MARILYN MANSON FINDS GOD



Marilyn Manson taught me a new word:  dystopia.  My Merriam Webster's Collegiate dictionary, Tenth Edition defines it as an "imaginary place where people lead dehumanized and often fearful lives."  Marilyn Manson used it in a sentence when he was describing his band's new album, Mechanical Animals, the follow-up to Antichrist superstar, the 1996 industrial concept album that propelled him to stardom.  "On Antichrist Superstar I was dealing with everything from my past and using that to try and become something very superhuman," said the 29-year old singer.  "So I shut off a lot of my emotions and numbed myself.  Writing my autobiography forced me to examine my life, and I began to start feeling again.  When I started to experience empathy, it felt to me like being an infant or an alien.  Mechanical Animals documents that and dreams of a kind if dystopia."      I nodded in understanding.  I mean, I did comprehend and appreciate almost everything-Marilyn Manson's tortured adolescence in Ohio has been well-documented in articles and his best-selling autobiography, The Long Hard Road Out of Hell.  Marilyn Manson kept his sunglasses on the entire time, although he had drawn the drapes.  I wanted to put mine on too, but I didn't think it would be cool to whip them out, like a copycat.  Marilyn Manson wore pinstriped pants and a sheer white shirt with blue markings on it-and sipped some amber liquid.       We sat together on a couch.  I had seen David Letterman flailing during an interview with him.  Dave obviously knew nothing about him and was trying to wing it, and the musician was having none of it.  "He was wearing more makeup than me, and it scared me,"  Manson told me.  I was more informed than Dave, but I had been faxed the lyrics to the new album only an hour before.  But he had explained his childhood time and time again in interviews and his book-stuff about how a perverted grandfather and a Christian school were defining circumstances for him.       Marilyn Manson continued his explanation of the thinking behind the album-which is more rock and less industrial than his previous work-and the feature film he plans to make as a companion piece to it.  "The more I began to feel, the less that it seemed the world felt, and that's when I started seeing everything and everyone as mechanical animals-people that looked and acted human, but were to me, metaphorically more like androids," said Marilyn Manson.  "There was no soul or spirit inside.  I grunted in assent.    I asked Manson how he managed to shut off his emotions for all those years.  "Mostly by being self-destructive," he said.  "I would put myself through a lot of physical pain with drugs or with masochistic behavior.  And that was something that transformed me, really.  I found myself being a different person."  Yet no therapy was involved.  "I've tried a couple of times, but I find that self examination works better for me than trying to explain it to someone else,"  he said.  "I guess music is my therapy."      A lot of the songs on the record deal with fame, which is very common for a newly famous band.  "I examined what I see fame doing to other people and how I try to separate myself from that, and how it isolates you, how it puts you in the position of being an oddity or something," said Manson, who wears breasts in the video, "The Dope Show."  He said he did it in order to "represent vulnerability and sexlessness and how the world looks at me as something they can't fathom."      Another theme that runs through the album is drugs.  I asked if he still doing them, but apparently I missed the point.  "I meant narcotics as a metaphor for people's need to numb themselves," he said.  "That's what Mechanical Animals is hinting at:  that we're encouraged to not have emotions, to not be individuals, to not have an opinion."  Oh.  "As far as the message on the album, when it comes to drugs, it's not a positive or a negative," he said.  "In the past I used drugs to fill a void.  But now it more for inspiration or just purely recreation.  I don't do them to excess."  According to the book, he's never done heroin but is a fan of cocaine.      What defines Marilyn Manson for a lot of people is his distaste for organized religion, a revulsion that he developed while attending that Christian school.  His parents sent him there because they wanted him to get a good education.  He got into satanism a bit as a teenager because one of his stoner friends had a Satan-worshipping brother.  Once Mason got famous, he met Anton LaVey, the late founder of the Church of Satan.  Whatever to satanism-I'll chalk it up to youthful confusion.      "If God does exist, it's in music and in art," said Manson.  "I think that there is more spirituality in what I do than in a lot of religious groups;  judging, especially, in the way they've treated me in the past couple of years."  He was referring to the candlelight vigils protesting his "ungodliness" at the shows.  "I've grown tired of talking about religion.  It's time for me to move on.  I am trying to redefine the idea of spirituality and make it not such a bad word for myself, because I find I sound really stupid saying it sometimes."      Most people feel stupid talking about spirituality.  The genius of Marilyn Manson is that he doesn't.  There's a definite spirituality trend going on with celebrities, and it reminds me of organized religion: it's what everyone else is doing.  But Marilyn Manson really seems to have some to it from the inside out, instead of the other way around.

transcribed by misreznor, from jane