Submission Part 1

by Wings

i don't know where the feeling came from
it is just there..
it has always been there
just below the surface

i have seen it a time or two 
over the years
but always buried it
not knowing what it was

it resurfaced not long ago
this time i did not bury it
but took it out
and examined it

what is it I asked myself
what is this feeling?
why am i so different?
is it because of this one thing?

i took it out and held it to the light
i looked at it from all angles
then i started my search
to find a name for it

i found it one day
quite by accident
i was roaming through cyberspace
and found this remarkable and strange place

so strange i kept coming back for more
coming in every day
watching the people
holding up this feeling

comparing it to the others in the room
it was the same
they had it too
i could see it

i had found a name
now i had to find out what to do with it
so i watched some more
low and behold i found out what to do with it

i was supposed to give it to someone
but who?
how would i know who to give it to?
how do i know They won't abuse it?

i thought of that long and hard
i almost lost it once
in the beginning
i was too eager to give it away

luckily someone saved me
she showed me how to be more careful
i held the feeling to myself for a while
scared then

i had almost messed up
but i did not give up
i kept looking
i knew He would be here

i felt it
i found Him one day
i watched Him
knew He was Worthy of it

i gave it to Him
i handed over this feeling
i had had in me so long
this deep, wonderful feeling

i gave it to Him for safe keeping
i told Him that together W/we would
explore it
together W/we would take it to its limits

but of course as most things go
forever is short lived
and i ended up with the feeling again
searching for someone to give it to

realizing once again
i had to be more careful
and make sure that the one i gave it to
was ready for it

for "it", i soon discovered
is all that i am
it is all that is in me
it consumes me now

this feeling of wanting
to give myself so completely to another
of wanting to please Them and in doing so
bring pleasure to myself

in finding a name for the feeling
i found a name for myself
i am a submissive.

The greatest gift a submissive can have,
Her Master's love.
The greatest gift a Master may have;
His slave's devotion. Enslaved to her Master!!!