| I feel i have to write a little on long distance loving.. and how it affects me.. how its effected my life.. and the coping mechnisims i have in place.. Master and i have never yet met.. but he knows everything about me.. and i know soo much about him.. and learn new things all the time.. when we met it was the normal online meeting.. and both of us enjoyed each other... we met again.. and again.. soon realising we were becoming special to each other.. its funny because hes soo totally different to me.. so totally different to anything i'd looked for in a Master/partner.. but there was something about him that drew me.. something i couldnt keep away from.. and it seems i was the same for him.. even from the start we never lied to each other.. and i have to say ive learned not to be very forthcoming with my details of my private life.. but to him i just opened up.. he is now my closest confidient .. i have always been able to tell him everything.. all those silly things that bug me.. all the stupid things i do.. all my good times and so many of my bad ones.. W/we soon built a life for ourselves on here.. where we meet and live for each other.. no matter what we do i always feel he is totally Master of me.. i didnt think it was possible to have a relationship like this.. i'd dreamed about meeting someone i could share with like i share my life with Him.. someone i could talk to about anything.. who i could tell anything.. who could pick out my bad days in a few sentences and just remind me that im not really all alone now.. i think we probably know more about each other than most married couples.. we try to spend as much time as possible together.. i work shift work and well with the time differences both of us tend to have erratic sleeping patterns.. we try to meet at least once a day.. on the times when we've been seperated for three or more days i feel like ive lost part of myself.. i cant stand it.. both of us have very creative imaginations and when we cant be together we write stories for each other.. Masters stories make me weep or blush or quiver with longing for him.. and well he likes mine too.. Now i'm not saying its not hard...it is.. i long for him.. long to meet him.. long to kneel for him.. to feel his hands on me.. we have spent as you can imagine a lot of time talking about our likes/dislikes.. desires.. needs.. wants.. must haves..well i think we've talked about everything.. and the funny thing is .. the more we talk about things the more alike in our preferences we are.. i often think on how amazing it is in all the millions of people cruising on the net i found him.. with these hidden needs unfulfilled but so very much a part of us.. and looking for the One to match those needs.. neither of us want the hard pain/punishments of the deep S/m relationships.. but his desire to be served is matched by mine to have someone i love to serve.. We've spent hours looking at web pages learning things.. and W/we know we are sooo lucky to have stayed together.. W/we did hmmm well a few things wrong.. but we stuck by each other through the tough early learning times and by the time we finally got to read castle realm and the like.. we were ready to move on.. after reading of all the mistakes you can make.. well our list was quite long.. but we knew what we wanted... so we have perservered and have grown strong as a D/s partnership along the way.. and i think a lot of this can be attributed to the time we have spent talking things through.. and maybe if we had been together in real as apposed to online we might not have made it this far.. who knows.. i like to think we would.. we talk about our meeting.. and know how hard it will be.. knowing soo much about each other.. we talk once a week on the phone for up to 6 hours.. but i dont know His smell and he doesn't know mine.. well thats how i think of it.. the only things i dont know about Master.. his smell.. and where i know from his discriptions how he will ummmm love me.. his touch will be new too.. W/we've talked about how we will have to start again..learning each other.. but we will have our time on here to at least know what the other likes and needs.. Honesty is so vital to make this work.. Master knows i'm terrible at housework.. and i think most of my bad habits.. and the things about myself i dont like.. and i know all about Him.. no big ugly or frightening surprises in store for either of us.. i'm not perfect.. just a mere mortal.. but one who loves Him beyond reason i think.. and one who can make Him happy i hope.. Master also hates it when i take time from my friends to be online.. He says i need a life here.. and if a friend drops round he insists i go and be with them.. i find that hard and often cause his displeasure by disobeying him.. i would so much rather be with Master.. even though i know He's right... as he always seems to be.. Master is a constant in my life and i think of Him constantly.. rushing home to see Him.. or see if Hes sent me mail.. taking quick naps.. while i wait for him.. (which i should be doing now) |
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