Thursday January 12, 2006 @ 11:30 AM
Fucked myself...
What's the worst you've ever screwed yourself over? Because today, within the last half an hour, I've realized that THIS is the worst I've ever screwed myself over.
When I was younger I did stupid things, like we all did, but I figured that SOMEDAY I'd grow up and stop making completely stupid mistakes and be a responsible person. As the last few months have pointed out, I'm DEFINITELY not at that point in my life yet.
Okay, remember how I get OSAP?
Remember how I have terrible money habits?
Yeah. Uh-huh.
So this is pretty major for me, considering I'm short more money than I ever owned prior to having OSAP...
But don't worry too much about me, because as all of you know, I'm pretty good at handling and fixing all of the stupid mistakes I make (God knows, I'd HAVE to learn this much by now!!). So after five minutes of freaking out and not being able to breathe, I've divised a plan.
I'm going to take the Monday shift at work, as well as my Thursday shift (God must love me a LOT for making this possible RIGHT at the time I desperately need it). Working like this, I'll be up to par, financially, by the end of April at the very latest. I'm also going to ask if I can start working Fridays during the day (or at least filling in for people sometimes), which could shorten my money re-making time to seven weeks at the shortest.
One this is for sure though, and that is that I am NOT spending ANYTHING for the next semester. This actually is coming at a good time too, since my New Years resolution was to eat at least five servings of fruits and veggies a day, and I've taken to bringing lunches rather than buying anyway.
And, as a last resort, if I'm still short money by the end of the semester (I wouldn't be short by very much in this case) I can always ask my parents to loan me money. I really don't want to do this though, and not just because I'm afraid they'll be mad/disappointed/whatever.
I'm 19, almost 20. If I'm still going to make BIG STUPID mistakes, I should at least be able to pull myself out on my own. I got myself into this, and I have the means to get myself out on my own.
WHEW! Good vent, thanks for listening. ;)
~Shayla
Tuesday December 27th, 2005 @ 11:20 PM
Bitch, bitch, bitch and a post-Christmas update...
So Christmas has come and gone, and that's always sad... But on the UP side, I have two weeks of free time before my next semester starts, and that ALWAYS cheers me up! ;) I just don't know what to do with myself with all this time...
So last night Katie, Mary, Andrew and I went out to see the Producers, and then hung out at Mary's house (Alexis joined us). In the end, I was up until AT LEAST three in the morning, which is totally cool with me... Except when I get a surprise call at seven in the morning from Linda from my work who didn't know that her daycare was closed today and can't go to work because she has to watch her grandkids, and will I do her the biggest favour ever and work 9-5 today?
At seven this morning, underslept and head fuzzy from last night's weed, I hated Linda. But of course I worked for her, because it's just one of those things you have to do to keep from hating yourself. Right, like I'm really going to screw over Linda and let Mrs. B. try to work by herself on the first day back from holidays (it's always crazy after holidays). So I went to work. :P
It's a good thing I function so well with so little sleep... Years of June Rush at Ward taught me that... And my wild and free childhood up north, without a bedtime. ;)
Christmas was good though. There wasn't really anything I wanted, but I got some pretty good stuff in spite of myself. :) And, weirdly, as much as I bitched and complained about what to get people for Christmas, the most exciting part of my Christmas was watching people open presents that I'd put a lot of thought/effort into. Time for a list:
~Shayla
Friday December 23rd, 2005 @ 3:31 PM
And the Grinch didn't even have a little sister...
I know it's Christmas, but I just might have to kill my sister anyway.
So around two months ago, Katie and I start thinking about what to get my mom for Christmas. We got her all the stuff she wanted: pajamas, spa gift certificates, a model skeleton from the Science Centre, microwavable slippers, etc. But Mom also always bugs us to make her something (Which we, or at least I, rarely ever do). So this year, Katie suggested we take all the photo-booth pictures of her and I (and some with my mom) that we've collected over the years, and make a collage of them. And since Katie's working with glass for her design class, she decided to make a glass picture frame to go with it. So, great, we've got my mom covered.
Except that Katie is DRIVING ME CRAZY. I've been on her all week to get the frame done, which she has. But in the mean time, she has NOT brought me home the dimensions of the frame (which I've also been bugging her about all week), so I can't start putting the collage together. I can't even start working on it at all, or photoshopping the pictures, because she hasn't even brought them home for me to scan. Pictures that I made money to have taken.
Last night she fell asleep before I could remind her to bring them home today, so I wrote her a note and tied it to her alarm clock. I woke up at 7:45 AM to talk to her and make sure she'd read it, and she told me she'd bring everything home by 1 PM. That would have been great, because I could probably have finished it in the hour from 3-4 PM when my mom's out driving the school bus.
But it is now 3:40 PM, AND SHE'S NOT HOME YET. What the fuck?? Christmas Eve is TOMORROW, and this is still not done yet!! I wanted it done and printed early in the week, so I'd have time if anything went wrong. Now I'll have to try and get this done tonight (somehow without my mom seeing), and we'll have to hope that it all goes along and prints perfectly tomorrow, or else we're just screwed. Goddamn it, she is so fucking inconsiderate sometimes...
All I know is that someone is going to have to take the bus early tomorrow morning, and get this thing printed somewhere. And that person is not going to be me.
~Shayla
Sunday December 18th, 2005 @ 8:33 PM
Weird habits...
Ground Rules: The first player of this "game" starts with the topic "5 weird habits of yours" and people who get tagged need to write an LJ entry about 5 quirky habits as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose the next 5 people to be tagged and list their names.
~Shayla
Thursday December 15th, 2005 @ 10:35 AM
Things still to do before Christmas...
~Shayla
PS. I take pity on Kris Kringle buyers because I am one... If my buyer person wants to know what to get me, send me an anonymous e-mail and I will tell you... Stressing out over it is not a very Christmasy feeling. :P
Tuesday December 13th, 2005 @ 12:56 AM
Take the first sentence, or first few sentences from each month's first real post, and that's your 2005 year in review.
January
I was lying awake on a cot in the living room of Andrew's Uncle's house in Smalltown, Pennsylvania when it suddenly dawns on me that it's 2005 and New Years Eve has already come and gone and I can't help feeling like I missed it.
February
Yay, so it's now OFFICIALLY my 19th birthday!! :D I'M LEGAL, BABY!!! ...Yeah, like that's going to change much, right? ;)
March
So I had TWO essays due today (History and Women's Studies) and they are READY to GO!! YAYYY!!!
April
Okay, I might be a little slow in realizing this (maybe I'm just in denial) but like... When did Gwen Stefani become a total sellout?
May
Let's just take a moment and marvel at the sheer contradiction of our own human nature.
June
OH MY GOD!!! CHUCK PALAHNIUK IS COMING TO INDIGO BOOKS ON WEDNESDAY AT 7 PM TO READ FROM HIS NEW BOOK AND SIGN BOOKS!!! OH MY GOD, HE IS MY HERO!!!
July
Before I say anything else, let me first say that the new Harry Potter book is fan-fucking-tastic. OH. MY. GOD. I love this series.
August
I think I accidentally flashed a bus driver while running for the bus yesterday. But the bad part is that it didn't persuade him to stop and let me on the bus. :(
September
Is it sad that looking through the IKEA catalog is the most motivating thing in the world to me?
October
Your child asks you why bad things happen to good people. What is your answer?
November
Where do you draw the line between your unconditional love and acceptance of someone as they are, and your desire for them to grow and improve themself to become a fuller person?
December
My mom bought me my annual chocolate Christmas calendar... Naturally, there is no possible way that I will make it all the way through to Christmas eating just one chocolate a day, like I'm supposed to...
Well, I guess I haven't changed all that much in a year, really. This year I freaked out about books (and authors). I asked a lot of difficult questions and got a lot of great answers from all of you. :) I said and did stupid things. I bitched about school, and gloated when I got things done. It was a year much like any others, when you boil away all the silly little details. :)
Hopefully 2006 will be much the same (at least I know for sure that my New Year Eve HAS to be better!). :)
~Shayla
Monday December 12th, 2005 @ 2:34 AM
Sleepy sleepy sleepy...
I've been focused for the last twenty-four hours, at least. I couldn't even sleep last night, because I was too wound up thinking about everything. The essay today was easy, as I knew it would be, and I don't know why it kept me from sleeping. Two essays down, and three to go. On to the harder essays. :P
And I've been working on this layout for the past twelve hours, without exaggeration. Bed is sounding good about now... Sleepy... Zzzz... zzz... zzz...
;jaoht;EWHT;OUHWEROT is where my head hit the key board. ;)
~Shayla
Friday December 9th, 2005 @ 10:08
Banana Banana Banana Banana Terracotta
So this guy from my politics class that I met once calls me and asks if I want to study with him. Our prof is an angel because she gave us study questions, so we decided to do them and then e-mail them to each other. As expected, I got the raw end of the deal, because it turns out this guy is either an idiot or didn't go to class much. But it's okay, because if it wasn't for him, I probably wouldn't have gone through all the study questions as well and as fast as I did, and I wouldn't feel half as prepared for tomorrow's exam as I feel now. :) So, thanks slacker.
Now that I've got all those study questions done, I can't decide if I want to stay up doing something tonight, start studying for my Sunday exam (something tells me that's not going to happen), or try to go to sleep on time so I'm not dead for Sunday's A.M. exam. Hmmm... decisions, decisions...
It's the kind of night where I feel like doing nothing... And for once, I feel good about doing nothing because I've already done a bunch of something. :)
~Shayla
PS. Wish me luck on my Saturday and Sunday exams!! :P
Tuesday December 6th, 2005 @ 3:47 PM
Snapshot of now...
I don't actually feel much like updating, so here's a list of little things that I've been doing/thinking lately:
~Shayla
Friday December 2nd, 2005 @ 9:25 PM
It's that special time of year again...
My mom bought me my annual chocolate Christmas calendar... Naturally, there is no possible way that I will make it all the way through to Christmas eating just one chocolate a day, like I'm supposed to... But this year, I'm thinking that I'll use the calendar in a another way that's PRODUCTIVE, although still not the way it's intended...
For every half-page of this last god forsaken essay, I get one chocolate. If this works effectively, I may have to stock up on these calendars for next semester... ;)
~Shayla