wow. this is my life right now. it is incredibly static. it consists of me being really happy and surrounded by friends to the next moment to depressed and alone. i guess that's how it is. like an example being monday night/tuesday morning. i had sooo much fun.
it consisted of me going with a bunch of friends, Nora, John, Joe and Mike (we ran into Joe and Mike on the trainstation and proceeded to travel down together)down to CBGBs to watch a local band of aquaintences and friends play. i loved riding the subways. i got to pretend i was surfing, the subway swayed so much it was like surfing. Joe told me i was going to go crashing to the floor (i wasn't holding a pole or ring), that didn't happen though cuz i rule. so we finally got to CBGB's and listened to the preceeding band play some song on dinosaur love or some such...they were a lil' strange. the place was cool though, tons of stickers all over the bloody place. very cool.
finely Foalition (?), our friends band played. they were pretty good to me, but then again i've never heard them play before so i don't really know though. after wards we looked around a bit and then ended up going to some girl, Thea's apartment. we hung out there for a bit, it was kind of boring. so we left after a bit, and headed to Queens. i never got home in the end. i ended up staying in Queens all night and baking special brownies, which we ate...
fianlly at like 5 in the morning we tried to get home, or more for poor Nora and me, school. :P

so that was all fun and stuff. but now i'm all bored and lonely and having to deal with my mom who calls me a loser and failure every fuckin' day just drags me down and makes me depressed. and every time i try to call a friend to hang out they're not there or they're busy. it just sucks. i think i'm still depressed and upset about my now ex-friend in an essesence dumping me saying we weren't compatable. its so sad....friends for 12 years and she decides it's not worth it anymore. sad, just sad. oh well, she's a loser now anyway. so that's my life as of right now...


good night...good riddance.....