for my everything
my soul that feared, above all else
that i would not be able to do it
or handle it
to teeter so effortlessly on the edge of a cliff
that i may or may not be able to jump from
and that's the beauty of it all
i don't have to jump
i will not be pushed
i can simply teeter until i roll gracefully
over and sink deeply into a pile of plush green pillows.
slowly
and deliciously
be swallowed whole by the same fire that consumes him
and we could lose ourselves in it.
that's some of the fear, some of the anticipation
wanting to be devoured yet fearing loss of independence.
somehow, i don't think we will
lose anything
maybe you already have the most important thing anyhow.
i'm so easy to see through
you can see that i love you.
i tell you when you go to sleep.
while you're holding me against you
when your breath becomes even and soft
i whisper my love in your ear.
and that is just fine
because you can feel me loving you
and if i didn't want to ever say it
you would still know it.
amazing.