I Knew This Would Happen

I knew this would happen.

I knew you’d change your mind.

I’m too crazy to love.

You’ll never know how much you hurt me with one sentence.

A simple statement to give me so much angst.

I will miss you.

At least I don’t have to know that I’m loved now.

That would just kill me.

How can you do this to me?

WHY?????

You’ll never see me.

No one ever will now.

It’s over.

I have really given up.

Maybe I’ll crawl into a shell and die, but I’m just not that lucky.

If you only knew the way I can die.

I haven’t cried like this for a long time.

I know it’s not intentional, you never mean to hurt me.

The distance will slowly kill me.

If you don’t first.

Maybe angels aren’t all that angelic after all.

6-11-99

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