my junior prom is tomorrow night. i have a dress it's just i don't feel much like going to it. there's no point really. i don't feel like wasting $25 dollars of my own money to hang out by myself. i'd much rather do that at home. it's a lot cheaper.

yeah so i'm staying home. i got work to do actually. papers to write, friendships to figure out, things to study for. yeah i'm having problems with friends again. and with family too, but how's that new? i'm trying to be humorous even though i'm slightly down, though i have to be careful because according to someone, sometimes i'm not funny but downright bitchy. hunh... i never thought of myself that way. usually i thought i was a fairly decent person. shows what i know.

yeah so i had a boyfriend. that was interesting. i went out with him for two weeks and then decided i didn't have time for anybody. i'm so funny (wait didn't someone say i wasn't?), i sit and bitch and moan about being alone and then some one likes me and wants to go out with me and i'm like uhhh....no time. i'm ridiculous sometimes. really. he seemed to be a nice guy. he still is. i just heard some bad things about him and chickened out. plus i feel over-whelmed (?) enough these days (stress induced headaches, always a joy)that i just didn't need anymore. too bad he was kind of cute. oh well.

jesus usually my friends are wonderful, but some of them right now....with friends like they're being, who needs enemies? ugh... what a pain.

at least softball is alomst over. thank god. oh but wait, what's that i see on the horizon? more softball!! oh dear god some body get me a blunt object so i can knock myself out...