Gegenschein
           04-04-2000

The painful screech of metal against metal
Unbound by the deaths just below
I pass by here everyday
And not once have I ceased to care, to know
Unfazed by the stoic glares
Of the other beings around here
I sigh just a bit deeper
In memory of those estranged
For only their dust remains

            Delirium Tremens

When the fake madness arrives
Easing in on you
They will never look more beautiful
With the sway of your hips
They stand there aroused
While you kill your machismo
The tension builds like fire
One cannot escape
They will scream your name
Any ecstatic moment now, you wait
But of course they won't
To them you're just another lousy drunk

          Journey to Inertia

Strength... leave me be
Shaking hands're reaching out
Deviant hands're lashing out
To me, to me
And the struggle turns ugly
So leave me be
Another fuckin minute
And farewell to unhappiness
Don't sicken me
Don't bother to write
Just leave me be
To question the night
Love... leave me be
Pervasive logic overturned
Celestial thoughts arise
In me, in me
I'm only born for this moment
Leave it to me
Another's memory
Creeps in like a forgotten ghost
Leaving me, leaving me
Empty

Dwelled by Ravens

A spark soars below the stratus clouds
Igniting the branches of willow trees
Drops disturb the waters of the lake
But the burning smoke will not cease

Across the horizon skips the liquid
Oozing with mysterious infinite waves
Stretching to what seems like forever
It finally ends to the magical caves

*Few dared to venture 
Few dared to even try
To conquer the caves dwelled by ravens
No one knows what happens inside
No one seems to come out alive

Legend tells of a woman with secrets
Who immortally guards the ice lagoon
Many men have fated death and doom
To hear her wail her wordless tune

The goddess does not welcome visitors
But the aphrodisiac sound lures them in
As soon as you hear the flapping of wings
Must you prepare for the end to begin

Defeated

Your smell invades me like a spell
It bathes my emptiness with that longing
For fusion of skin, of heat, of breath
Without it I simply cannot think
Because in my mind, there's nothing but you

There's no turning back to the days of bliss
If only to avoid the numb space 
The same vessel that carried your body
Is now filled with an air of sadness
For it is void of its purpose and worth

The midnight sings a different tune of ache
It feels my solitude, it cries with me
The tragedy of you gone affects these things:
The songs that I hear, the air that I breathe
The words that I say, the warmth of my being

Rockstar

Listen to me and listen to me well
For I am the one who speaks to you
I may not know your name nor face 
But we have met before someplace
We may not touch each other's skin
But you will feel the same within
Like when you first heard my voice
You knew a place you've never been
And until you found yourself at ease
You know you don't deserve your peace

I am just like you of muscle and flesh
Never different in the way you bleed
Always seeking, longing, searching
Never different in the way you need
We must come together in thought
Not surrender to the demons fought
You have come to conquer my sins
I have come for the peace I sought
For I dream of living a day that's new
I dream of returning there with you

This Illusion

For a second I fancied myself thinking of you
That I was smiling at the moments we've had
That I ached and wondered what could have been
But I know it's just the summer that speaks to me
And in the fall I'm back to being fancy-free

For a second I fancied myself longing for you
That I was wishing on the stars in your name
That you and you alone held the key to my universe
But I know it's just the wind that speaks to me
And when it's gone I'm back to being fancy-free

For a second I fancied myself missing you
That I was seeking a memory of you to remember
That I actually felt empty and cold by myself
But I know it's just the moon that speaks to me
And during sunrise I'm back to being fancy-free

For a second I fancied myself in love with you
That I was ready to fall and be crushed forever
That it was unbearable to live without your breath
But I know it's just the night that speaks to me
And in the morning I'm back to being fancy-free