Kiss

Please rememeber what I said. When I would kiss you, it felt like the first time, every time. Your sweet embreace, still makes me feel lifeless. God, I want to die. I never felt so much pain. When it went away, and then you soon followed. Love is nothing, anymore. These feelings willnot go away. I pray at night for your return. My words seem so small yet they men so much. HOw can I make you see, how much you still mean to me. You ring has never left the necklace its on. I never take it off. I don't know why. It hurts to even try. I understand why you hate me. I robbed you of your own. Hush now, thats a secret. No one can know about. Is that life as dead as our love? Damn these thoughts that bleed in my head. It must mean somwthing. If not that why is it in my head. I am asking so many questions that I can't find any words good enough to satisfy me. I long to hear your voice. Even if its just "Hello." If I can get that, I am just one step close to those three words you would always say to me. You lied when you said you did not. I just can't see how thats possible. But thats minor to what I said. My first love. My true love. Does that make any sense to you? What am I to you? Just another friend? You will never tell. And words can't describe the ain that brings to my heart.