It doesn't matter how many tears I will cry for you

Or how many poems I write

I will be what I despise now

The reptile

"She spreads her legs wide open..."

But I let in more than just an insect

My honey thickened with a metallic graze

And then it began

My prophetic words came true

They jumped from the paper and we breathed life into them

"And our lips will touch, bodies intertwine, until the sun kisses us godnight..."

I was wrong in one aspect however

You will still leave, and I will regret

For your taste will cling to my lips

It was wild abandon and sweet bliss - orgasmic intensity unsurpassed

And it was wrong

We are forbidden to each other in more than one way

We have everything to lose

The regret I will feel for lying is only rivaled by the sadness I feel for telling the truth

I will only cry alone

I told you all of my secrets

I spared you nothing

Now I have to lie to save myself

I do not fear discovery

This is not a game

Truth can only hurt - it will always hurt

"But you will never forget the bliss that forbidden fruit can bring"

I was right about that too

You won't be the only one who remembers though

It's a bittersweet kiss that changed from life to death

My heart has been breaking

It will continue to break until it has broken me too

Terrible lie

Terrible life

But I cannot save myself any sooner than I could save you

Regreful reptile

Laying in wait

Hiding in lies

And covered in sorrow

Eloquence will not help me now

It's what has damned me forever

To pick up the bottle will be easier now

To lessen the pain in my soul

To pick up the pen will be simple now

To ease the racing thoughts that possess me

To conquer the pain in my heart

Will be a task I may never complete

But at least I know

At least you'll run

At least my heart will break in silence

In darkness

Forbidden - and alone

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