacts and insects, as well as stuffed animals. The second floor contained all sorts of things such as treasures from sunken galleons, early homo sapien tools dating to the stone age, coins, paper bills, Japanese armor, Carabao hide armor, a piece of rail from California, and more. It was just very surprising for a small private museum in the province to have all of that.
There was this cool poster of Jesus which when you zoom in is actually the whole New Testament. Click here for the whole pic. Click here for a portion. And here for a real close picture, you'd be able to read the text.
Oh, and there was a sign outside which said taking pictures is not allowed inside the museum. Yeah, right. Apologies for the mediocre pictures inside the museum, I have never taken pictures of things up close and are behind a sheet of glass.
The package in the resort only covered lunch, dinner and breakfast, so the next day we had to eat elsewhere. A friend recommended a floating restaurant in Lucban, Quezon, Kamayan Sa Palaisdaan, which was almost an hours drive from Villa Escudero. The food there was great, and their spare ribs simply stand out as my favorite.
Next we decided to go around Quezon and Laguna, passing by several towns for pasalubong as well as passing through Caliraya Lake in Cavinti.
I was going to make this into a photo journal, but I am too lazy, I'll just post the pictures after all of this.
You know what fuck the pictures, stupid freaking connection would mean I would take until tomorrow to resize the pictures again so they would work optimally on a stupid dial-up connection like mines. If you want to see them, check them out here at my Shutterfly account. It's not you care anyway.
Now am so freaking annoyed and pissed. Hulk smash! I SO suck. Can't even create a photoblog without wasting days. Sick sad world. Sick sad me.