Depression and Loneliness
Watching, Waiting

Watching the fun and laughter
--hate and fights.
Watching the playing, the talking,
--the friendships.
All through the day,
--watching,
--waiting.
Smiling when smiled at,
Nodding when nodded at.
Watching, waiting
--to join
--the fun.
Always there, but never
--belonging.
Watching, waiting
The Light
A bright light
Drawing me nearer
But scorching me with its' rays
I break off
Falling back into the darkness
 A Lonely River

A lonely river, cascading down the rocky bed
Leading to an eternity
--of love
--of pain
--of sorrow
Neverending feelings
A torrent of suffering, longing, and happiness
--Overwhelmed with dismay
--Burdened by desire
--Blinded by greed
A wall of anger blocking the way
The natural coarse disturbed
Thw ater hits and changes direction
--Going back the way it came
--And all other directions
Except its' real destination.
Fade Away
by RM
AS I look at the sky
It just makes me want to cry
I've lost all those close and dear
I've even lost the one in the mirror
All my friends have gone away
I don't want to leave this way
What would they do if they saw me pass
And lay down deep in the grass
Would they sit and cry all day
Or just watch me fade away
 I Am the One
by RM
I am the one
Who has no fun
As I watch them play around
I just sit here on the ground
I watch birds fly by me
And I wonder how this can be
for I am blind and have no sight
For all I see is the night
 Push Away
by RM
I push away from those so close
I push away and take a dose
Of the drug that gets me high
O-so high I touch the sky
But I fall when it's over
Look I found a four leaf clover
Then I see it's only three
And I push them away from me
 Until Tody
by RM
Until today I had a friend
Now I think I am at the end
I lost him once
I lost him twice
To have a friend would be mice
Until today I could believe
Until today I could leave
 Who Am I
by RM
Who am I to ask of you
How to walk or tie a shoe
I have no rights in this place
Where everyone laughs in my face
I try to talk to those that care
But all I do is talk to air
so all I want to do
Is to ask of you
Who am I
What should I do