lyrics

blind boy

i don't know what's got into me. think it's got a hold of me. things aren't
quite so clear to me. the flesh is now my enemy. stepping towards eternity. 
dealing with disparity. i'll inflict indignity. upon your body. warm spit
and adrenalin. sweet incense of leather skin. throw all caution to the wind.
i want i need what lies within. you can try to run. and you can try to hide
soon i'll slip inside of you. open up wide. 

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i can still feel what you put inside of me. i couldn't breath without what 
you've given me. i should have seen the victims the reality. i've paid the 
price for your sins.

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can't stop until i die                        i can't, i tried
i've tried to close my eyes                   i wanted, you gave me
i want i lust                                 just look at what you've
it makes me feel alive                        done to me

the twisted flow of my relief. clotted core of my belief. hollow sounds and
lack of life. growth without vitality. what are they going to do to me. when
they get a hold of me. i've thrown away all modesty. gained a new identity.
the fear i left behind. the faith i tried to find. it could have been, should
have been. used to be mine


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(chorus)
... blind boy (whisper)



betrayed

i thought i could trust the people i knew, i thought i could even trust you.

with my back, to your front, when i looked the other way. they saw you, saw
you then they came on in. they striped you away and i had to stay. i've been
betrayed, my life is shattered in disarray.

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i'm spinning around and i'm kicking back. (x3)
i'll hunt them down... i'll get you back.

oh my god, what have i done to deserve this. what have i done to deserve this.  
why does this have to happen to me?

ashes to ashes and dust to dust. so went our love and the trust. you baptized
my body and you cleansed my soul. i took a bite of the apple, i played the
part. now spit on my heart and rip it apart. 

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godless

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blue to black

mirrored fragments that are staring back. livid lips and an eye that's turning 
blue to black.
... cracked.
sweaty walls that keep me company and the stink of perfume primes my memory.
... luxury!!!
takes you in it's arms won't you honey hush. senses drown in skin that crawls
and squirms to touch.
... crushed.
whisper words into my mouth and bite. coming up for air and suffocate delight.
... spite!!!
mirrored fragments that are staring back. livid lips and an eye that's turning
blue to black.
... cracked.
with an aftertaste so sweetly sour. i embrace the shame as it hugs me teeth by 
jowl.
... howl!!!
blue to black. blue to black!!!



pain covered with skin

i tried to suffocate my feelings i've even closed my eyes. but who am i to
fool, certainly not you. in the darkness of my mind your spirit still survives.
the demise of the innocent it seems so unfair.

how long can this last. the flashing images of a blackened past. a tear blurred
vision of an outcast. i'll say it to you one more time. how long can this last.


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save me from this madness. save me from the strain. i can't take this anymore.
i'm just pain covered with skin. 
save me from this madness. save me from the strain. why am I condemned to live 
a life of pain covered with skin. 

why is there the bad luck and the broken dreams. in a world that's full of
greed what happened to the trust. how i long to find divine truth that will 
set us free from a world that's so unjust. 

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share my disease

i'm trapped within this razor sharp cell. a tomb made flesh and lined with
bone. i'm afraid there might not be a heaven or hell. only a blackened void to
keep me from being alone.
i'm tearing myself apart from the inside. strip by strip my bloody fingertips.
i wish in you i could confide. these illusions that i must hide.

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i need, i feed.                                     i cry, i sigh.
i breed, i bleed.                                   i lie, i die.
can you tell me why.
i'm afraid of myself and only you can help me (x2)

why is there no meaning to my life. why am i alone again tonight. as i sit
here with my wrist to the knife. i can't help but feel alright. 

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i used to think i was the only one. close my eyes and count to ten. pull the 
trigger to oblivion. i thought i had the guts back then.

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sometimes i dream i'm underground. everything's silent without a sound. and if
i die before i wake. i'll tell god it's his mistake.

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away

i confided in you (don't worry i'll be true.)
i was helpless in need (follow me i'll lead the way.)
i was doubting myself (disbelief i will dispel.)
i thought that you would help me. there's no turning back since you stole my 
pride. feelings thrown aside, i feel fine.

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i can feel the hatred burning inside of me. you're the one who took my dreams 
away. i can feel the hatred burning inside of me. what's it going to take to 
make you go (away.)

i should have seen the lies (trust me i'll set you free.)
i could have seen the light (if the sun shined on me.)
i should have known better (you let me down.)
i thought that you would help me. there's no turning back since you stole my 
pride. feelings thrown aside, i feel fine.

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i needed help to get where I wanted to be.      you told me i had the ability.
you said that you would show me the way.        you said that you would.
help me
there's turning back now the damage is done.  you told me i had the ability.
i wish i had never met you, won't you just go.  you took away what really
mattered to me. it could have been such a beautiful sight. you took my mind
but I held on tight!!!

i'll take you down and I'll rip you up. i should have known then i'll spit you 
out (you motherfucker!) just leave me alone.