 FINALLY ~ CHAPTER ONE
"But I’ll
tell you what - it’s better this way, because when you open the door, you know,
you see the truth. Everything Sonny Corinthos touches, he destroys. Something
else we got in common, huh?"
"The people you love, you know, may be
bleeding all over the furniture, but at least they’re alive when you’re done
with them. Ask me if I can say that. Ask me! Do you tell them you’ll protect
them and then you wind up at a grave, at a hospital bed, wondering what went
wrong? No? No? Ask me if I can say that."
She awoke with an overwhelming
feeling of panic. She tried to take deep breaths to ease the constricting in her
chest. But it wouldnt go away. And it scared her.
Perhaps it was because
she could look back and remember the times this panic had seized her and the
actions she took to make it stop. She remembered screaming hysterically at
Virginia Benson then Virginia falling dead on the floor at the Port Charles
Grille. Pulling Taggart's gun and firing wildly at Tony. Grabbing her pillow and
calling it Michael. Showing up on the Quartermaine's door and telling them her
son had been kidnapped. All these actions had caused her and the people she
loves so much pain. More than a lifetime of pain.
See, baby I,
apologize For all the things that I've done in my life
She climbed
out of bed and grabbed the blue silk robe she had carelessly tossed on the
floor. She put it on and tied it around her waist. Pulling it as tight as it
would go. She walked to the desk on the other side of her massive bedroom and
sat down. She pulled the top drawer all the way out of the desk and pulled out
something she had hidden beneath the drawer. She felt the panic starting to slow
slightly as she looked at them. It was a picture of her family. Her real family.
She kept taking deeper and deeper breaths to try and ease the panic. And slowly
she began to feel calm again.
She began to think of what had caused the
panic. Her dream. She kept seeing him as he was that day. Unshaven. Foul
smelling. Cruel. She tried to get the look in his eyes that day out of her mind.
It was a look she had seen before. At Ferncliffe. A surreal combination of both
emptiness and relentless activity. She had seen insanity at Ferncliffe and only
a few months ago she had seen it again. In the eyes of Sonny Corinthos.
Jason had insisted that it was just a part of who Sonny was. These
breakdowns. Jason said it proved that Sonny was a good person because he felt
sorrow over the pain he had caused people. But she wasnt so easily convinced.
Jason may have seen the glass on the floor and smelt the stench in the
Penthouse. But he hadnt seen what she had seen. Jason hadn't seen the madman
that broke the glass and eminated the stench.
I can't think, think
about this crazy day
She knew the danger Sonny was putting himself
and Jason in by keeping Hannah in his life. She wondered if Jason did. Jason
loved Sonny so much. More than anything except Michael. She thought that maybe
love was preventing Jason from seeing the danger. From seeing the insanity.
Jason used to be so invincible. But now everything had changed. She was the only
one who had seen Sonny that day. Not Jason. Not Johnny. Not Benny. Not even
Mike. She was the only one who could see this situation straight. The only one
who could see through Hannah's lies and the only one who had seen Sonny's
insanity.
She knew she was coming dangerously close to doing something
she would regret but she also knew she could not stand by and watch Jason go to
prison. The thought of Jason in prison caused the panic to return. Images
flashed uncontrollably in her mind.
Sonny breaking a whisky bottle.
The gun in Hannah's room.
Sonny getting arrested for RICO violations.
She and Jason watching Moreno's men get busted on Pier 17.
The look on
Bobbie's face when Jerry was arrested at their wedding.
Jason leaning in and
kissing her softly.
The panic was rising. She reassured herself that she
wouldnt do anything stupid. Quickly she thought of the good choices she had
made. Telling Tony that he had no rights to her unborn baby because Jason was
the father. Giving Jason the power of attorney over her and Michael. Telling
Bobbie the truth that she was Caroline. Going to San Francisco to find Professor
Blackburn. Finding the FBI gun that proved Hannah was a secret agent.
She knew that she was closer now than ever to truly having the family
she always wanted. Jason had kissed her. She hadnt grabbed him she hadnt even
asked him to. He kissed her because he wanted to. She realized that her
uncovering Hannah had given Jason a new respect for her. All she had to do was
finish the job, get rid of Hannah for good and nothing would stand in their way.
I'm going crazy, crazy, crazy, just to thinkin about you lately I'm
going crazy, crazy, crazy, just to thinkin about you baby
She put
the picture back into the drawer and climbed back into bed. She knew she would
not see Sonny in her dreams again tonight. They would be filled with Jason and
Michael.
Carly had decided what she had to do.
Jason
knew Carly was on her way to his penthouse. He had assigned Francis to guard
Carly ever since she was mugged in an alley last month. Jason now suspected that
Agent Larkin had been behind the attack but he kept Francis on her anyway.
I've finally realized, that you are my true love And I had a lot of
time to think, and you're all seem to keep thinking, To keep thinkin of, yeahhh
Jason rubbed the bridge of his nose and then glanced at his watch.
It was half past three in the morning. He knew that Carly's trip could mean
nothing but trouble but never the less he had been excited when Francis' call
came in.
"Is there anything I can do for you now, Bobbie?"
"No,
thanks. Actually - Actually. There is something. If you love Carly, tell her.
I'm not going to pretend to know your heart. But I know Carly. And I love her.
Ask yourself if you want a life with her. And if you do. Tell her."
"I'm
not really good at imagining things, but I can't imagine my life without Carly
in it."
"Well, then. No matter how hard it is, the two of you should
find a way to be together."
Jason had decided after speaking to Bobbie
that he would tell Carly how he felt. But even Jason wasnt really sure how what
he felt for Carly. He knew he wanted her in his life forever and he was tired of
fighting that feeling. He was going to take a chance and trust her with his
heart.
And now I know I need you each and every day I can't live
without you, so don't run away
But Jason knew now was not the time.
He had to make sure things were safe for Carly and Michael. He had to convince
Sonny that keeping Hannah around was asking for trouble. He was so conflicted.
His loyalty to Sonny on one side - yet his loyalty to Carly, Michael, and his
men on the other. Right now Carly was the only one who knew about Hannah besides
him and Sonny.
I can't think, think about this crazy day I lose sleep
just to daydream about you baby I'm going crazy, crazy, crazy, just to thinkin
about you lately
Jason walked over to the door of his penthouse.
"Johnny come in here for a minute."
Hannah
slipped quietly out of bed and walked over to the door of the bedroom. She
watched Sonny sleeping peacefully and felt a familiar tug at her heart. She knew
that she should go downstairs and look in his desk but she felt as though her
legs weighed a thousand pounds. She watched him breathing in and out. He had
trusted her enough to let her into his house and his heart and his bed. And this
was how she was going repay him? By sending him and Jason to prison? Hannah
pushed the self accusations away and quietly made her way downstairs.
I can't live without you, so don't run away Baby you say that you
love me, so why would you leave me
She walked quietly to Sonny's
desk and sat down. She quietly pulled out a few papers and looked them over.
Coffee receipts. Employee payroll. Then she saw it. A small black datebook
sticking out from beneath the long stacks of papers. She quickly pulled it out
and it opened to tomorrow's date, November 30th. She saw a few things penciled
in then at the very bottom of the page "Meeting: Moreno Pier 22". She felt her
heart jump with excitement and dread almost simultaneously. Excited that she had
finally found her bust and dread at the inevitable.
I'm going crazy,
crazy, crazy, just to thinkin about you lately I'm going crazy, crazy, crazy,
just to thinkin about you baby
She had tried to prolong her time
with Sonny as much as possible but Agent Ford had given her an ultimatum. Bring
in the information to bring Sonny down by the end of the week or go back to
pushing papers in some basement with no field assignments ever again.
She remembered how hard she had worked to get this assignment. First in
college, then in the Academy then her struggle to get field assignments. Sonny
Corinthos had been her first and she had blown it. Blown it by falling in love
with him. Blown it by caring for Jason who she would have to take down as well.
But she had no choice. She pulled out her cell phone and dialed the only
number she was allowed to call on it.
"Larkin." The voice across the
line was eager.
"Meeting with Moreno. Tomorrow night at 11pm. Pier 22."
She choked the words out.
"Great job, Hannah. Corinthos. Morgan, and
Moreno all in one shot. You're going to make up for all your stalling with this
one." She could hear Larkin salivating through the phone. He would get just as
much credit for this bust as she would.
"Just be there and get this over
with." Hannah hissed and hung up. She lowered her head into her hands. Forgive
me, Sonny. Oh God, forgive me.
As Hannah prayed for absolution she never
heard Sonny slip quietly back up the stairs.
Lyrics: Crazy by K
Ci & JoJo
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